This year the sea was not wanting to take your balloons out.  Maybe it was your way of saying stay a little longer.  Keep watching over your siblings, your momma & your dad.  I know it's hard to see them sad, but your spirit lives on in them.  Love you, Sweet Girl!  You Crixxus Nova will never be forgotten.

4 years of missing you Crixxus!  We all love the beach/ocean and Devil's Punch Bowl is a perfect place to celebrate you.  Until we meet again sweet Crixxus Nova.  Love Always!

Your dad and I welcomed our last baby into this world, Amalthea Skye. But you already knew that. She has your kisses all over her face and head! She looks so much like you. Sometimes it makes me cry. Sometimes at night, it really freaks me out. Most of the time, I just miss you because of her. I just want to thank you for protecting her and guiding her to us. 
I love you so much, baby girl. You will always be my baby girl!

Hello my beautiful baby girl, 
I'm sorry I haven't wrote for awhile. Life has been crazy! But I wanted to let you know ( you probably already know) that your going to be a big sister again!
We are having a little girl! We will name her Amalthea and she will live full of memories of you! 
Btw, your little brother, Helix has been saying your name every morning and every night! I know you guys are super close. I can tell. I can't wait until he talks or expresses himself a little bit more, so I can know some stories you have shared with him. 
He is growing very well. I'm sure thanks to you. You are always watching over him. Thank you for being our protector, our guardian angel. We love you with all our hearts. And I miss you so much. 
<3

I feel like no one will ever understand the pain I feel on your actual Birth - Day . It hurts knowing that day never got to come. It hurts knowing I lost you before I could actually have you. It's hurt knowing that Christmas was supposed to be this amazing special time of the year and now it will always be another memory of you not being here. Your first Christmas was our worst Christmas. I lost everything that year. My heart will forever have a hole that can't be filled. I'm sorry to not be able to have given you all your first. I love you, baby girl.

Rest in paradise. May your family be strong

Another year and we stand as we watch you float away back into the sea. I miss you so much. The hardest thing I have ever done was lose you. But I'm thankful that you bring us closer as a family. You make us love each other more and be there for each other more. I love you, Miss Nova.  And I miss you so much. I will always sit here and wish you with us but I understand. Thank you baby girl. Thank you for watching over your brothers.

Daddy's sweet baby Crixxus Nova. I miss you so much. It's hard to get on here and write to you cause The truth is baby girl, the day you left us changed me as a person, I am less happy more grumpy, lost a lot of my passions and day after day I try to put on a straight face but honestly baby it is hard, and it crushes my soul cause I know mommy misses the old me, and I think the old me is gone for good. I love you Crixxus and I know you would be so proud of your brothers especially Helix, I also feel some how you had a hand in making him who he is almost like you have him a piece of your soul or something idk. It's just a feeling I have. Lol. I love you my little super Nova. Through the universe and back.

It's coming up to 2 years without you, 2 years of missing you, 2 years of watching your brothers grow up without you by their sides. 1 year of watching your baby brother Helix not be able to see you in real life. 2 years of telling people your story, as well as mine. Some people might even say our story. Coming up on 2 of the hardest and longest years of my life without you. The pain doesn't get better. The pain doesn't go away. I have been planning your 2nd celebration of life with all of your family. I hate the fact that your death is what brings us together. I will always wish it was your birthday instead. 
I know you are around.  I know you play with Helix all the time. Your moral is above our bed and Helix always is talking and playing with you.  I can't wait to meet you one day. I wonder what you would look like.  Sometimes when I close my eyes, I imagine if you would look more like your father and me. Your little brother looks lot like your daddy, but I believe you would look like me with his features.. 
I miss you, so much beautiful baby girl. I look in the sky for you often. You will always be my brightest star in the sky. Please never forget how love you are and how wanted you are! 

Crixxus, I miss you so much. I constantly think about you, what you would have been like, looked like, your eyes, and your smile. Now I can add, I think of how much Helix would have looked like you. How much does he still look like you. I think of how beautifully handsome he is and how gorgeous I know you are , and would have been. I try my hardest to keep you alive. I tell everyone I can about you. Your name, show your pictures and honor you in my actions the best I can. You truly are something very special to me in my heart. You carry the biggest part of my heart. I love you so much. Please never forget how much we wanted you, how much we prayed for you, how much we miss you, and how much it hurt that we will never truly have you. Please keep us safe, my angel <3


It didn't go exactly as planned, but it was PERFECT!  Family & friends all there to celebrate YOU on your day!  I know your mommy misses you so much.  Daddy does too!  Your new baby brother Helix talks to you, I know he does.  He will stare and just babble at the air.  It's you Crixxus.  I gave him an extra long loving today and told him to Never walk in your shadow,  Only walk in your light.  That's what you are Crixxus, you are the light in the night sky, the twinkle in the stars, the flash that we catch in the corner of our eyes.  Love you Crixxus, until I hold you again, keep on Shinning.

