Carolyn Carol Louise Taylor Smith-Kelley

JULY 18,2012 WEDNSDAY 10:30 AM ON THIS DAY THE WORLD LOST A BEAUTIFULL PERSON SHE WAS BEAUTIFULL INSIDE AND OUT.SHE WAS MY SOULMATE FOR A VERY SHORT 8YEARS. CAROL WAS THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO ALWAYS WANTED TO KNOW HOW SHE COULD HELP YOU.ALWAYS GAVE OF HERSELF BEFORE THINKING OF HERSELF THOSE OF YOU WHO NEW HER WILL SAY YES THAT WAS CAROL. THOSE OF YOU WHO CANT SAY THAT DIDNT KNOW HER. CAROL AT THE TIME OF HER DEATH WAS A RETIRED DRUG AND ALCOHOLE COUNSELER. SHE WAS ALSO A LOVING WIFE,MOTHER, AUNT, SISTER, AND FRIEND WHO WAS RAISEING TWO NEPHEWS TIMOTHY AND JEREMY MY SISTERS CHILDREN. CAROL WAS THE ONE WHO RECOGNIZED THE FACT THAT GOD WAS CALLING US TO RAISE THESE TWO BOYS, CAROL WAS ALWAYS SEEING THINGS THAT NEEDED ATTENTION THAT I WOULD NEVER SEE. SHE WAS ILL FOR A VERY LONG TIME. BUT DIDNT COMPLAIN, AS A MATTER OF FACT IT WAS DIFFACULT TO DETERMINE IF SHE WAS FEELING ANY WORSE ON A DAY TO DAY BASIS BUT.SHE WAS WORSE! AND NEVER SAID A WORD. I WAS HER FULL TIME CARE GIVER FOR OVER TWO YRS AND IT TOOK GREAT EFFORT ON MY PART TO FIND OUT IF SHE WAS FEELING WORSE. SHE WAS JUST THAT KIND OF PERSON DIDNT WANT TO BE A BURDEN TO ME.AND SHE NEVER WAS. SHE WOULD SAY ARE YOU SORRY YOU MARRIED ME. MY REPLY WOULD BE;WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THAT,HELL NO I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!.IF I HAD TO DO IT AGAIN I WOULD BUT I WOULD ASK THAT YOU WERE IN BETTER HEALTHBECAUSE ICAN HARDLY STANDSEEING YOU THIS WAY.BUT IF NOT EVEN KNOWING WHAT I KNOW NOW I WOULD DO IT AGAIN IF THAT WAS THE ONLY WAY I COULD BE WITH YOU MY LOVE. AND I SAY IT NOW IF THAT WERE THE ONLY WAY I COULD HAVE YOU BACK .I WOULD BUT NOT IN THE PAIN YOU WERE IN YES I WANT TO BE SELFISH BUT I WOULDNT PUT YOU THROUGH THAT AGAIN. CAROLWAS AN ANIMAL LOVER BLACK LABS ESPECIALY. WE HAVE 3 DOGS ALL RESCUES. 1 CAT ALSO A RESCUE 2 TURTLES (RESCUED)WE HAD A BIRD BUT CAROL HAD ME GIVE HER TO SOMEONE WHO WAS LONELY. OH YES AND TIM & JEREMY SHE SAID THOSE WERE HER TWO LEGGED ANIMALS. SHE LOVED THOSE BOYS LIKE SHE HAD BORE THEM HERSELF. AND SHE TAUGHT THEM TO LOVE THEM SELVES AND THEY BEGAIN TO LOVE OTHERS. THESE BOYS HAD MANY ISSUES WHEN THEY CAME TO US. ISSUES THAT KIDS SHOULDNT HAVE. WHEN CAROL PASSED AWAY THEY HAD THE KINDOF ISSUES THAT KIDS SHOULD HAVE.SHE TAUGHT MY ENTIER FAMILY HOW TO BE A FAMILY ONE THAT LOVES AND STANDS BEHIND ONE ANOTHER AND HELPS ONE ANOTHER NO MATTER WHAT. MY MOTHER PASSED THREE YRS AGO. WHEN CAROL AND I FIRST CAME TO BAKERSFIELD MY MOTHER WAS MEAN AND ANGRY AND UNHAPPY. MY DAD WAS DOING HIS BEST TO TAKECARE OF HER BUT SHE MADE IT VERY DIFFACULT FOR HIM CAROL BEGAIN TO TAKE OVER SOME OF THE DUTIES.TO GIVE MY DAD A BREAK. AT FIRST MY MOTHER WAS VERY RESISTANT AND CAROL AS YOU KNOW IS VERY PERSISTANT. I THOUGHT WE HAD WORLD WAR 4 ON OUR HANDS. MY MOTHER WAS THE TYPE THAT WOULD BE MEAN IN SOME OF THE THINGS SHE WOULD SAY JUST TO SEE YOUR REACTION, IF SHE INTIMIDATED YOU YOU WERE DONE FOR, SHE TRIED IT WITH CAROL, SHE TRIED IT AGAIN AND AGAIN AND CAROL CONTINUED TO RESPOND WITH KINDNESS(I LOVE YOU TO MOM,WHAT ELSE CAN I DO FOR YOU MOM, HOWS YOUR PILLOWS MOM DO YOU NEED SOME HELP SITTING UP MOM, MOM TRY NOT TO BE SO HARD ON THE BOYS OK,DONT BE SO HARD ON DAD, COME ON YOU KNOW YOU NEED TO EAT MOM, WE HAVE TO GO NOW I LOVE YOU MOM) THIS WENT ON FOR ENTIRE TIME MY MOTHER HAD LEFT ON THIS