Marie, I know you miss Raul like I miss my hubby.  We were very fortunate to have such wonderful men in our lives.  God Bless them both.  Marie, please write me an email so I can send you my phone number.  I want to talk with you.  God Bless you Marie always.  Love and Hugs, me, Joy Hicks

Oh my gosh Babe I really have been bad I haven't written since Jan. I thought I had written that I went to Texas, Well I went and I had a good time I had a reunion with all my old friends from Sam's and of course with Jan and Theresa Hook. I seen Sylvia Perez and Belinda. Babe I will write tomarrow because today was a awful day for me today was 4 years that you left me. I love you and always think about you always

Happy Birthday Raul.  I know you and my hubby Russ spent an awesome New Years Eve up in heaven together.  May God watch over you always.  Love Joy

Happy Birthday babe I know you are having an awesome Birthday with our Lord and I mm planning on going to have diner for you 69th birthday at Red Lobster your favorite Restaurant before mid-bight I am also going to Mass this evening. And I am sure you are celebrating with your brother Lupe too for today is his birthday too. Well babe another year God has given me until he calls me home I will make the best of it. But it's not the same without you I love you so much. Well Babe I will be writing again soon 
Love your Wife,
Marie

Babe I did again forgot to write its been real hetic as you probley know with Christmas and all and I had my eye surgery so couldn't get on the computer for a few days. I got that doll you have always wanted for Samantha from the American doll she got the one you wanted me to buy for her and I kept telling you no well I got for anyway the one that's called Samantha she so pretty and she loved it. Well the boys did Karaoke and they sang our song Look at Us yes I cried missing you so much and next week will be your Birthday and I know you had a great time in Heaven for Christmas Lucky you I wish I was there with you but until God comes for me I will just have to wait. I have another Poem for you and that's how I feel its call Just a Memory away:
Even though I walk trough the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me: your rod and your staff, they comfort me:

            Just a Memory away
Christmas can be difficult time for those who have lost loved ones.
As a child of God you are never alone;
Your Shepard is with you at all times.
You never have to wonder where He is you never have to fear that if things become too difficult, He will not abandon you,
He goes before you, He walks besides you. He comes behind you. He protects you securely 
All we need to do is to "Let Go" and allow God to handle our situation.
"Peace I leave you, my piece I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid (John 14:27 Babe I have tried to follow  this but its hard and when I know something is wrong I feel you by my side. And yes I need to let God help me. God know how much I miss you. I love my God first he brought you into my life at the right time and he took you home at the right time too. My friend Joy I think sent this poem to me .
I Love you your Babe
Marie

Dear Marie, I like you know about the empty chair at the table.  I miss my Russ so much and I felt his presence with me all day on Thanksgiving.  Very Beautiful Poem Sis.  Love you and God is watching over our husbands.  Me, Sis Joy

Good Morning Babe,
Here I sit just thinking about our past Thanksgiving's and I know you are have an awesome Thanksgiving with our Lord. Well Babe I was laying in bed and think golly if you were here you would be putting the turkey in the oven so when family came it would be ready to eat, I miss you babe today I am going to Roberts and I wont have you next to me but someone sent me this poem and it's exactly how I feel I want to say it tonight at dinner. Its called 
THE "EMPTY CHAIR PRAYER
THE PIES ARE IN THE FREEZER, THE TURKEY'S OM THE LIST. 
BUT THIS TANKSGIVING, OH HOW A LOVED ONE WILL BE MISSSED! LORD JESUS, PLEASE HEAR OUR THANKSGIVING PRAYER.
FOR THOSE GATHERED AROUND THE TABLE THAT HAS AN EMPTY CHAIR. OH LORD, COMFORT THEIR HEARTS "WE KNOW THAT YOU ARE ABLE,
AND LET THEM KNOW THAT THIS YEAR, THERE'S ANOTHER CHAIR IN HEAVENS TABLE. This for all who have left us too early but God knows what he is doing. Raul you know how much your missed I love you always and always. I will be think of you at dinner time.
I love you Babe Your wife, 
Marie

Babe, I am so sorry its been3 months since I last write to and I am so sorry I just put things ahead of you. I had a lot going on here at home and I am sure you know that. I finely got that man that owns the property behind me to start doing something with that tree yes he cut the tree down but he still left the stump, and its starting to grow again and I called him and I told him that's not going to fix the problem in the garage and he is getting this guy to break the cement and put new ones the crack is really big and its also in the other garage But it should all be done next week. We had to move all the stuff out which we did yesterday. Also some good news I got my Honda going I got a new battery and it started up right away. Its so hard not having a man around but I do the best I can and you know me I always find away. Oh David's girlfriend had the baby and she looks just like David and P.J. she is so cute she is 2months old. yes I see Samantha when she comes down. Erlene's mom had been real sick she just came out of Reche Canyon Rehab she is doing better. And your other grand kid's are all ok going to school and Vincent and Zach are playing soccer poor Vincent and Zach try real hard well babe I'm going to spend Thanksgiving at Roberts House again this year. Everybody is doing good and in February I am going to Texas and have a reunion with the girl's I worked with at Sam's we are going to surprise Jan as he spends the winter in Texas he is a winter Texan now. He lives in Michigan and it gets real cold so he would rather be in Texas I guess. While I am in Corpus I plan on visiting Raymond. I called Tricia the other day and she said she thinks about her Grandpa all time and she said no matter where Selena spends the night she take her grandpa pillow with her. Also Vincent told me to tell you he had a good time when he went in the big truck with his grandps Serigo he got to go thru all the states that led to Washing D.C. He said they went to the Vietnam memorial to. Well babe if I have time later I will write to you again oh I for got I am having surgery on my left eye in December so I wont have to wear these darn glasses anymore. Ok Babe its already 9:00am and I have to clean a little. Oh I also forgot to tell you that Joy's my friend husband passed away all of a sudden too. Well Babe I know you ar up in Heaven Praising God all the time. When you see the rest of the family that's up give them my Love.
Love you, your Wife
Marie

Dearest Sis Marie.  Glad to see that you got your computer fixed.I love to read the beautiful words you write to your husband. GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS.    LOVE JOY and RUSS

Hi Babe, I'm sorry again that I have not written to you but things here are about the same. Except Erlene took Samantha home and she was my side kick we went every where together when she was out of school. And your grandson Vincent is on his way to Washington D.C.  with his grandma and Grandpa Serigo and Martha the went in the big rig 118 wheeler truck since he had to take a load to Washington they left at midnight Saturday. He was so excited he called me to tell me they were in on the road almost to El Paso TX and his grandpa told him that where you were from Texas. After he drops that load they will be headed to Sandra's house Carmen's sister lives somewhere close to D.C. as there is a wedding next Saturday. He is going to be out there for 2 weeks. Well Babe David came home from New Mexico and he and his girlfriend are living with Erlene in Victorville none of have seen him yet. She is due in Sept but she thinks she might have the baby in August. Well for one ting I hadn't written my computer had a virus and I had to get it fixed. Babe its been so HOT 104 here and yesterday and today it rained we had flash flood warnings all day it kind of cooled down but we need the rain really bad. All I did was went to church came home and here I am. I haven't spoken to Ramon lately but his ex girlfriend told me bought a mobile home really nice and it looks like a house he told me that he was going to retire and get one and that he would come and visit me but he hasn't yet. They also have drought he said he had to go buy feed and it's getting costly for him to feed his cow's and his horses well babe there is not much more but I will write again soon. Oh P.J. and Lucinda had me a BBQ for my Birthday 75 years old. well babe I love you and will be with you one day. I LOVE YOU so much no other man will ever replace you.
Love your Wife,
Marie

Dear Marie,
Just want you to know that I love you and pray everyday that God continues to give you the strength that you need.  May God Bless you and all your family.  Love Joy and Russ

Babe I can't seem to get this letter printed

Babe I can't believe that I haven't written to since January, I am so sorry. I guess I have not been that busy and no I have not forgotten you I never will. Yesterday was a bad day for me Especially at 6:03 that's the  time you died three years ago I looked at the clock in the kitchen and seen it was 5:50 and I came to the computer to write to you and I got a phone call from Belinda and she called about 6:10 and I was crying and she felt bad and said she was sorry that she called at time but she didn't know and I told her it was alright. Well Babe it was real hard for me and I had a lot of people send me messages to my computer Lucinda sent a beautiful message on this site called Face Book it was really nice and of course I cried. She just knows how to word things and it comes from her heart God gave her that gift.  You know when she would write in our Christmas cards and Birthday cards and made me cry with beautiful things she writes. I wish there was a way I could send that to you. And then Rudy put a song called if there was a stairway to Heaven it's real a nice song and then Lucinda put on this little boy dancing Tex-Mex style he is about 3 or 4 real cute and she put this is Grandpa Raul  dancing when he was little. Oh babe we will be Great Great, Grand parents David, girlfriend is having a baby girl in Sept. That is some news and Samantha  is happy she is going to be an aunt. Also some more news I am going to be Vincent's Godmother for his Holy Communion on May 10th Carmen's brother is going to be the God Father if you were here you would be. And Mateo the little one will be baptized by Nevin and Mylana and Carmen and Jacob are having a big party as they always do on the 17th of May. I wish you were here for that. Oh yea and the Van is paid off and it's all mine but I have to fix the few scratches it has that I mad driving to close to the fence. But I will get it fixed. Well babe I will write more often I Love you Always till we see each other again I love you,
Your Wife Marie

Happy belated to Raul.  Marie, I know how much you love and miss Raul, but I also feel in my heart is is always watching over you.  May you have a healthy, and prosperous New Year.  Love Joy and Russ.

