Dear Matt, yep it's me Auntie Darlene. I really miss you.but i know we will see eachother someday.Lindsay and Lawrence are doing just fine. I cant help but feel you are watching over them. in a good way. I think of you when im out mowing my five acres. planting flowers, picking flowers mainly when im outdoors. Also i think of you when i hear 'fluff" and other songs like red hot chili peppers cd, you always love to listen to music, you would even put up with your aunties old rock n roll like Elton and oh how many times do you think we watched Tom Petty Live?  well just want to say hi . I love you  love Auntie Darlene

Matt it hurts so bad I freakin hope there is something out there after life here.... I just want to see you again I miss u sooooooooooiiooooiiio much I think about you all day everyday why you why why why you didn't deserve that suffering and I am sooooooooo sorry last time I saw you alive , not in a coma ,I was at my  lil boys bday party in Ventura I kept trying to get you to walk with me down to the water but for some reason we never did  how I wish we could have I think about that too I think how I was trying to get grandma to fly you out to me for me to take care of you and I talked to you alll the time in the Phone you wanted to go with us to the creek with the dogs and 4 wheeling with byron how I wish we could have done that too you never knew how much I worried or how much I cared or loved you and that's what I break down almost everyday about not saving you I should have gone and got you I should have never let you out of my sight I should have Matt and I am sorry I didn't I wish ther was a way to know your ok to sorta believe what people say about a better place I'm not sure all I know is I don't have you here and my Heart is forever broken forever and it will never be the same nobody else lives what we lived we have soooo many memories of just us yet it's no where near enough I wish I could hug you again hold your hand I wish my promise to you didn't break when I said you where gonna get better in the hospital I wish those things but they are just empty just floating around not mattering because all that matters is you I struggled all our life (and still do  )loving anyone ever but I always loved and love you from the day I remember you I have memories of you as a baby and I'll never forget anything Matt I'll never forget .... I got to go I cant see what I'm typing anymore I'm soooo sad

I'm going to set up a Facebook page for you Matt so I can talk to you through that all
The time and anyone else who wants to talk to you or try to look for you later can see your page

Hi Matt I miss you I hope you are around me I hope you are truely in a better place

Dear Matt  I think of you every day, today I was going through paperwork and came across a coupon that you made for me: life time guarantee of hugs and kisses.  I wish that we had had more time I didn't get to use that coupon nearly enough.  I miss and love you guy.

Happy birthday baby 
Brother I miss you so much it's so hard to live any kind of happy life knowing you are gone I can't even explain how sad I am I don't even wanna talk you know I hope that I love you I hope you are around I hope there is an afterlife I reLlly hope I'll see you later ,Matt

Matt I miss you so much damn it you don't even know how much I love you and think about you every few minutes everyday I really am struggling with knowing for sure what is going to happen after life all I hope is that I get to see you again hear your voice and hug you I'm sorry you had such a hard life baby I'm sooo sorry ;(
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matthew my sweet baby brother, How cool were you?...like seriously...you were awesome and its a shame everyone couldnt have known you! You know the month of may was the best and the worst time of my life...best because i spent almost every day with you...talking to you....touching you...telling you everything i ever wanted to say to you...holding your hand kissing your face...but the worst because i knew you would never wake up again...i knew it, but then i was also happy that your suffering was finally over...how do i feel??? happy? sad? i dont know. but i miss you still....you know what gives me comfort??...your dad was with you the moment you took your last breath...he said that seconds before your heart stopped..you looked to the sky and smiled and he said you looked like you saw something beautiful....heaven!...your so lucky for that ...i know your mind is clear there...and you know we love you. Bet you even get in trouble sometimes because you wont leave the animals alone! lolol you just loved animals...remember when you and your dad lived with me in rosamond?...and i had that mean puppy and i had to keep him locked up because he would bite us...but you ....you would sneak him out at night and take him into your room and sleep with him?....you were the only one that could touch that dog...and i would get mad at you....lol you were so cute! And your heart was always in the right place. i miss you matt so much it hurts. but you deserve heaven im glad you made it. To anyone reading this...please dont take for granted that someone will always be around....my baby brothers birthday was jan 18th and i Called Him that Day and told him I wOULD TaKe Him OUt to eat for his birThDAy SOON....and i just blew it off....thinking i had all the time in the world...i didnt. He passed may 31st 2012...oh how i wish i had the one last memory i long for sooooo much. i dont have enough memories with you....but i will cherish forever may 3rd 2012- may 31st 2012 thank you for those days.Love you forever and ever matthew ryan farwell....taken too soon

