Richie ever since you left I started to lose myself  but  I can truly say after 8 months I found myself again. It's been hard without you but i know your in heaven looking down at me. Your my guardian angel now and i can accept  it i will always love you and miss you i be sober jeremy and i we working on our house but things are changing i love you 


Miss you 
Can't wait to see you on Thanksgiving 
Your wife charlene pauline


Hey my love 
It's been 5 months almost I been working towards our goal. Its seems to get better every day I always find myself wondering off and just breaking down I miss you so much richie and I know your in a better place but I wish I could have spend more time with you on your last days I would have nvh give. Anything  to be there I remember the last night you called me and you told me you love me richie I can't changed anything that happened but I will not fall or disappoint  you I will do what ever it takes to get us all together again I promise 

 I love you Richard Kyle pauline senior citizen  lol♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡


Richie I can't believe it's been 4 months already I got sober I did so did jeremy and we managed to move back to kapolei emergency shelter but I got a job interview tomorrow at McDonald's I know your watching over me I thank you so much but thanks for showing me how a really family is your dad and you opened up your hearts to me and I can never repay you guys but I can show the same thank you both love you truly your 
wife charlene pauline

Richie you know me so well I don't know who you asked to help me. But thank you cause I been sober over a month now and I moved kapolei with my family but I am working on getting a place and hoping aunty would come stay with us or let me take them so I can have my whole family together again I miss you dear love you always cross my ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Your wife 
Charlene pauline



Hey richie its been a long time since i wrote too you its been a battle for me. I feel as i died with you but i didnt died i got lost i never knew how much you played a part in my life. But its been almost 1 month clean and today on our anniversary i took our kids i had them all today i picked them up this morning we caught bus all the way to you and know you are at peace cause i am one step closer to bring them home. Richie i had to lose my self to find myself and its been a very long battle and i finally let dad know my promise i kept it. And also bring them to you today i am a step closer i just have one more thing to do thank you richie for never giving up on me i miss you so much and i will always love you. Now your at peace with mom and dad and i will start fresh how we planned love you and thanks i know you even though your not here you been here helping me i know that I LOVE YOU RICHARD KYLE PAULINE ❤ 💙 💖 💕 

Richard I still can't believe that u r gone.. U and Keith both,, til today it bothers me cause I did not get to say good bye to u both.. Many times as I am riding around on my way to the store or something , as I pass some guys on the streets it seems as if I seen u or Keith.. lots of times passing some guys on the streets they seem to look like u or even Keith ... I know it's cause I don't have any closer when u both left.. , I didn't get to day good bye to u both.. Well I hope we will meet again someday thou I feel that I am not going to b lucky enough to join n u folks when my time comes cause I am not saintnor have I been good... Just remember I Love and Miss u both more than u ever know as well as u both have a special place in my Heart Andy I have lots of great, wonderful memories of u both that I will always treasure dearly... Until we meet again Lots of Love and Aloha from me to u both . Love and Miss u always ur cousin Jody

Hey richie today out son makes 12 years old. He is getting so big and looks more and more like you. Today I am going to take jaycee and jeremy and we going go take kyle and bella beach and I going to give kyle the fishing pole you bought him before you passed. I wish you was here richie I miss you so much I still can't come to terms of you gone. I been avoiding our kids cause I can't hide my feeling I just like brake down richie my knee is bother me and I am already crying cause I miss you and I have to face our kids so please give me strength I need to get through this please. I don't want them to worry when I have to leave but I know I can't help but cry I know they are still young and I just want them to focus on there school and not worry about how mom is handling herself so please richie please give the strength I need I going take them to your spot at sewers where I take your flowers every week I love you richie n miss you 

Truly your wife 
Charlene pauline

Hey richie tomorrow our son make 12 years old I wish you was here to spent it with us but I am giving him his fishing pole you bought him richie and we jeremy and I going take them fishing at your spot tomorrow k love you always 


Richard last night our son calls me he needed a baby picture of him for his 6 grade graduation i wish you could be here richard its so hard everytime I see Bella and kyle they remind me of you and i just brake down i been having a hard time facing them really really i just dont no how to act i can't seem to hide my feelings