Happy Birthday Babe sitting here thinking of you and what would be we doing if you were here. We would be   watching the new year come in. Here it's going to be 10:00 and I know there is no time in Heaven, I went to Mass today also had it for you because it's your Birthday. Leonard came right now and said if Daddy was here he would be making Menudo huh and I said yes, I would have made it but I guess I am too lazy to cut it up. and my friend Joe said Happy Birthday to you. he is such a nice man he also lost his wife about 6 years ago. and he is like me misses her all the time too. Well Babe Lucinda is home she has been very sick with a cold and cough and she stayed home this New years. Most of the family just stayed home which is good. Well Babe I'm going to close for now I Love and will always love you.
Love Your Wife,
Marie

Babe I am so sorry I have written but some how Legacy is not printing them and I don't know why. Any way I think of you all the time especially at night I wonder what your doing and I am sure your praising God.  You know that Sunday was 3 years that Jimmy left to be with God and the rest of the family. I wrote you about Tricia getting married and that was in November and it never came out in you message that I wrote I am going to contact Legacy and find out where that letter is. Babe its been really cold here and I still remember what you told me don't sleep with the heater on. My feet get so cold and now I sleep with socks before I would put my cold feet on your and warm them up but no more. well  Babe Samantha is living with P.J. now she just cried every time I took her home and I mentioned to P.J. and he thought he better bring here to live with him. He put her in school by his house, but really she wanted to live with me but P.J. is her father and
 he has the first say so, she's been here for three weeks now she seems happy. I just hope that she will continue going to religious classes she missed Sunday but that was because. Erlene said he it was her weekend well Babe Christmas is coming up soon and again I am not putting a tree up I just can't not with out you I know I should get over it but I can't. I loved you so much and I will always will till we see each other again, I know that there is no marriage in Heaven that's what the bible say's but I know I will see you and everybody else, and I will get to see your beautiful Mom that you loved so dearly, I have to write to jimmy but can't find the words I want to tell him. But I am going to get a hold of legacy and fin d out why my letters are not here. I am not spending to much money this year with only two more Van payments and the Van will be mine. I have to take to the dealership to have the lift on the back door fixed as it won't stay up, they
 had to order the part and I bought another 2yrs of warranty so I won't have to pay for it. Babe I don't have much to say. But you know I love you very much and wish you were here with me. Well Babe I'm going to close for now and go to bed I wish you would come and visit me some time every body else dreams about you and I just can't get you in my dreams but I think of you everyday.
I love you so Much
Love your Wife,
Marie

Hi Babe just me again I ave lost a lot of time writing to you. I missed all the month of September and I'm so sorry but you know how busy I am. Well babe Tricia will be getting married on Nov. 1st which is Friday and she has been her visiting me and on Saturday I made her and Chris and Rudy Chicken Tacos. And Selena and Samantha went to China's David's brother little girl's Halloween party. Poor Samantha her Halloween costume wasn't all together so she cried so much I took her and got her another one she seemed happy about it. I felt so bad for her and I know if Grandpa Raul was here he would have done the same thing. Well Babe I got her into religious class so she can be baptized and make her first Holy Communion. There is about 15 children in that class and her and two other Kid's are older than the rest but she had to go into that class because she wasn't baptized and now she will do both she asked me if she could do it I said yes if she wanted too. I
 go pick her up every Friday and sometimes Erlene comes to her mom's and takes her home if she doesn't I take her back to Victorville. I made this commitment to God that she will do her classes. I help her on Friday's to study and she does real good with her home work. Well babe I really wish you were here for Tricia and Chris's wedding you will be missed especially by me, because you wont be sitting next to me. Rudy is on pin's and needles because he is finally going to give her away the right way. Its going to be at the Country Club in Riverside, its really pretty and nice they are doing all the decorations and all the seating of tables for the dinner. And of course there will an empty spot next to me. Someone will be sitting next to me but I want you to know I'm going to pretend you are there. Ashley is in the wedding too I don't know when her and Anthony will get married but I hope before I go home with you.  Babe I will send you some pictures of
 Tricia and Chris on this site. I haven't heard from your brother in a long time. I may call him this coming weekend.  I Love You so much and I will never ever forget you,
Love your Wife,
Marie

Hi Babe I'm sorry I havenet written but I have been going thru alot I have a knee replacement in late June and now my knee is so much better I also had eye surgery and that came out good. Now I' working on my teeth as Patricia gets married to Chris on November the 1st and the family is excited all we need to wait for are Stephanie, Mike, Lil Rudy and Ashley of the grand kid's to get married. Lil Rudy is still with Sara and he bought a house in Lake Elisnore Riverside area, its really nice it; a two story but last time I was there I didnt go upstairs because of my knee. I see that Selena and Patricia wrote to you I am so happy they did. I have written before but some how they don't get posted, but I am going to find out why I wrote to them. Because the last time I know I wrote I think I told you I sold your car didnt get what I wanted but I had to get rid of it. The guy I sold to his brother work at a car wash up by Lucinda's and I get the Van washed for free. Golly babe I will be through paying the Van in December and no more car payments. Well babe i'm going to bed and watch t.v. so I love you for always
Love your wife Marie

dear grandpa i miss you a lot.i did a bunch of things this summer... i went to north Carolina to see my grandparents. i took my pillow with me.i take it almost anywhere.i also went to soccer camp. i learned how to juggle with the ball.also to do half scissors and scissors.I'm going to start forth grade in September...I'm super excited.i miss you and think about you all the time. I'll talk to you later.       love always
                          Selena

Well its Menudo Sunday, and I had Chris go get me a can. They dont serve it at any restaurants here. But me and Selena are chowing down. She looked at me and said its not as good as grandpa's Menudo. I said it never will be. We miss you so much but you are thought of often. Chris and I talk about you a lot which I am sure you know. Ill be heading down to California at the end of the month so I cant wait to see you. I definitely will be missing your big bear hug you would always give me. Love you Grandpa forever

Hi Babe, well Its 7:10 and i just got thru saying a prayer for you 2 yrs ago at 7:01 you left and I will never forget that dat and time be right back Lucinda is on the phone. Well babe Tricia called today to see how I was and she was sorry she couldnt come for your mass but she has to save money for her Wedding in Nov. Babe. Kathy, Carmen, Lina, Sonny, Lucinda and believe or not Pesqui went I was so surprised to see him and happy too. I dont know what happened to Rudy he probley had to work. I called Raymond but he never answered me back maybe tomarrow, I know he busy with the ranch, Babe im going to close for now  will try again tomarrow I just get so depressed because I know you can't answer me. I have to write Checks to pay bills, will try again tomarrow 
I Love You
your wife Marie

Good Morning Babe well tonite at 7:01 you will be gone 2 years and you know how much I miss you I wanted to write before I went to church to tell you I love you. Also I sold your car yesterday didnt get what I really wanted but I needed to sell it. I have to buy Insurance for 4 cars and its getting to be alot.  I am putting that money away. Well babe I have to go but will write tonight it's time for me to leave for church as I am having a Mass for you, I invited the family but dont know who will be there, will let you know tonight Lucinda and Ashley for sure weel I will write tonight
Love Your wife Marie

hi Babe I am so sorry I have written but then I dont save it to send I have been trying to keep busy. and I have been trying to get your car going it took me 3 weeks to finely get it smoged. well Babe on Sunda will be 2years that you have been gone and nothing is the same its changed I go and visit Josie just to get out of the house as the kid's have their lives and I just have to learn to adjust to it. I am putting this in the nespaper for yous anniversary: Babe it's been 2 years that you left me with a broken heart to be with our Lord in Heaven, and you must know that you are missed especially by me and the family. I miss you so much, I have a mass for you on sunday. aul you left me with alot of good memories like the Tex-Mex music that we used to dance too and all the pictures such good memories yes i am sad but until we meet again I will always love you.
Your Wife Marie

Happy Valentine Day Babe your my angel and I know it. well babe it's been 14 days that Ihave written to you and it  hurts every time I do but I have to do what I have to do right!!! Well Babe Friday my church had a valentine dance and dinner and i went for awhile and I didnt dance because no one can dance like you did and I guess I will never dance again. I stayed till about 9:30 I went with Jeannie from church. And Saturday I went to see Johnny Little Joe.s brother at the VFW and of course I cried hearing those songs we used to dance too. And there were some people that were from Texas there and dancing like we used to and when the Cumbas came out I had to run to the bathroom and cry and again I just sat and listen'ed to the music and Johnny gave me a CD and I came home. Right now after I finish this letter I'm going to bed and dream about YOU. On Sunday April 28th your 2nd anniversary I'm going to have a Mass said for you at 10:00. That date will always be sad for me cause I lost my LOVE. I'm trying to sell the van as its too big for me hope I can get some good money so I can fix my Honda and not have a car payment. I only owe after this payment $4,662.00 pray for me that I can get what I wmnt for it if not and I pay it off  I will guess I will keep it. Lucinda loves that van. Samantha said you can't sell Grampa Van, Lucinda's the one that drives it when we go shopping she doesnt like my driving haha. Little Rudy bought a home and we are going to his Housewarming on Sturday he lives in Lake Elisnore by where kathy used to work. So we are going in the Van. Well babe good night I love you and I will try to be strong Tricia just txt me Happy Valentines and I told her how sad I was that you werent here and she said grandma be strong.
I love You Your wife
 Marie

Hi Babe sorry I havent written but Litlle Rudy had my computer he was fixing it that's why I havent written and its not that I don't thinj of you I do every day and night. But I have just been going on from one at a time. Well today is Feb 1st and I will be paying bill's. I am going to the Post Office for Stamps but I ptomise I will write to you when I get back I love You so much always
You Wife Marie

HAPPY BIRTH DAY. grandpa i miss you. i wish you would come back.christmas was fun but not that fun because you were not there . I sleep with my pilow every night .LOVEYou So Much
SAMANTHA

           HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE
i KNOW YOUR spending your Birthday in a Happy Place with God and all the Angels but I wish you were here I would have given you a party you would have been 67 yrs old. I planning on making Menudo I know its not going to be like your Menudo yours was so tasty and everybody loved it. I missed that you weren't up cutting it up this morning, and then waiting to eat some. I'm not going to do anything but go to church at 5:00. I had planned a Birthday Mass for you for today but they mad a mistake and they did it yesterday But you know I will always remember your Birthday I love you so much and miss you everyday. No one really knows how hurt and and how much I miss you. This lady told me at church that my eyes are very sad looking and she can understand why she almost lost her husband just before Thanksgiving and she said he had a Heart attack but they put a stint or something but it wasn't Massive like your was. Well Mabe i' going to take a shower so I can go to the store will write more later. Samantha is going to write something for you she's been here with me since Christmas
Love each day 
Marie

In heaven at christmas time! The day of Our Lord Jesus birth! What a celebration it must be! Merry Christmas Raul!