I  really miss u Matt this is a picture of you at my little boys birthday the last time we got to see you before u went into the hospital it's not a great pic but its all I have

many great memories not enough time I miss u lil brother

Love you matt and miss you every second of everyday. Labor day is coming up and wish we could have a BBQ with you one last time... so much i wish for just one more time with you. miss u miss u miss u!!! you know when i think about i dont have even 1 bad memory im thankful you were my little brother God knows whats right

Matt I remember so many lil things that we used to do as kids and when u lived with us each day it's like a bitter sweet reminder of the great times we had I wanna remember forever I love you little brother love
Bridge

hey Matt I really miss u things are hard lately and I just think of u nothing was your fault and I hope u know that I love u so much love your sister ,bridge

Matt it,s auntie Darlene. On my way to see 
grandma in CO. Lindsay's in the hospitol . She is OK , I know you are watching over her just as you always did before. I love you Matt Love Auntie Darlene

hey matt just missing you a little extra today than normal...because i miss you every day lol i love you so much and im blessed to have been able to tell you that before you had to leave but i just wanna tell you again...i love you matt!

Hey Matt thinking about you today....... Looking at pics.......;(

Matt,you have always been my favorite cousin but we were more than cousains,We were Brother's.We were best friends growing up and when we were in our later teen's we were two people no one wanted to mess with lol the Destruction brothers as we called ourselves.we worked together,lived together and ran together,there were never a funner time than the times we spent together it is only to bad that god hath taken you from us but I am sure you are living it up in heaven and watching over our family with that incredible smile.I will always miss you bro but I am happy to have had you in my life,Your Brother

Matt you were the coolest person anyone could know

Matt we used to go round and round for hours around the stop sign in grandmas yard and play with worms in the gutter And throwing oranges out of the back yard. we had a good time with ourselves when we were little. I miss that

hey Matt do you remember when we were kids and at grandmas house they used to put flags in people's grass for 4 th if July I asked dad to bring u one

Matt I just want to say that idk what happens after life on earth I'm confused... but I really hope I get to see you again to tell you so many things to hug you to laugh with you again ... I'm just gonna hold on to some little bit of hope that I can one day .until then I will never know ... so I'll just keep writing you here... it's all I know to do since I'm kinda far from where you are .... I think you if your around probably like the spot your in ... next to where airplanes take off I think its kinda cool...I called you on your birthday a few months ago and got to talk to you ... back then you knew who I was... and I said I wanted to take you out for a birthday dinner or lunch .. you said maybe a burger place ... I never got to take you out ... I'm so sorry Matt I should have you probably didn't even think about it really or Maybe you did but I do ..and I feel terrible I'm sorry ... I might say I'm sorry too much but I am I feel so bad I know I could have done more to help
you and life got in the way now yours is taken away by something that could have been prevented. I just hope ..that's all I have to be able to get through this is hope that we meet up again I'll never forget you my little brother I promise ...and I'm gonna bring you a burger :)k good night now love you

Matt my life feels so different without you. I can't imagine how dads life feels . I hope you watch over him he loved you so

When Kathy told me of your passing I was very sad.  We spent a very short time together, but you will always be part of this family and will always be my cousin.  Love Sheelagh

Dear Matt, Im so torn up that you are gone. I think of how close you and I were when I was last visiting you and your Dad. I know you are in the beautiful kingdom where you wont have hurt , pain ever again . I believe God has a plan for all of us , he just needed you sooner than the rest of us Uncle Dennis, cousins Lawrence Lindsay and yes me your auntie Darlene will miss you. We will see you when we hear our calling. Rest big guy.  Love Aunt Darlene

Dear Matthew, You are very special.You Are a little angel I wish I could have had more time with you and been able to get to know you. Love Tanja