EARTH. BUT YOU KNOW THERE WAS A CHANGE IN MY MOTHER .ONE THAT I WOULD HAVE NEVER BELEIVED. . WHEN MY MOTHER WENT TO BE WITH THE LORD , HE WAS GETTING SOME ONE HE COULD EXCEPT INTO HIS KINGDOME. MY MOTHER NOW WOULD SAY I LOVE YOU SHE DIDNT YELL ALL THE TIME SHE WAS RESPECTFUL TO HER HUSBAND HER GRAND CHILDREN AND HER CHILDREN. AND SHE WAS HAPPIER THAN SHE HAD BEEN IN MANY YRS. THE NIGHT BEFORE MY MOTHER PASSED (SHE WAS IN A CONVELESENT HOSPITAL) I WAS NOT GOING TO SEE HER THAT EVENING BUT CAROL SAID YOU NEED TO GO SEE YOUR MOM. SO I WENT, IT WAS LIKE THE OTHER NIGHTS EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT MY MOTHER COULDNT STOP TELLING ME HOW PROUD SHE WAS OF ME GETTING CLEAN AND SOBER AND FIXING MY LIFE AND BEING A PART OF THE FAMILY AGAIN AND HOW MUCH SHE LOVED CAROL AND HOW THANKFUL SHE WAS THAT CAROL WAS A PART OF THE FAMILY, TAKE GOOD CARE OF HER SHE SAID PROMISE ME I SAID OK NO PROBLEM SHE SAID NO COME CLOSE TO ME LOOK ME IN THE EYES AND PROMISE ME! I SAID I PROMISE!THEN I SAID WHATS GOTTEN INTO YOU MOM. SHE SAID CAROL THATS WHAT. SHES NOT JUST MY DAUGHTER IN LAW SHES MY FRIEND SHES MY CARE GIVER SHE IS MY DAUGHTER GOD KNOWS MY REAL DAUGHTER DOESNT CARE. MY DAD WAS OUT OF THE ROOM GETTING HER THE SODA SHE HAD TO HAVE EVERY NIGHT.THAT NIGHT. MY MOTHER IN WHAT HAPPENED TO BE HER DEATH BED REALIZED THAT SHE HAD FOUND THE DAUGHTER SHE HAD LOST THE ONE SHE WANTED THE ONE THAT GAVE MY MOTHER HER UNDIVIDED ATTENTION BECAUSE SHE NEEDED IT. MY MOTHER LOVED CAROL AND CAROL LOVED MY MOTHER. THEY NEW EACH OTHER LESS THAN A YEAR. THATS WHAT KIND OF PERSON CAROL WAS!!! IF SHE WAS YOUR FRIEND SHE WAS YOUR FRIEND NO DOUGHT ABOUT IT.IF SHE WAS YOUR MOTHER IT WAS THE SAME YOUR WIFE THE SAME YR AUNT , YOUR DAUGHTER , YR SOULMATE YOU NEVER HAD A DOUGHT THAT SHE WAS ANYTHING ELSE. SHE DIDNT BLOW SMOKE UP YOUR ASS SHE TOLD IT LIKE IT WAS YOU NEVER HAD A DOUGHT WHERE YOU STOOD WITH CAROL. BUT SHE WOULD GIVE YOU EVERY CHANCE POSSIBLE. BEFORE YOU HAD NO CHANCE WITH HER. SHE WAS FORGIVING TO A FAULT. I WILL BE HONEST! RECENTLY I FOUND OUT SHE WAS NOT ALWAYS THIS WAY (OK) AND THATS ALL I WILL SAY ABOUT THAT. CAROL IS SURVIVED BY HER HUSBAND ( ME) BY HER SON DANIEAL MACIEL, HER GRAND DAUGHTER ALICIEA MACIEL,HER GRANDSON DRAYTON MACIEL AURORA MACIEL AND HER TWO LOVLY LITTLE GIRLS WHO I HAVE NOT MET YET AND THE ENTIRE TAYLOR CLANE AND THE KELLEY( FAMILY) THE FORNAL(FAMILY) AND ALL THAT HAVE BEEN LEFT BEHIND WHEN SHE WENT TO GO BE WITH OUR LORD. I AM SURE SHE IS HELPING FIX ANYTHING UP THERE THAT THE BIG GUY NEEDS HELP WITH. IF YOU KNOW CAROL YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. I WILL BE ADDING MORE TO THIS FROM TIME TO TIME AS I REMEMBER IT. BUT I WILL NOT BE DELETING ANY OF IT. BECAUSE IT IS TRUE THIS IS HOW SHE WAS. NOT JUST ON A GOOD DAY OR A BAD DAY BUT EVERY SINGLE DAY THAT I NEW HER .SOME OF YOU MIGHT DISAGREE WITH ME. THATS FINE YOU CAN. I DONT WANT TO KNOW ABOUT IT AS AMATTER OF FACT I BETTER NOT HERE OF ANYONE SAYING IT. I THINK THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY RIGHT NOW. THEIR WILL BE MORE LATER IM SURE. I AM ED KELLEY PROUD TO BE CAROLS HUSBAND CAREGIVER SOULMATE.(I AM ALSO VERY SAD MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY TO NOT HAVE HER HERE WITH ME) TO NOT HAVE ONE HALF OFMY SELF IS THE WORST THING THATS EVER HAPPENED TO ME. I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART AND I ALWAYS WILLYOUR WHALRUSS.