Hello Babe I have written but my messages havent come through hope this one does. Well Babe tomarrow is Chistmas eve and I will be going to Midnight Mass with Lina like always. I miss you babe and its hard to sit down and tell you all that's been happening but I know your with me all the time especially when I'm going to do something I think twice about it. Well I got just the kid's this time for Christmas. Things are so expensive so I bought just for the little ones. But you know Babe Christmas is about our Lord and when he was born the only one that really thinks about it is Vincent as he learns that in Catholic school. He say's Grandma Christmas is about our baby Jesus when he waS born. But its ok if you dont give me a present because its Jesus Birthday. He is so smart you would not believe it. But that's Vincent. I know you will be haveing a very Merry Christmas with God and all the family and I just have to wait till I join you. Merry Christmas anyway. I can't believe that my letters have not been posted cause I know I write every month. I hope this letter gets posted. You know I love You so much I seen Barbara and she said she feels so bad that we don't keep in touch but she is so busy with her job but we made a promise to call each other a couple of times a month. Well babe your Birthday is comming up next week and I will write again on that day. Babe I'm going to close for now I will write tomarrow I love you so much XOXO
Love your wife,
Marie

Hi Babe it's me again I havent wriiten to you in the past few weeks but I will update you which I know you already know but I will tell you again. Tricia came in last week and she leaves tomarrow, she came to work on her place for her and Chris's wedding it will be next year on Novemebr 1, 2013 and its going to be held at the Indian Hill's Country Club, in Riverside it's really  nice and of course you will be missing from the big day, but she said she will remember her grandpa on that day she also invited me to go with er to when she went to see what wedding dress she liked and and she choose a beautiul one she looked so pretty and on that day I know I will be sad because you will missing by my side but I know you will be there in Spirt. That's one thing I wish you would have lived to see her and Ashley get married. But Ashley said it would be awhile before takes that important step. Well babe I still can't sell your car no one wants to give me what I want so may have to lower the price I need to sell it's just sitting there, I tell everyone how good it run's you can't even hear the motor, but a lot of people like it but won't give me the price I want, I wish you could help me some how. When I develope the picturs of Tricia in her wedding gown I will post it for you ok. Babe I miss you every day I know I tell you that all the time. If you were here with me right now I would never let you go anywhere without me I would be by your side all the time. But God had special plans for you and he is greater than me. Well babe also Rudy is staying with me for awhile he is good company. Right now I'm washing towels and I have to go fold them will write againn this week. I love you forever
Your Wife Marie

Hi Babe it's been a month and two day's that I have written and I am so sorry. I wanted to write when I cam back from Texas but I kept putting it off. But I'm here now I has fun went to Raymond's Ranch and all you Family was there all the Gonzalez's from Monterrey  Mexico. Marisa is just a beautiful  girl all your nieces are and they where so happy to see me and finally meet me   the only one missing was you and Mario. Even Richard and Winzie and Juan were there, Blanca didn't go she was sick. All they talked was about you and how handsome you were. They said Mario looks just like you I wish I could have seen him. I probably would have cried if he really looks like you. Raymon BBQ'd and they stayed till it got dark, Belinda stayed there with Raymond then we went to Corpus to see Delpha and stayed there a couple of day's then we went back to Houston.I got home on the 24th of August. Babe I miss you so much Belinda gave me some tapes of Little Joe and Mazz to hear and I have been playing them and just remembering our good times dancing to that music. Here is something I want to say to you. 
You are the Love of my life.
You were the warmth you were my sunshine you were my handsome man. You were my hope, my inspiration.
Darling you were my everything. That's why I love you so much. In my world , you were the love of my life. 
I was so in Love with you and still am.
I'm still so much in love with you and it's so easy to see. In my dreams You are my bright shinning light in the sky. When I wake your the only one one I want to see. Love you were my life, without you I can't seem to exists in my dreams you are my light with your love that you had for me I feel a little better just thinking about our love we had together, one day I will see you again so hold me tight when yuu are near me. I sometimes feel you are right here with me. I loove you Raul closing with Love 
Your Wife Marie

Hi Babe i haven't written for awhile almost a month. But I'm trying to keep busy so won't be so sad but I still hurt. Yesterday Jacob and Carmen took me and  to universal studios her mom and dad went too. The reason I went was they are always inviting me to go places and I never go. We had fun, Jacob had to help me climb some stairs to some of the rides but because I was handicap we got to get in first. Vincent had a lot of fun too Carmen's mom took some sandwiches, watermelon Carmen took cokes and water, and I took chips and water. You can take food in there and sit on the outside patios. I really wished you were to go with us. Vincent ask me if you would have gotten on the rides if you were here and I told him yes. We also seen Chucky and when we were going out one of the Chucky jumped out at Jacob, boy did we all laugh and I told him do you remember when Grandpa won one and brought to you, and he said yes but my mom threw it away. Well babe next week at this time I will be getting ready to leave for Texas to see Raymond and all of Roque's family. Raymond said he was going to make a big BBQ for us. Ad I told him I would make your favorite Potato salad. Well Babe I'm going to lay down I have been paying bills. and they are all paid 
Love You so Much
Marie

Hi Babe Happy 4th of July in Heaven well all week I have been working at the fire work booth for the church I do it just to get out of this house. It gets so boring at least I get to see my friends from church and get fire works for the kid's but this year they can't fire works above 30th street. so Vincent and the rest have to go see them at the baseball field. Lucinda is at the parking lot of Rey's Deli. China invited me to go to his house but I went and he had a lot of people there. But he fixed my Honda and I went to hear it and it sounds really good. Now I can leave the van in the garage for a rest I wish I knew, if you wouldn't care if I traded it in for a car it waste so much gas I have to fill up almost every week. And it takes $80.00 the gas is so high it came down for a couple of days but went up a couple of cents this week. I was thinking of trading it straight across where I wouldn't have a car payment Nevin said I could. We Shall see.
I thought I would write a little before I took a shower. Well babe I know you are happy in heaven with my Lord and your rejoicing.
All I can ever say is that I miss you so much. I haven't written to Jimmy in awhile hope he is not upset with me but I will write him tomorrow.
Well babe im going to go take a shower
I Love You Always,
Marie

Hey grandpa, 
Happy Belated Fathers day.
 So exciting news, little patricia is getting married. Not anytime soon but the date is Nov 15 2013. And to be closer to home Im having it in California. I know money is a big issue so Im thinking about doing it at the Castaway restaurant. I guess well see. I wish that you could be there but I will definitley be doing something in honor of the best grandfather I ever have/ had. Selena is doing awesome, she just passed 2nd grade and is excited about 3rd. She reads so much. She even got citizen of the month and we got to put a sign in the front yard. She is going to spend a part of her vacation in NC, so keep an eye on her for me. We all love and miss you very much. Sending you lots of hugs and kisses from VA.

Well Babe Nevin took me to eat at Red Lobster and I had what you used to eat and all that time I thought of you. Vincent got to hold a real live Lobster and he looked so proud he wasn't scared to hold it. But you know Vincent he loves animals  It was a good dinner but you were missed as always. I am so full ate all of it except two of the crab legs Vincent ate them for me. Well i'm going to change clothes and go to bed
I Love You,
Your Wife Marie

Hi Babe its me again well Babe today is my birthday which I know that you know but I missed you this morning telling me Happy Birthday, you would have been the 1st one to wish me a Happy Birthday. Well Nevin Maylena are taking me to eat for dinner to your favorite place Red Lobster they were going to take to an expensive place but not everybody could afford to go so I told them take me to Raul's favorite place. Well babe what else can I say except your dog doesn't want to eat his food again he was so used to you feeding table food he doesn't want to even eat his wienies either. Well everybody called me even Selena and Tricia all they way from Virginia. Yes babe i am so sad because your not here today but I know your here in spirit. I love you so much Saturday me and Lucinda went to Santos house for his birthday it was nice we left at 10:00 pm The only ones that didn't call were Sam and Savannah. Bit that's OK
Well babe I have to get ready so I will write and let you know how it all goes I Love You
Your Wife Marie

