Bryan Mycheal Estrella

Bryan’s birth was the best thing that had ever happen to me and besides all the pain and wired things I was saying while I was in labor I knew the second I held him in my arms, all I had gone through was worth it and so much more.

Bryan was the first born of now 16 grandchildren on his dad’s side and the 2nd born of now 11 grandchildren on my side. From day one Bryan captured the hearts of so many with just a smile alone, especially his 6 auntie’s and as you can see in some of the pictures they had a lot of love for him.

As a young boy Bryan began to develop different talents, such as drawing and playing the guitar without ever learning to read or wright music. He learned by listing.

As a preteen he learned he can make people laugh so he used that to his advantage. When Bryan was about 12 or 13 he would go down to the Wells Fargo Bank on Grove and the 60 with his 2 friends Vincent and Chubs on their bikes on Friday’s after school and for some reason he knew Friday was payday. Bryan would stand by the door waiting for people to walk out and he’d say “excuse me.. I bet I can make you laugh for a dollar? Some people would challenge him and say NO YOU CAN’T and he would say YES I CAN, WATCH. Then he would run off and do something silly just to make them laugh, then he would walk back to them and collect his dollar. Once they had enough money Bryan and his friends would go to the 711 across the street to buy there chips, soda and candy then head home.

A couple years later, Bryan became a full on punk rocker teenager and boy was that fun! He and his friends started a band called the Ovaries, he wore a jean jacket or vest with patches, pins and writing all over it and tight jeans, while singing, (I mean screaming into the micro phone) One of the mom’s Gloria loved it, I hated it!

Fast forward to August 8th, 2009.

Bryan was 19 years old when he meet the love of his life, Samantha Hall. I remember him telling me about her right before he wanted to take her out on their first date. (He kind of keep her from me to see where it would go and once he was sure, he told me about her). He called me up and said mom, I’ve been talking to this girl and she’s super chill. He said I really like her mom, we talk for hours and I make her laugh. I in turn ask him what her name was and what was so special about her and he said her name was Sam and he said, he didn’t know, “she was just different!”. I asked him how old she was and he said she was 18. He said there’s just one thing mom, and don’t get mad, but she has a baby. I asked how old the baby was and he said 8 months and she has a baby girl. “I said, okay”. Then I asked him if he was sure he wanted to date someone with a baby and he said, yes, he really liked her. At that point all I could say was follow your heart son and understand dating a single mom with children is no joke! He said “I know mom” I already thought about that! And continued to tell me he really wanted to take her on a date but he didn’t have a lot of money and he said they couldn’t stay out late and he want to take her baby too. He asked “where should I take her”? I suggested ice cream and the park. He said they already did something like that. I said do it again, your broke! He said, okay. Thank you mom!

A couple of years go by and Samantha and Natasha Hall have become his everything. Then July 5th, 2011, Kingston was born and there little family grew from a family of 3 to a family of 4. Bryan was so in love with his family and although they had there issues the love between Bryan and Sam was so deep and so real and for those that knew them together know what I’m talking about.

After finding such great love, Bryan was inspired to write, compose and sing his own music. He wrote about his love for Sam and his kids and about the life he created and all though I have a hard time understanding the rap, I have to say my son was very talented.

I’d like to close with a letter to my son:

Dear Bryan,

First off I want to say thank you for being my son. You have touched my heart in a way I can never express. Watching you grow up and go through life hasn’t always been easy but we always managed to get through whatever it was together.

As mother and son, we had many talks, laughs, tears, hugs and even arguments. You were such a great man with a huge heart and in the end, that’s what I admired most about you.

Since your passing I have been on an emotional roller coaster trying to figure WHY?? Why did you leave so sudden? Especially without saying good night, and I LOVE YOU the night before!

I mean really Bryan, is this really happening?

Well I guess it is son and I am so sorry. I know at first when you died all I could say was Bryan’s pissed he died! But then slowly as the days went by I realized, you’re not pissed. You’re at peace and that’s what you deserve. NO more trying to figure out your place in life. You’ve found your way home and as hard as it is to let you go, I know I have too.

Thank you Bryan for giving me peace of mind, that when you left this earth you left knowing how much I loved you and I knew how much you loved me. I know I was your rock and you knew you could always count on me no matter what.

Thank you for leaving me with two beautiful grandchildren and a life time of memories. I will never forget last summer and our time at the Regatta, Jacks concert at Irvine meadows, sun sets on the beach and our hikes.

Always remember my love to be a simple man and please watch over us here on earth. You will be forever missed and always loved.

My promise to you is that I will take care of your children, keep your memory alive and to take you with me where ever I go.

Rest in peace my love. And you know how I hate good byes, so I will see you later!

RIP my love, I will see you soon!

Love always, MOM