Richard Kyle pauline senior citizen lol i use to call you that all the time remember after we had kyle which is junior so you became SR lol I miss you richard I coming tomorrow to see you i dont know why but i just been stalling myself from coming to see you i just been trying to hold on too you i know you told me to come just baby and i which we will tomorrow I dont think i am ready to face it but i know know matter what you always be on my side helping me and i know you been trying to show me i know but like i said i have to give it a shot i want jeremy and i to work i really do i love him but we see how that gos but the other day i was on I
The bus thinking after all these years we was married i just remembered my promise to your dad about never give up and always being there for you i am happy that i kept my promise to him i know your with mom and dad and i know even if i cant see you richard i know your always with me I feel you near and that is why i know everything is going to be ok i thank you for always be here for me your everything to me richard you was my husband my best friend my only family you are someone that cant ever be replaced in my eyes and your father and i thank you both for that both for always in my mind and heart love you 

Your wife truly
Charlene pauline

We started dating Jan 31 2008 and we got married May 24 2012 



Richard today makes 4 months since you went into the hospital 4 months ago yesterday was thw last time i talked to you richard I dont know what to do i still wish i could have brought you home I wasnt ready for you to leave all day i tryed to keep myself busy trying to find someone i can talk to but i still found myself home with baby crying alone. I know your with me i know i just wish i could have changed that night so you would be here i miss you Richard i do. And bella just called me and it all hit me i love you richard 

Your wife 
Charlene pauline

Hi Richie its been over a month now and i still cant handle your gone. I never would have thought you would leave like this. I miss you so much sometimes i wish I was with you but then i look at jaycee and our kids but i wish you were here with me Richie I thank you so much for being my husband for showing me what it is to be apart of a family to have someone love me just as much as i love them thank you 

Richie i miss you so much I need you so much right now I am really lost without you here I need you to guide me show me plz richie. This isnt easy for me it is so hard I miss you love you always 

  Truly your wife 
I love you

Richard its so hard without you here i miss you so much i keep thinking its all a bad dream and i will get up soon but then i relaize you aint coming back i dont know how to just move forward i dint have you my back bone you always been there for me no matter what i did you always was on my side protecting me guiding me teaching me and i thank you for that i love you richard and i miss you i cant wait to be with you again i know your waiting for me so just know i love you and i will do my best y
Till i cone to you love you 

Missing you like crazy Richard.  I'm trying to be strong and positive like you would want me to be.... please guide me and  help me through this process it feels like I'm hitting rock bottom.

Richard the love of my life tomorrows the big day.  How I wish it could be our wedding day unfortunately this is your day for you to be laid down to rest.  I'm praying 🙏 that you are watching over me and the kids.  Its been a rough couple of weeks trying to keep myself occupied so I won't dwell on you.  Our daughter is back to no clothes and our son is still living each day as its his last.  We miss you so much we love you Richard, papa, and dad.  On the real sweetheart it feels like my ❤  has been torn out of my chest.  Till we meet again I love you Richard

Richard my sweetheart my one and only.  Richard everyday that goes by it gets easier for me to get back on track.  I'm starting to brush my hair and getting use to putting my own bra on.  There is so many things that I need to do and learn how to do again.  Since you Richard did everything and anything for me and my family.  I miss you so much I miss holding you, laughing with you, most of all I miss hearing your voice and kissing your 💋.  I Iove you Richard

Richard everyday i seem to reliaze how much i need you how much i depended on you to be here with me i wish i could just get one more day with you to tell you everything i wish i did i would give up anything for just one more day but i cant wait to see you on friday but i wish i didnt have to say good bye i cant seem to get over your gone richie i love you abd always will be with me in my heart k i love you 

My copilot back in the day, never going forget you richard rest in love.

Richard was so much a part of the HUFFMAN family. We all grew up together and shared so many memories. I love you Rich. Fly with angels my brother😘🙏.. Rest In Love


My Richard always happy, full of joy, and the biggest heart around.  Richard you are the love of my life

My sweetheart love of my life Richard words can't say what I'm feeling right now.  I miss you so much.  I love you Richard.  This pass 4 years have been the best. You were my protector, my mate, my friend, and everything I ever wanted in a man.  I need to see or talk to you for closer.  Things wasn't suppose to be like this I know your watching over me but that's not enough I can't move on or sleep.  I love you Richard to the moon and back.

everytime things get hard or bad i look for you. even though we had our own life you played a big part in mine i miss you so much i feel like everything is going wrong. its been so long since i have seen you or heard your voice i just wish i could change time and change alot richie i wasnt ready for you to leave  need you ao much right now  i keep waiting for hear your voice call my ne.  Richie pl ease i need closer i cant stop thinking of what really happened plz come to me and let me know. please put me at peace plz love you 


 Richard I so can believe ur even gone it feels like its jus been yesterday as if I jus had talked to u n u was telling me that "I love u Tiley I love u no worries im always going b there for u n I promise I not going no Wea I promise u my friend I not leaving u yet I aint going no wea" n now look u gone i still can't believe it but I so miss u so much my friend I wish u was he a I got no one to really talk to n like no one to come n get me out of no Wea especially wen in matters of my drama days u jus knew wen came those times I miss u Rich I LOVE U my friend.