Hello Babe, is its me again well Babe to day is a year that we had your Memorial mass at church. And I still can't believe your gone I miss you so much,I know that no one really understands how much I miss you like right now I'm drinking my coffee out of your whataburger cup and it's going to be 9:00 am and I just can't get my self up to do anything. I went into the garage and had David take down all the PVC pipe you had up there to see if I can sell it but it's so long and I don't think it will fit in the van I asked Home Depot if they would take it back and they said yes as long as it has not been cut and if it's in good condition. But some of them you cut and I don't think I can return them. But Josie is having a yard sale today and tomorrow and she told me to take them to her house but I don't know how I will take them some fit in the van but the others don't. Oh well Babe I guess I will figure it out. I still can't understand you left when things were so out of place and it's really been hard for me. But God had better plans for you you I know that but I still want you here for me and I just can't wit till I see you again I know by reading my bible that we will not be married in heaven but that we will see each other again. I wonder if you see all the family like Jimmy I know your see your beautiful Mom and Dad. But someday we will see each other again. Yes I still cry when I talk about you and all the good things you did for me when you were here. I love you so  much it hurts not to be able to talk to you and you never come to visit but I know your spirit is here with me. I wish your were here so you could see how big the great grand children are getting Sam just turned 9 and she is so tall and Vincent just passed to the 1st grade and he can say all the prayers and is learning to say the Rosary. Selena is also getting big and tall she is still really smart and always remembers you when I talk to her. You should see how beautiful Savannah is has grown up a lot. And David turned 18 last year and he so handsome and the new baby that Carmen and Jacob had is so cute his name is Mateo you would have loved him like all the others. Well Babe I will close for now so I can clean my kitchen, But wil write later and let you know what happens with the PVC pipe. I love you so much
Love Your Wife Marie

Hi Babe Golly it's been a month since I wrote to you I'm so sorry but I have been really busy especially going to the doctor about mu knee. I think I told you that back in December I hurt it and have been going back and forth to the doctor and finally had surgery. But It still bothering me and now i'm asking for a second opinion, and I have an appt. with another Doctor on the 5Th  of June hopefully they will see why it still hurts. one doctor say's if it is still bothering me I will probably need a knee replacement. Oh well I will see what happens. Raymond called me and he said he doing OK and that he found another girlfriend he said she's real nice she took him to meet her family in San Antonio and that she works for the D. A. I guess in Corpus I don't know where he met her but he seems happy. Well today was payday and I paid all the bill's not going to have much left till the 15Th. Samantha is coming here on the 6Th she will be out of school and wants to stay with me she said to help me out. I miss her so much I wish Earlene would move back down here because it takes a lot of gas to go to Victorville. David is now living with P.J. pretty soon he will have all his kid's living down here if Earlene moves here but I doubt it she likes living in Victorville, Well Babe I love you so much I'm so sorry for not writing but you are always in my thoughts and I think of you every minute of the day. I love you I'm going to get my clothes out of the dryer, But I will write more this month.
I Love You,
Your Wife Marie

Hi Babe I know I told you I would write last night but after your Mass Lucinda, Rudy and went to eat. I came home and was starting to write to but I started crying all over again. Babe I miss you and it's not the same with out you. Lucinda, Rudy, Lina. Carmen, and Rita went to Mass it was nice. I see that Tricia wrote to you that was nice being she couldn't be here for your Memorial Mass. Jacob, Lil Rudy and Ashley had to work and Robert got sick. I put a Memorial in the paper for you too. I know Babe your probley saying dont be wasting money. But I did any way. Be Right Back. Jeannie from Church called to see how I was, she new it was your year and she was worried about me. I told her I was better today. well babe i'm to close with Lots and lots of Love   will write again, I Love You,Your wife, 
Marie

Hola grandpa, 
As you know I am not in California so I was not able to attend your mass but we all said a few words and memories about you here in Virginia. I know you're gone but I don't feel it. I know you're always here.  I love you very much and we all miss you. Selena won her game today and she said it was because you were cheering her on from heaven. We will never forget you no matter how many years pass. Love you

Well babe At 7:02 you will ave been gone 1 year babe I miss you and I know I tell you that all the time. What am I going to do with my self today I don't know except go to church. I have a Mass for you at 5:00 and the family is going especially because it's your one year. Babe there is so much to say but I know I will start crying more than I am. Well Babe last night I was talking Bertha Erlene's Mom  and, I was looking at the side window of the apt and I seen some one walk by and she said it was probley you. I know it wasn't Pesqui or Rudy cause Rudy was at work and Pesqui was asleep. So I went out side and poof you were gone if it was you. Bertha said you came by because your watching over me I hope so. Well Babe I think I got your car sold this girl e mailed me and she wants t buy your car for her Dad for his Birthday. Babe I have to sell it just sitting there and it takes to much gas to drive it. Gas is too high. Well Babe i am having surgery on my eye lid's they bother me a lot especially when i'm on the computer and driving. I was supposed to pick up Samantha yesterday but her mom never called me and I can't next week because of my surgery. Raymond wrote to me yesterday and told me he bought another car that means he has a truck his R V and two car's.and is still looking for a girlfriend, he says he dates a few but they are crazy. Ray and that girl Lucy he met broke up some time ago. I don't know what happened. I put your picture in the paper with my thoughts about you. I know you know how how I feel about you and how I miss you. And wonder what you would have done if I had left you like you did me. Babe I tell everybody please love your husband and cherish him while he still with you, I wish I would have done alot more for you. Babe I was sitting here thinking gosh last Year Raul and I were getting ready to visit Buddy and Dixie and go to Vegas. You took the Van to get the Air conditioner checked  you went to Sam's and took me to the dentist. Then we came home and I started making dinner and then we never got to eat. We were on our way to Loma Linda Hospital at 6:15 with you in the ambulance and then you left after the doctors worked on you. I can not understand why!!!!! The only thing that I can think of God wanted you more. Babe I have to take a shower to go buy the paper but I will write more tonight I Love you,
Your Babe Marie

Hi Babe well I finally got home from Virginia and it was a long flight I m still tired. But I did get to see your Best Friend did you see she wrote to you she cried when we talked about you and she remembers when you taught her how to count in spanish and you guy's would sing We are family. She is smart little girl. Babe next Saturday will be a year that you left me and not a day goes by that I don't think of you. Well Babe I can't sell your car I have inquires but they don't want to pay me $3,000 that's what i'm asking for. But the Gas is so high right now that people just don't want to pay that. Josie wants to buy it but she want's to pay me in payments of $300.00 a month and I can't see selling it on payments. So I don't know what i'm going to do. Right now it's parked at Lucinda's well babe i will write tomarrow
I Love You
 Your Babe Marie

Hi granpa its me selena.I hope your trip in heaven is going well:).i have so many questions,like have you seen god? what do the angels look like? whats the weather like? so far life is depressing knowing that you passed away,but im happy that your in a better place right now in school im doing pretty good,in math A+.in history A.in sience B+.its kind of hard to focus in class when i know your not here. but im trying.i neaver stop thinking about,i always try and find out what its like to be in heaven.i always think i didn't spend that much time with you and spending to much time on the computer.i hope i spent enough time with you. well,i love you.so i know that you love me. your best friend love,Selena 



~ 

 Selena Kirby, 

Virginia Beach, Virginia

Hi granpa its me selena.I hope your trip in heaven is going well:).i have so many questions,like have you seen god? what do the angels look like? whats the weather like? so far life is depressing knowing that you passed away,but im happy that your in a better place right now in school im doing pretty good,in math A+.in history A.in sience B+.its kind of hard to focus in class when i know your not here. but im trying.i neaver stop thinking about,i always try and find out what its like to be in heaven.i always think i didn't spend that much time with you and spending to much time on the computer.i hope i spent enough time with you. well,i love you.so i know that you love me.   your best friend           love,Selena

Good Morning Babe and Happy Easter in Heaven
Well Babe it's another Hoilday with out you. And last night I was thinking about last year how we celebrated Easter with the family at Jacobs house and with Nevin dressed as the Easter Bunny and you wanting to get a picture with him. We had so much fun and evrybody was so happy for us because we were going to Las Vegas which never came. Because our God wanted you first and I still can understand why but God know's why and I know I can't question  him he does things on his own time. Well Babe I will be going home on Saturday and I forgot to tell you that Betty Jo is taking care of him at the house and in between Pesqui will give him his snacks. I'm just waiting for Tricia to get up and take me to church. What I understand is on Friday when the Lord rose from the dead alot of peolple that died went to heaven immediatley. But that's a question I'm going to ask Father about. Well babe I will write later.
Love You and God Bless you,
Your Wife, Marie

Hey Pops que pa so well as you know by now moms in virgina with my baby girl and I don't have any one to text back and forth about the voice this week or next week but as long as she's ok that's fine with me. It's so hard to believe it's gonna be a year already time just goes by so fast.I leave for arizona on sunday on company business funny huh me traveling for business who of thought well I miss you forever

Hi Babe I'm here in Virginia I came with Terri to visit Trisha and Daniel and of course your best friend Selena She has really grown I asked her what do you remember about Grandpa and she said you used sit her on your lap and sing we "ARE FAMILY" AND ALSO THAT YOU USED TO TEACH HER SPAINSH I asked her if she wanted to write to you but I think she might. Well babe I brought some Mole so I can show Chris how to make Chicken Mole I brought them Tamales and I think they ate them all.
Well babe its cold here in Virginia  and tomarrow I'm going to church and Sunday is Easter Sunday and after Church Tricia and Chris are taking us to Washington D.C. they said it's only 2 1/2 hrs from here. I bet your  going to have a beautiful Easter Sunday with our Lord. Oh Selena told me to tell you she is eating Limon N Cho its pure salt and i'm sure you know what that is being your from Mexico. Well babe all I can ever think is why did you leave me. The other night I just started crying because  in 23 days you will be gone a year and its  been a real awful year with out you.
Well I'm going to stop for now I love you  very  much and  and I will alway  will Love you
Love Your Wife Marie and Selena your Best Friend