Dear Matthew, your memories and spirit  will live on in my thoughts and heart forever and ever. Uncle Dwain

Matt today we buried you.you looked so handsome . your last ride to your final resting place was the hardest thing Yet the most undescibable full of love feeling ive ever felt .today was a day to celebrate your life. I wish we knew for sure u knew how much you ment to so many people. your service was so cool. you would have been proud of it. I'm sure you are proud of it.theres a few things I want to tell you..... first you always had and have me. I am your big sister I should protect and comfort you. it should not be now that I am telling you . you mean more to me than any word could ever say , mean or express. I should have been there I should have saved you it was my job and I let you down. I am so sorry baby brother. I can't change the past damn it I sure hope I see you when it's time. I want you to know my spirit is with you wherever you go. you will always have that and time ,bad stuff , hurt , pain , love , hate,life or death will never ever change that. you are free you are not gone you are here.every moment of life on earth  with you was the best time I ever had. I love you Matt , love  Bridgette

I am so sad that you are gone, Matt!  It has been many years since I saw you, and I know you had a rough time, but I also know you were loved so much.  I am glad to say I knew you, and will never forget you.  As much as we will miss you, you are at peace now.  Love forever, Lori

Matthew for everytime I did not give you what you needed I'm sorry. You were smarter then the average bear, and deserved so much. You were loved by many, and so badly your family and friends want just one more day to tell you. I Love You Matt. Sleep with the angels in peace.

Hey Matt It's me your big sister you were always the most important person in my life. for so may years we mainly had just eachother.i know there are so many memories only me and you have.I can say so many wonderful things about you but I feel that's not enough. I miss you so much. I wish I was able to tell you the things I wanted to you to know like I am sorry for not being closer to you when we got older. I know I was able to apologize recently and I know you had a hard time understanding stuff , but I know you were in there. I want you to know how great you were how much fun you made everything we ever did. Life was boring if you weren't there to be you. As kids we would just laugh and laugh and get in trouble for laughing too much but you were hilarious. I went and picked you up from California and you came to live with  me and Byron and you really enjoyed our time together. You looked up to Byron and he loved you like his own brother. Everyone you met loved you right away.You have a special gentle kind caring soul. I feel you in my heart I know you are always around. I will love you forever and you have life in my eyes with no end.

My Little Matt Matt....sweet baby brother,
A piece of my heart is missing now but my heart will always be filled with wonderful memories and love that i have for you. You are now back home with the Lord and have a new life...better life,No more stuggling and no more pain or sorrow. You are our angel now and we will never stop mourning your depature from this world. But we will see you again and what a wonderful event to look forward to. I LOVE YOU MATT

You will still live on forever....this is the new life now....better life now Matt

My Matt Matt.... words cannot express how much you are loved and will be missed. Its like a piece of my heart is missing now! But my heart will be filled with love and memories forever. I know you are home with the Lord now and your fight is over...no more stugging and no more pain and sorrow. You are truely a beautiful brother and I love you greatly. My Chief Whattum Buttum!!!!!

Thank you Matthew for bringing such joy into our Family.  Kathy could not have been prouder if you were her own. We will never forget your sweet smile and your sillyness. We will miss you, but the memories will last forever.  We love you Matthew.

I am so glad I was able to meet you and spend time with you when you were living with Kathy and Clint. I especially remember the time you came to visit us in Mississippi. I can see you at the Air Station, so interested in everything the guide was explaining to us.  You had so many questions.  You also seemed to really enjoy our trip to Vicksburg and had a great interest in the memorials there.  You bought some little toy soldiers and had a great time playing with them when us old folks got too boring for you.  We went on house tours and visited various historical museums.  The only one that didn't seem to impress you was the doll museum! It was a fun time and gave us great memories of you. 

                                                       Troy and Joe Konieczka (Gardner, KS)

Matt will live in my heart forever.  I have so many wonderful memories. I was blessed to have him come in to my life when he was just four years old. I will miss him and his sweet gentle nature. I love you Matt.

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Matthew Ryan Farwell

Born 18 JANUARY, 1989

Valley Funeral Home

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