Richard i still cant believe your gone i miss you so much i feel so alone without you here with me iiss your voice your laugh you always knew what to say to me now your gone i fee hopeless. lose .i need you .

when I'm feeling down and needed a good laugh I knew I could always run to Richard. There is no one that can take his place he would make me laugh til  I cried. We would  start talking shit about every and anybody that came to our mind. You will be missed. You will always be in my thoughts  and in my heart.  Love you Richard!!!

                                                SHINE

Today i figured out how much i need you in my life. I learned you play a big part in my life as i was going through your pictures for you book i started thinking back and its been 13 years i cant believe it that long it felt like yesterday i met you but also i learned i been with you my whole adult life. and now i find myself lose. i keep waiting for you to call me or just pop up out of know where and yell CHARLENE but then i start to cry cause i relaize it isnt going to happen when i was talking to derek today and i told him i should have record videos so at least i would have that when i started to miss you and derek said YOU REALLY THINK THAT WOULD HELP OR MAKE THINGS WORSER THEN I THOUGHT WHAT EVER BUT REALLY AT LEAST I GET TO HEAR YOUR VOICE RIGHT .JUST KNOW I AM TRYING MY BEST I REALLY AM I FEEL LIKE SINCE YOUR GONE I AM ABOUT TO HIT ROCK BOTTOM BUT I KNOW I WONT LET THST HAPPEN OR IF I. DO THEN I WILL LOSE MYSELF CAUSE I DID FIGURE OUT HOW TO LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU AROUND I TRYING TO LOOK AT IT LIKE WHEN WE FOUND OUT ABOUT DAD AND WE STARTED TO CRY DAD SAID DONT CRY I AM READY TO GO HOME TO MY WIFE AND AS SELFISH AS I WISH I COULD BE I CANT BUT I KNOW YOUR HOME WITH MOM AND DAD AND YOUR WAITING FOR ME ...... I LOVE YOU  RICHIE I WISH I WAS THERE I WISH I COULD HAVE CHANGED THIS OUT COME I REALLY DO BUT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND I HOPE WHEN YOUR LOOKING DOWN AT ME YOU ARE HAPPY AND PROUD OF WHAT I AM AND HOW I WILL GO FORTH WITH WHAT WE PLANNED WITH BRING OUR KIDS HOME AND RAISING THEM TO BE BETTER  THEN US AND LOVE THEM AND DO EVERYTHING WE WANTED TO DO WITH OUR KIDS DO IT CAUSE IN THE END I KNOW YOUR ALWAYS WATCHING ME BUT MOSTLY YOUR GOING TO BE ON MY SIDE HELPING ME  I LOVE TOU RICHIE I  MISS YOU  I JUST HOPE I HAD MORE TIME WIRH YOU I REALLY DO  

Richard its so hard for me everything isnt going the way i planned it i cant keep my appt. i am so depressed i was suppost to come take you your clothes and stuff but i found myself in st johns bathroom where you was last just crying my eyes out when i lost you i lost everything my world is unknown now and i just trip when will i be able to move forward just know i love you and miss you with all my heart


Richard i cant believe your gone. i really wasnt ready for you to leave i am lose with out you even though we went our separate ways you and i  was close i think the longest we never talked was 3 days in the last ten 10 years i miss you and i would trade anything in this world ANYTHiNG just to have you back. I find myself just glazing and thinking of all the good times we had in honolulu and tacoma i just wish there was a way i could just see you one more time or talk to you just one more time just so i can say good bye 

Richard this i can tell you is one of the longest time i have not seen or talked to you in over 10 years and i am just not myself i miss you so much i wasnt ready for you to go i  keep thinking its a bad dream and i will wake up and you will be yelling CHARLENE  at my window but then i figured out your truely gone richard it took me a week before i could see our kids i just couldnt find it in me to anywhere RICHIE I HOPE YOU KNOW I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU  AND I WILL MISS YOU    

OBITUARY

Richard Kyle Pauline

30 August, 1970 – 15 January, 2021

Hawaiian Memorial Park Cemetery & Funeral Services

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