Hi Babe its been a couple of weeks that I haven't written but you know you are always on my mind, Always. Well babe  pancho got sick again with that tumor and the vet said i should have him spaded. As he will continue to get those tumors, and I said to my self Marie what would Raul do. and I said probley get him fixed but that dog is so old and I can't see wasting Money on him. Please give me a sign on what do with your Dog. If I want him fixed I have to wait till the infection goes away so I'm giving hi his Anti Botics and that dog is so smart I put in the wiener like you used to and he spits it out. But the Vet should me to put down his throat. And his ears are bad but to bad I have cleaning them. My knee has healed up real good and I'm walking a little better. Well babe its been almost a year that I lost you and the pain is still here if it was yesterday I know your here with me at night cause I have that feeling that your watching over me. I talk to Raymond at least twice a week and he said he doesn't know how to express his feelings but he will surprise you one day. He also still takes it hard that he cant believe he lost his brother too. I'm hoping to go out to Texas and visit with him and Roques wife and the family. I don't know just thinking about it. Well Little Joe brother Johnny called me to tell me he made a Video and my mom's picture is in when we all went to the dance in Alice TX. it's a real short one. Babe I seen a picture of Juan Garza and he looks so old older than you did when you were here. well Babe I have see what your granddaughter is doing I picked her she's on spring break but she is going home Sunday. She went to the swap meet with China and she seen these bunnies there and she wants one for Easter and she wants to leave it here be cause if she takes it home her mom will give it away just like she did with her puppy. But i told her NO because Pancho will kill it and I can't take care of it. So She asked her Grandma Bertha and she said No too ha ha poor baby and I told you don't live down here to take care of it and now she said she was going to ask Jacob. Well I will try writing later in the week I Love You so much and always will. 
Love your  Wife
Marie

Hey Raul sorry it's been so long since I have been to your guest book.It's not that I have forgotten about you that will never happen.It's so hard to believe it will be a year since you left us so and the pain has not gotten any less in my heart and I know Mom still think's about you everyday it's so hard for me to go to the house and see she is still hurtin but I try to be there for her well i'll close for now with an I love you and miss you every day  Rudy Calleros

Hi Babe I can't believe that I haven't written to you in a month I have been trying to keep busy. I was meaning to write to you a couple of weeks ago to tell you about my surgery I think I told you that back in December I twisted my knee and popped a tendon or something and I had to have an MRI because my Doctor kept saying it was wear and tear. Well It showed I tore something well I Had surgery last Monday and is was in and out same day surgery but I still have a little pain not much. Lucinda was over every day for 4 days taking care of me but I wished it would have been you. I think of you all the time babe I love you and I always will. So Much has happened Jacob's wife Carmen had a baby boy 2 weeks ago and he so cute they named him Mateo James after St. Mateo. And yesterday they had a memorial from one Legacy and they honored all the people that donated organs and I donated your tissue's so I know someone here on earth is walking around with your tissues. They use donated tissues for people that get burned. Samantha and Lucinda went with me it was real nice. They showed your picture and the comment that Ashley wrote about you it was really nice and of course I cried as I do all the time. I had dream of my mom last night but I never dream of you I wish you would come and visit me. Raymond called me and I don't remember if I told you but he bought a Caddy so did little Raymond, He has been trying to hook up with Delpha but she never answers  her phone and is never home. I haven't heard from either. But I know she has a part time job taking care of an old lady. Babe I will write more tomarrow because my leg is hurting and I have to raise it up but I will write tomarrow I Love you always and always
Love your Wife Marie

Good Morning Babe and Happy Valentine Day
I am still so sad because i am not getting a card from you But I still have the one you gave me last year. Samantha has a card for you and when she comes I will put it on your dresser. Raymond called me and he has been talking to Delpha he called to take her to dinner but she wasn't home I don't know what happened. But she knew he supposed to call her, I think maybe her mom got sick. I have tried calling her too but no answer. Do you remember Ramona Delpha cousin that came with Delpha for her Dad's funeral well her daughter that lived in New York passed away and Delpha told me she's taking it real hard too. Well Babe I have a dentist appt. today I had to get a new particle because when Pancho was sick and he was in the house I guess upper one fell and he got a hold of it and chewed it up. I put it on the bar and I must have moved some thing and it fell on the floor and I didn't see it. Well Babe I have to get ready for my appt. oh I forgot to tell you but the motor went out on my Honda. And I should have paid attention to you not to loan it out well somehow it got to hot and I guess cracked the block but I am getting it fixed I love my car and you used to take such good care of it. I went to see your friend Rick to see if he cold fix it and he told me to see if I could find a motor, So Rudy and I are looking for one. And I am not loaning out to anyone. I cried so much and I know God would not like me to cry over material things but I was thinking golly my babe told me not too and I did anyway, well I will write and let you know what happens. Yes I still have your Car Raymond said he would buy it but it's too far to come and get it. He calls me all the time. well babe Happy Valentines Day I Love You
Your wife 
Marie

Hi Babe,
It's been a couple of weeks that I haven't written but your always in my thoughts every minute of the day when I'm driving, shopping, paying bills. Your always on my mind. I sit in the living room and look out the window and wonder what am I going to do with his car that he loved so much. I have tried to sell it but can't find anyone that will give me the money you wanted for it. So it sits there in the Garage. Well Babe I went to Joe Parra funeral last Monday and it was sad it's always hard for the wife and kid's. Alice tried to be strong but I know it was hard for her because it happened to me. But I pray that one day soon we will see each other again I know God will make it happen. I seen Samantha, Savannah and David last night at Carmen shower they are doing good. Samantha wants to make her Holy Communion but she has to get Baptized first and Father told me I have to get the parents permission first. So I'm going to talk to P.J. Well Babe Carmen is going too have a boy I thought for sure she would have a girl this time because Vincent wanted a little sister. He already had a name for her but now they have to get a boy's name. And they want a name from the Bible, Oh you should hear Vincent pray the Our Father and the Hail Mary he does it so good but of course he learned it in Catholic school, Well babe I will close for now I have to finish getting ready for Church. Oh I forget and I know you know that today is Super Bowl Sunday. I love you always,
Your wife Marie

Hi Babe
Just sitting here thinking of you and all the good times we had and the way you taught me to dance Texas style I miss all that so much and of all the plans we were going to do with our time. But that was cut short. God had other plans for you. The VA sent me 4 certificate's for your service in Viet-Nam and it was signed by President Obama I'm going send one to your Niece Marisa your brother Roque daughter. Noeila has calls me when she's at her son Mario's house. Her and Raymond are the only ones I hear from, oh and now Marisa also Your nephew Raul I get mail on face book from him. He is such a handsome guy I wish we could have seen them more. Noeila told me that Mario and all kids have lived in McAllen for some
time. Noiela said she would come from Mexico next time to see when I go to Texas so I can go see her at Mario's house. I know babe you probably don't read all these messages I send but it calms me down. Oh and your dog is well but doesn't not want to stay outside anymore and I have to train him, he has been doing pretty good. Today it's raining and he must be happy he is in the warm house not getting all wet. Well babe there is not to much going on oh yes my friend Joe Parra passed away remember I took your picture with him for Dixie welcome home visit at the Pizza place well his wife Alice found him on the bedroom floor. They said it was a heart Attack.
Well babe I'm close for now going to write checks out for the bills. I'm doing like you did make the 27th out then on the 1st bills. Oh I forgot they are going to do MRI on my knee on the 2nd of February to see if  need surgery  
I love You so Much
Your Wife, Marie

Hi Babe 
Just got home from church and I forgot I also had a mass for my family that have gone with the Lord. Lina was there I missed it this morning and it was your Mass but my leg was hurting real bad and I know you would understand like you always did. You would say stay home if your not feeling good but you were in my thoughts as and prayers as I looked up to God on the cross. Babe I know your probley tired of hearing this but I muss you so much. And Pancho is doing better but now he doesn't want to stay outside I am trying to train him he has messed a little but I catch him on time and I throw him outside. but he still smells like dog I am going to see if I can fine some spray to make him smell good. He is clean but his breath is awful he wont let me brush his teeth. Oh well I know he would let you if you were here. He wont even let me clean his ears so the Vet did it. And he sleeps next to the bed where you use to sleep. I wonder if he know that your not here. Well Babe I didnt get to finish my housework but I will tomarrow I'm going to strighten the top of your dresser and clean it. Decon Leonard is comming on Thursday to clean the rug and if Pancho doesnt learn that he can't go in the house he is going outside for sure.
Well babe i'm going to get ready for bed and pray for you.
I love so much and we all miss you,
Love Your Wife Marie

Good Morning Babe,
I didn't go to church this morning for your mass as I hurt my knee a couple of weeks ago and I'm going to have to have an MRI and it hurt not only that it was real windy some time during the early morning hours and all the electricty went out and my alarmj didn't go foo but I will go this afternoon. Samantha came stayed with me a few day's ashe was on Christmas Vacation but she is going home today she has school tomarrow. yesterday we went to Jacob's and had dinner Lucinda helped me make enchiladas we made 5 dozen and I brought some home that's what jacob wanted for his 30th Birthday. Just Family was there except you. I was remembering last year when we went to his party and you were having a great time dancing with Carmen. Well Babe Erlene is here to pick up Sam will be back later

"Babe Happy Birthday" You wont be getting this tonight because its already late but I know you will be celebrating it with our Lord. Babe I had a mass for you tonight for your Birthday and Tricia sent a surprise she sent an Ice cream cake for your birthday. It looks really good but we are going to cut it tomarrow so the whole famly can enjoy the only ones that will missing is Tricia, Chris and Selena and probley Ashlley and Anthony as she doesnt have a car unless we pick them up. But they will be here in our hearts. Tricia remembered your Birthday like we celebrated it a couple of years ago when she was here, Babe when ever anyone askes about you or talks about you I start crying, Jacob's sister In-law was talking about you how good you looked the last time she seen you and this really shocked her. Well Babe its getting Late and I have to go to bed but I will write tomarrow I Love you very much
12/31/45 to 4/28/11
Love Your wife Marie

"Happy Birthday Raul"   Your celebrating in heaven with Our God! Our Lord! and all the angels in heaven! In heaven you don't get old! Smle!