Crixxus, everyone was looking forward to meeting you. You were so loved even before your arrival. The day you were born and I found what what happened - it was heart wrenching. It was a punch to the throat. I just couldn’t believe it. You were everything. All the things we won’t get to see you grow and do. It’s hard. I’m glad you get to watch over your family since you don’t get to be here with everyone. Your little brother will get to hear about you as he grows up and your older brothers and your mom and dad will always keep your memory alive. I just hope you know that as you look after your family from above, they loved you so much and they would have done anything for you. 

Daddy loves you so much. We love Helix extra more because of you. Helix is your irish twin, so we hope you guys stay close! 
Please talk to him all the time for us. We tell him to tell you things for us. We know you will watch over him and us every day. 

So much has happened in the year that you left us. We found out we are having another baby after you. 
A little boy. You will always be our only girl.

Your brothers got bigger. They miss and love you a lot. 

On Oct 6th 2022, you became a big sister! 
Your little brothers name is Helix Jupiter Mills. He is such a sweet soul. I think you talk to him alot and make sure he is okay.

Helix looks so much like you. You guys look alot like your father. Your daddy and I talk to Helix about you all the time. We love to honor you as much as we can. 

Crixxus, I am sorry you aren't here. A few months after we lost you, your daddy and I found out we are having another baby. We truly hoped for you to come back to us. We wanted you to be here, but instead we will be having a little boy. We named him Helix Jupiter. He will be born in October. The same month we lost you. It's going to be hard, but I want you to know that you are going to be a big sister. I believe you would be an amazing big sister, but honestly if we had you, there wouldn't be another. I hope you watch over Helix, like you watch over your big brothers. We miss you every day. We love you so much. 

I wish I could have seen your dad be a father to you. He really want that more than anything in this universe. He would be be amazing with you. I would have taken beyond the amount of pictures of you, like I do your boys. 
I wish you could see how much the family has grown since you left. We have two dogs now, they know about you. And we are pregnant again. Maybe it's your soul coming back to us, so we can finally have our chance. We don't know what the gender is yet, but we picked out names. You are gonna be an amazing big sister. We love you. We truly miss you. I wish I could see you now. I miss your sweet little face. I wish I could hold you one more time. We never stop wanting you here. We never stop thinking of you. 

Don't forget you are EVERYTHING I ever wanted and wished for. 
I love you 
I never stop thinking of you. I never stop hoping you will come back to me. 
Miss Crixxus Nova, you are my soul. 

I think about you every day. I just wish I could see you smile and look into your eyes and tell you how much I love you. You will always mean the world to me. I just wish I could have shown you.

I think about you every day. I just wish I could see you smile and look into your eyes and tell you how much I love you. 
You will always mean the world to me. I just wish I could have shown you. 

Sweet baby Crixxus~
Oh how I loved you before I even got to see you.  Then to see you, hold you, snuggle you and love on you....my love grew 10 fold!  I will never forget the day that your mommy, my baby girl, told me that she was pregnant with you.  I was so excited.  I prayed that you would be a girl and when it was confirmed I went that day and started shopping!  Crixxus, you couldn't have chosen a more loving, strong or fierce family to be born into.  Your mom, dad and brothers Leighton & Jasper love you & miss you so much.  I know you will always be there watching over them, shining bright in the night sky.  Crixxus Nova, you my girl are loved so much, by so many.  It was my honor to be there and spend those days with you.  I love you sweet little one!  Love you Baby girl & Johnny you guys are each other's rocks, I am so proud of you guys!  Crixxus will NEVER be forgotten, she will be celebrated!

Where do I begin, Crixxus my sweet precious beautiful niece I will never forget the day I found out you were in the making I was so excited I was having my first niece I couldnt wait to meet you and spoil teetee baby...I love you baby girl and wish I could have one day with you...until I see you again my precious baby love your teetee uncle and cousins

You will always be the most beautiful human I have ever seen. 
I love you 

My sweet baby girl daddy loves you through the universe and back, you were just a little goof ball kicking yourself in the forehead, sucking on your fingers. I know you will be watching over us. Until I see your sweet face again, daddy loves you

OBITUARIO

Crixxus Nova Mills

28 octubre, 2021 – 28 octubre, 2021

Virgil T Golden Funeral Service

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