Happy Birthday grandpa! We love and miss you. Wish we were able to party like we did that one year. I didn't lie, we will be having ice cream cake today for you. Love you mucho

Here we are very Happy at my 70th Birthday Party

Good Morning Babe I can just Imagine what your Christmas was like with our Awesome God. Well I went to Jacobs for Christmas and  took all the gifts for the family and also recieved beautiful picture frame from Ashley for you she is going to give me a picture to put in it and Place it next to your Urn. When I read it it made me cry so much. We all missed you very much. And the kid's loved their pillow Selena said she will never get it dirty and she will sleep with it every night so did Vincent he ran and put it on his bed. I tried calling Raymond but he didnt answer. Pancho is doing better but I have trouble giving him his medication I have to shove the pill down his throat but the liquid one he takes it must be sweet cause I have no problem with giving it to him.Oh and Samantha kept asking for her pillow and I told her I didnt make it for and she started to cry so I went ahead and gave it to her. Everybody thought what a great idea that was so no I have to make one for Matthew and Kimberly. You see Babe how much your missed everyday you were loved especially by ME. I will write later tonight I ahe to take Pancho out to do his business.
I Love you,
Your wife Marie

  "Merry Christmas Raul"! This must be the best Christmas ever! You are with God  celebrating the  best gift he gave the world! Our 
savior "Jesus"! As i write to you, I'm listening to Lil Joe, remind's me so much of you and my mom. We miss you so much! It may not seem like it to other's but, this is one of the most painful times in my life, to watch my mother cry, to see the pain on her face, to hear her pain! I knew from day one, I  would have  to be strong, to hold her up with "God's grace. I do know your spirit is with her, how could it not be, you loved her so much! It hurt's so much ,it's so hard for me to talk about it. I still ask "God" why? I know I have no right, life can be so unfair! No one know's the tear's I cry when I'm alone but God! Then I hear God whisper to me, he's promise, we will all see each other again one day! We love and miss you so much! By the way did you tell "Elvis" I still love him! Smile! I know you wil be with us in spirit today! You were so proud of all of us! Thank you!

Hi Babe,
Well it's Christmas Eve and your spending your first Christmas in Heaven I have really been depressed today because your not here. And I remember you always wanted me to open my gifts from you on Christmas Eve. And now your not here to give me one but I know you will be watching over me tonight. I am picking up Lina as like I do every Christmas Eve to go to Midnight Mass. Carmen & Jacobs motherin-law invited me again this year but I don't feel like being with anyone right now everyone wants me to go Barbara invited me Josie and & Lelia  from Sam's But Im just home I'm going to take a shower and get ready for Mass. Lucinda is worried about me being alone. Oh babe I ran over Pancho's foot with the Van the other and he has two broken toes and the vet wrapped his foot in with a thing like a cast and poor thing can't walk he is in the house but he has been a good dog.I have to carry him out side for him to go to the bathroom and do his business. And it cost me alot almost $500.00. But he runs after the Van thinking your in it I hope this will teach him a lesson. Oh Josie called to invite me over tomarrow but I told her I was going to Jacobs but I would go to her house on Monday. I Miss you so Much. Selena opened up her gifts tonight and she loved the pillow she said her grandpa will be sleeping with her every night. I got one for Samantha and Vincent too. Well yesterday was a year that we buried Jimmy and remember how bad it rained wellit's it was a cold and beautiful day. We had a little wind. And today was really nice too. Its supposed to be nice tomarrow. Well babe I'm going to take a shower and get ready I will write tomarrow. I'm going to call Raymond tomarrow he had his foot surgery and isnt working right now until January some time. Kisses from ME TO YOU
I LOVE YOU  ALWAYS
love Your Wife Marie

Good Morning Babe,
Just thought I would write a few lines to let you know again how much I miss You and your always on my mind there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. Barbara made Selena, samantha and Vincent some pillows with your shirt's and with your and their pictures on it and I'm giving them those pillow's for Chrsitmas as soon as I down load them I wilolo send you a copy well babe I have to go to the post office and see about sending Selena her pillow so I will write to later tonight I Love You Always
Your Wife Marie

Hi Babe I have been kinda of busy going to church and keeping busy so I don't cry too much. But when ever I talk about you here comes the tears. Well I have been working on Faith's Christmas Stocking you know the one's I have made for all the other grand kids. Today I stayed home and cleaned the living room and kitchen and went to buy some stuff to make your sugar cookies. I don't know if Mary or Samantha is comming this year but I am going to try it on my own just to keep busy.
Well Babe tonight Monticitio is have a candle light memorial and I'm going because they are going to honor all that have passsed this year. I'm goingt and so is Lucinda and Rudy as far I know and Marisa if she's up to it as she has been real sick. Babe I miss you so much and day after tomarrow Jimmy will be gone 1 year  nand I am having a Mass for him on that morning. And that's the day of Our Immaculte Conception. Well babe there is really not much to say except I miss you so much and I n ever thought I would hurt this bad it's really bad I can't speak of without  crying. Well Babe I'm going to get ready so I can be there early to get a good seat. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. PLEASE STAY AT MY SIDE.
lOVE yOUR WIFE,
Marie

Hi Babe well today is 7 months that you left me to go with our Heavenly Father and your Mom. I know Angel talkd to you yesterday and like I said I will try not to cry but sometimes it's hard for me and you know that. Babe I have tried to keep up with the Yard but Gonzalez just mow's I am going to have to tell him I want the leaves blown too. And your dog Pancho does not like his dry food or the wiennies you used to give him I tried Dog Food in the Can but he makes a mess in the yard. I'm going to try and keep the yard like you had it. Well babe CHRISTMAS IS comming up in a couple of weeks and I am trying so hard to watch the spending of course your granddaughter Samantha wants everything she see's on T.V. and I told her I have too many kid's. And she said if Grandpa was here he would get it for me haha and I know you would. Also your friend from Daniels called to talk to about getting me something for Christmas and that they had a big sale and I told her what happened to you and she felt really bad. That's the only account that I didnt close in oyur name I forgot about that because you had a zero balance. Well babe I missing you so much. I'm not eben going to decorate for Christmas what for your not here to help me.
Well Babe i'm closing with lots of Love,Your wife Marie

Hi Babe,
Happy Thanksgiving in Heaven  you are missed so much last year your were helping out in the kitchen with the Turkey and this year your gone. Babe I didn't cook this year because I am not up to it I miss you so much. But I was invited to Nevin's mom's house and Josie invited me to and so did Jacobs Mother inlaw. So I might go for awhile I just don't people to get mad at me because I am so sad. I went to Church this morning and I prayed for you and the family. Well another holiday is comming up and it's Christmas another sad day. First Jimmy than you who could be next. Babe never forget I love you so much and I try not to cry but God gave me these tears and he's the only one that can take them away. I really try but everybody say's I look sad all the time and I tell them Raul Is gone. Oh Raymond called to wish me a Happy Thanksgiving he was on his way with his girlfriend family house he really likes her I bet he marry's her but she is real nice. Sonya called me too. They are all worrried about me. And some say I am strong but I just don't kno I sent you a letter about that me and Lina went to a candle light memorial at Kaiser for you and Jimmy and also msent a beautiful poem and it never came out. So I'm going to send to again during Christmas I don't know why they didnt put it your guest book. But it's called My First Christmas in Heaven. Well Babe i'm goinmg to close for now.
With all my Love Your wife
Marie

Hey gramps!
Happy Veterans day! Miss you and love you so much! I know you can see me and know you would tell me not to cry but can't help it. I'm so proud to call you my grandpa and thank you for everything you did for this country. We love you and send you hugs!

Hi Babe well it was so hard for me to write yesterday it was 6 months that you have been gone I went to church to listen to Father talk and at 7:01 pm I said a prayer because 6 months ago you passed away at Loma Linda Hospital one of the worst day of my life. I went to see Angel and she told me you still loved me as I do you and that you are always with me. I met this Lady at church last night and she lost her husband in 2007 and she said has been hard for her even after all this time. She said she knows what I am going thru and she said she prays to God and her husband and told me to do the same, and she said never forget he is with you all the time guiding me. And I believe you are I know you want me to stop driving fast and when I start to see how fast I'm driving all of sudden I take my foot off the gas pedal and I think it's you doing it. Thank You my Love. Well today is Saturday and I was cleaning the kitchen but I thought I should write to  you. I seen Patricia wrote to you too. See Babe we all still love you. And Pesqui has been real good this month has had a been in a good mood all month I pray to St. God and to St. Jude every night.  Well babe I took Pancho to get groomed yesterday and he looks so pretty nice and blonde but I just seen him getting under your car and probably will be dirty some time today. He is so used to you giving him table food that he won't eat dog food I went and bought him some Iams dog food and he won't eat it. But the guy at the pet store told me if he gets hungry he will eat it. He doesn't even want to eat the winners he leaves them all over the yard. Babe please stay close to me and with you and God 's help I will be ok, I know your with your Mom that you loved dearly so I am happy for that. I know how you loved her. well babe I have to finish the kitchen. Tomorrow I'm going to Barbara's house we are going to make pillows for Samantha and Selena with your shirts that's what I'm giving them for Christmas, and I think I will make one for Vincent too. You know he wants your Cowboy hat and I told him I would give it to him when he got older. Well Babe I'm going to close with all my Love you will always be in my heart.
Love, Your Wife Marie



Hola grandpa, 
Just wanted to say hello. Your on all of our minds and miss you everyday. Selena misses you so much. She had a really bad night crying for you the other day but she knows that you're here for all of us. She said she will keep your memory alive and teach her children and her childrens children about you. And pass down the cross you gave her. We miss you grandpa! We love you sending you lots of hugs and kisses
Love Patricia, Chris and Selena

Hi Babe,
Its been a couple of weeks since I wrote and i'm sorry but Ana at church asked me to help them file old Marriage files by year to keep me busy and to try and keep me from crying so much she knows every time I talk about I start crying. Like the people at church on Sunday's ask me how are you doing and I tell them I'm trying to get better but at night I am so Lonely with out you. Its so quite the only thing that makes noise is your dog Pancho barking to eat I was going to take him to get groomed today but it rained so I will take him when the sun comes out again. It's cool today and I also took to get his Rabies shots and when I was looking in the file cabinet I found a record that you took him already and now I have to see if they will extend the year because the one you got for him in Janusry expries in 2013 amd so does the one I got. Well babe I havent even written to Jimmy in awhile I hope you see him I miss the both of you. I had a Mass for you on Sunday as I do every Sunday. And in 2 day's you will have been gone 6 months and they have been lonely months. Tomarrow I'm going to see Angel and see if he you will talk to her I will try not to cry so you can stay longer I have so many questions for you. I have kept the van up with the oil changes and tomarrow I'm taking it to Sam's and see if the tires need rotated but I think they did it when I got the oild changed. And Rudy's friend at Sparkle Car wash washed the van so nice it looked good and I cleaned the carpet it was so dirty from the last time it rained so now I carry a towel to put my feet on it. The girl that did your sevice at Montecito hurt her foot and she will be off till the first of the year I went to order another memory book as I gave mine to Raymond. And I went to pick it up and the lady told me what happened to her. Well Babe I wish this rain would go to Texas they need it real bad. Please ask God to send them some rain. Well babe I'm going to close for now but I will write on the 28th. As that will be a lonely day for me I Love You always
Love your wife Marie

hi grandpa it is me samantha.i miss you .in bed i cry and  i sleep with your 
shirt .i just cant help my seif .I wish you were still here for grandma and me .Ive been here for two weeks and me
and grandma been busy.love.samantha

Well Babe it's been a little over a week since I last wrote to you I have been really busy trying to get the house in top good condition for when Delpha came and I was still working on the house that morning. I picked her and Jackie and Jordan up at the airport and before I did I made enchildas for them and they really liked them you know how picky Jacky and Jordan are but Jackie saved some for her to eat the next day. (smile)
They wnated to go to Disneyland  being that Jackie was older and we took Sam the last time that Delpha took Jordan we took Samantha they were 2 years old. Remember that Samantha didnt want to ride in the stroller she had you carry her all over Disneyland and now they are both 8 yrs old and they ahd fun I was tired, but Delpha rented a room at a real nice motel across the street and all we had to do was walk didn't have to pay parking which was $15.00, so we saved by staying there. It had two queen size bed's and a sofa that made into a  bed. We also took Stephanie and Kimberly. Kim was afraid of Micky Mouse and the rest of them she didnt want to take pictures with them but we did anyway. She was such a good girl she walked all over but toward the end of the night she started to get sleepy you probly seen us from way up in Heaven. We came home and rested on Monday. Of course they wanted to go to the Mall's so I took them on Tuesday to Ontario and Victoria Gardens. And Delpha wanted to go the Mountains you  know how she loves going up there and I know you and God guided me all the way. Then Yersterday Lucinda drove us to Hollywood and we took a tour bus, it was ok but some times boring but they enjoyed it. Got home Late about 8:30 and Jakie went to bed. Lucinda invited us to to Rey's Deli for awhile so Delpha and I went for about an hour she wanted Delpha to see her hang out. Came home went to bed and got up early and took them to the airport they should br getting there right now. Delpha was so happy to see rain because it hasnt rained in Texas and they need it bad. Well Babe I am running out of space So I will write tomarrow. I Love You Always
Your my #1
Love you so Much always,
your wife Marie

Hi Babe todaqy is such a sad for me as you left 5 months ago today at 7:03 and writting to you just makes me feel better and I miss you so much. I can Imagine if it was me instead of you I wonder if you would be going through the same thing I'm going thru. Well babe I have had to learn alot of stuff like  taking the stove apart and remembering how to put it back together and I did it I also bought a new shampooer because Sears wants to much to fix the other one and I cleaned the computer room and our bedroom. I have been really busy getting the house cleaned for when Delpha comes and on Sunday she wants to take Jordan to Disneyland and yes I'm taking Samantha with us I invited Kimberly and Stephannie to but not sure if they are going today is Kimberly Birthday. I even Grouted the Kitchen sink it looks so clean. I know I should hva e done that along time ago. Well babe I will write later I have to go buy you some flowers and some for the Virgin so connect with you later Love You
Your wife Marie

Hi Babe here I am again well im almost finished with our bathroom I painted the cuboards brown and I Took off the hinges and Rudy came and put them up and he had to sand some of the doors, them because I had put to much paint on them. But they are all up and they look nice I hope you can see them from heaven. But I goofed up I got a little of paint on the walls you painted but I have to get some green paint and fix it but I will probley do that on Monday I am really tired I need to finish it before Delpha and Jackie come on the 5th of October. Well babe I have another Mass for you tomarrow and then i'm comming home and rest as it is Sunday and you know me I don't do anything on Sunday's. Rudy's friend Frankie well his Mom told me that Buddie was in the hospital I'm going to send him a get well card. I haven't heard from Dixie. Well I guess that's all the new's for today will try and write tomarrow I love you ALWAYS
Your Wife Marie

Hi Babe I had a a Mass said again for you yesterday I had a horrilble night cried for you and I know you don't wnat me crying but I miss you so much I never thought I would take it so hard and I just hugged you all night long till I fell asleep. well when I finish this i'm going to write to Raymond I heard that Texas finnaly got RAIN. Raymond needs so bad for his cow's and his animals, I talked to his girlfriend the other day and she also said it's been so dry. They had a big fire in Austin pretty close to Sonya house but I think they got it out. Well babe I have been trying to finish our bathroom that you started before you left I painted the cuboards. I painted them brown, I did all by self and I made some mistakes but I fixed them Rudy is going to help me put the doors back on when they finish drying. Oh and Pancho is doing better I took him to the Vet and he had a bad ear infection they gave two shots and antibotics he seems better. But I think he misses hs daddy. Also your brother Roque's kids contacted me and they feel really bad your Nephew Raul said his mom wanted to contact me and I gave him our number but she hasn't called yet she is in Mc Allen I guess thigs are bad in Monterrey. I tried calling her when you died and went home with our Lord but the number you wrote was wrong but I wouldn't been able to contact her anyway if she is in Mc Allen also Delpha and Jackie are comming to visit me the first part of October so I have to get this bathroom done quick. Raul I love you so much and one day we will be together again. I promise to try  not cry so much but its so hard. We all miss you Samantha always sleeps with you when she comes, and Tricia told me Your Best Friend Selen misses you too. I see that Ashley wrote to you. How Is Jimmy I will write to him lataer I miss you guy's well babe I have to finish painting so I will say talk to later. Lucinda wanted to help me but she is busy baby sitting Faith and the bath room is too small for two people in there painting write later
 I LOVE YOU
YOUR WIFE MARIE

Hi Grandpa..miss you and love you. Send your blessings to our family.

Hi Babe well I am doing ok for now I still miss you I had another Mass for you today I have one every Sunday. Well Babe Little Rudy, Sara and Matthew oh Terri came over last night to visit they stayed awhile they tought I had made dinner but honestly I haven't cooked but twice since you left there is no reason I eat very little anyway. I made Lengua for Rudy a couple of times but I just don't feel like cooking anymore for what!!!! Babe I know your watching Dallas playing the New York Jets are playing and the score is 23 to 10 DALLAS IS ahea.Like Lucinda and the boy's said you have the best seats in the house watching from Heaven with our Lord. Well Babe i'm having to take the Van in remember that right back door that you were having trouble sliding shut well now it's hard to close the door. So i'm taking in tomarrow to find out why it won't slide shut I have to force it closed. Also You probley already know but  E J dad passed away on Wednesday and Belinda said he was taking really hard. I' going to call her tonight and see how he is doing. Also Raymond called me and wrote to me he is having bad luck with no rain in Texas, They need Rain real bad. Also Sonya has been txting me and keeping in touch with me too. And your brother Raymond is so in Love with his girlfriend she is really a nice person likes the same thing he does her name is Lucy I don't know if I told you . Sonya likes her too and it's good to see Raymond so happy. Well babe i'm going to close for now will write to agin if Dallas wins's
I Love You always and always
Your Wife Marie

Hi Babe I'm doing ok I had a bad Saturday I washed clothes and the T shirt you wore on that wednesday before you died went in the wash with the sheets and I was so upset because your smell wouldn't be on it and I sleep with that T shrit every night I just couldn't find my self. Well I finely took the sheets out of the dryer today and your t shirt was on top and it still had your smell and I said how amazing God is he seen how upset I was and left the smell in the shirt to let me know you were with me. Wel babe I got a surprise of my life today your Nephew Roque's son Raul found me on the computer and wrote to me that his mom was really having a hard time about your death and wanted me to give her our phone number so she could call me so I gave to him. I tried calling her in Mexico but we could never get that line they kept telling me it was a wrong number. I seen Raul Gonzalez  on my computer and I thought someone was playing tricks on me so I finely asked who he was and he told me. Well I talked to Raymond Sunday annd Texas still hasnt had any rain and he said that the hay he has to buy only last about a month he bought 3 bales while I was there. But he said they need rain real bad he said he dug a big pond and filled with water so the cow's would have water to drink, Babe pease pray for him that God will send rain to Texas. There is also a big fire in Austin becasue of the dryness. Well babe I have to say my prayers and my Rosary as it's 11:00 pm and I will write tomarrow. I Love You Always

Hi Babe well I was starting to write to you last night because it has been 4 months since you left me all alone but I fely so sad not only for that but I have to fix the van I broke the tail light but i'm fixing it tomarrow and yesterday I had a mass for you and Lina was there and so were all my church friends. I seen Samantha and she said to tell you she misses her gampa that gave her quarters I still try and save them for her. Well babe i'm going to try and finish the bathroom and finish painting it that part you were going to do when we got back from our trip to Vegas that we never made it. But I'm going to do it tomarrow. But its been so hot, today it was 109. It supposed to be the same tomarrow well this is Labor Day weekend hopefully it was start to cool off. Rudy came tonight and I finely cooked it's been about 4 months since I cooked I made one of your favorite's I made Enchialdas and Rudy and I talked about you. How if you were still here you would be sitting in your  recliner chasing me off. And I think Pancho has an ear infection so Thursday I'm taking him to the Vet becasue I can't do what you used to do clean and take care of his ear's That's why I told you before I just cann't do it, You are so missed by so many of us. Well babe I'm going to try and go see that lady Angel again and I will try not to cry. I just know you must be happy with your mom and dad and your two brother's. Especially with your Mom you loved her so much and I kinow deep in my heart I will see you again. when no one knows but my dear Lord. Well babe it's 10.00 so I am going to bed and say my prayers and say my Rosary. And you will be next me. Please Raul pray for me I need your prayers that I stop crying so much. Well babe I forgot to tell you but Patricia got a taste  of a hurricane there was one out there this weekend and they said it bigger than   Europe that's how big it was well it went into Virginia Beach where Tricia lives but she said they were ok except the wind blew down their fence and they got water in the house. I asked her if they boarded the windows and she said no and it was to late to do it but Thank God they are ok. Well babe Pancho is barking and I'm going to give him his night time snak so I can go to bed I love you always,
Your wife Marie

Whats happening Raul it's been awhile since I being able to write and the last time i did the didn't post it for some reason well it's been so hot lately all I wanna do is stay inside but thing's need to get done.I'am going to go help Mom clean out the garage today she want to get rid of some stuff I guess so I will be with her all day maybe she will cook some dinner who know's well I must close for know but I will write again soon miss you everyday Rudy Calleros Sr

Hi Babe so sorryy it's taking me so long to write but I got home from Corpus put clothes away and fixed problems with the Honda the A/C again China fixed it but the freon was still comming out. So I called your friend Benjamin and he gave me the name of his friend and he fixed I guess China didn't cap some thing and the freon leaked out. But it5's working now and it's really cold. Well babe I wrote while I was in Texas and I used Delpha's daughter computer and it was like a lap top and boy I seen all the mispelled words. It was good to see Raymond and he has a girlfriend and she is really nice and she helps him out at the ranch and she drives the Tractor and all the farm Equiptment. She really takes care of him. Samantha had a good time she always out with Raymond feeding the cow's and his horse. The horse had a baby but Raymond said it died and she waS kinda of depressed wouldn't let us get near her. Raymond is doing good. I told you he has a beautiful R V and when I develope the pictures I will put it this site I didnt get a chance to see little Raymond he was always working and getting home late. But his wife has a store in he mall and I was going to buy some pants for Mike and David but they were Baggy pants and they don't wear those and then the T shirt were of Heavy Metak and the boy's said they didnt like Heavy Metal. Well today I paid the bills and I was surprised that light bill was only $42.00 I have had the cooler on all day and part of the night as it's been really hot. And it was hotdity and it was dry heat. Raymond said they need rain real bad. I didn't get to see your sister's when Ray called they were never home while I was there. You should have seen Samantha's face when the plane took off her eyes were real  big but she had a good time. We took her to Sea World and the Riverwalk in San Antonio. I took her home on Tuesday as she miseed 7 days of school and I didnt want her to miss anymore. By the way part of you went with us. I couldn't leave you home. I plan on finishing the bathroom Delpha made my window curtains. Well Babe will write more tonigh Rudy just came Love You so Much and I always will . Oh yea I went to see Josh Groban Thank you for the the tickets write tonite 
Love your wife Marie

Hi babe well I finely made it to corpus, Delpha picked Sam and I up in San Antonio the airlines lost our luggage so we went on to Delpha's and I got it on Saturday. but I had to buy clothes at Walmart for the night and the next day.  Delpha went to visit Raymond at the Ranch and we met his girlfriend she is really nice. Samantha had so much fun she went wit Raymond to feed the cow''s and three of them had babies they are so cute. then Ray came on Tuesday and picked us up and we spent the night in his R V he gas a bigger one and beautiful one. then the next day he took us to see Sonya her girls are so cute. we spent the sole day there. Raymond really found a nice girlfrien. well babe I leave tomorrow back home. so I will write you more tomorrow. I love you a d miss you very much
Love your wife Marie

Hi Babe,
well it's late Sunday 10:00 and i'm barley getting a chance to write to you my favorite person. Well Babe I went to Church yesterday at 5:00 because I had your Mass as someone already had one at 10:00 this morning and the only time that was open was yesterday. Well I slept in today with you at my side and I got up and worked on Faith's Christmas stocking like the ones I made for the other grand kids then I got ready and went to see Betty Naomie's grandma lost her husband too. He passed away on 7/21/11 and I know what she going through. I'm sure you will see him in Heaven. The older man that always had his camera around his neck. But he has been sick for awhile, but it's still hard when you loose someone you love like I did. Well Babe in 4 day's I will be on my way to Texas me and Samantha she is excited. I thought she would change her mind once that Erlene had her baby she had it on Wednesday but she said no she wanted to go anyway. I'm picking her up on Wednesday when she get's out of school at 3:00. She is going to miss 7 days's but I can't get a refund on her ticket. I wrote to Raymond to give him Delpha's phone number. And tomarrow is the funeral and Decon Leonard is coming to shampoo the carpet, as it is real dirty since when you died and all the company I had it got really dirty.
Well Babe I miss you so much and when I get to Texas I will write to you too.
But I have to get early. I seen that Rudy wrote to you but he didn't tell you that when I played your machine Pot of Gold I won $600.00 and only started with $80.00 pretty good huh. Well my Babe I am going to close so I can take a shower have to get early.
I love you
Your Always Babe Marie

Hello Pops it is me just thought I'd write a few lines today.last night we went in your van to morongo for a concert Mom went to play your machine it was great to see her get away from the house for little while we all had a great time.I spent the night because we got home late and I didn't want her to be opening the gate so late by her self well it's been three long month's since you left us and please no think we are not still hurting because we all are your name alway's come's up when we talk and you are missed everyday by me and all the kid's well Raul I will write again soon I miss you so much   Rudy Calleros Sr

Hi Babe,
It's me again and I will keep writting to to help me. Well Babe I had a mass intention for you today Rudy couldn't go because Micheal had an all star game and I know you would say that's important becaue you your self that it was good that he played ball instead of running in the streets like the other boy's his age. He is a good boy and I pray that he stays that way. And Lucinda had a prior commitment and she really didn't know I was going to have this mass but i'm sure she will be at the next one. Carmen and I were there and I prayed for you and tomarrow I am still going to church because I had already put Jimmy's name since the first of the year to have a mass intention for him before his birthday on Monday. I also have to go pray to the Virgin like she wants me too. And Babe I have been real careful since I know you want me to slow down when I drive I start to hit the pedal hard and I say Marie Raul wants you to slow daown and take care of your self. Babe I want to have Angel talk to to again but I have an appointment with Father Gomez on Tuesday I have to really talk to him about why I am taking it so hard. Babe I didn't mean to turn my face on you that day I just had to make a u-turn so I could call 911 and get you to the hospital, I wish I could have put my arms around you and held while they came but they wanted all your medications and I had to come in to the house to get them I wish now I would have told them they had to wait till we got to the hospital.   Babe do you remember that man I indroduced you to at Staters and I told you was the Mayor of Colton well he also had a massive heart attack like you. And he went home with the the Lord. I know what his wife is feeling cause i'm going through the same thing. He went home for lunch and was on his way back to work when he had the heart attack and he was driving and hit a pole and died. Well babe I still Havent heard from Dixie, well in 13 days I will see Delpha and Raymond and I will write to you from Delpha's house she has a computer. Babe I love you and I'm going to bed as I have to say my Rosary like the Virgin wants me to do. So I will write tomarrow. Kiss and hugs from me and the kid's.
I love you your wife Marie

Raul well it's saturday morning and once again this old man is at work again.
It's the only way that I can get away from home on weekend's because they don't let me do nothing just kidding.
today Mike play's in another allstar game they lost last night so they must win today or they are out of the tournament.Lately it seem Mom's crying alot more for you she say's no but I can see it in her eye's she has that far away look like her mind is somewhere else and it seem's there is nothing we can do to help her in her greiving process it will take some time I know but we will be there for her when she need's us because she is alway's there for us.As for myself it still not easy for me I go visit Mom and it's like your not really gone you just went to the store and you will be back but I have to leave before you get back but you won't be coming back thru the gate ever again the family miss's you so much your name will never leave our lip's you are forever in our heart's missing you with every passing day and night Rudy Calleros Sr

Hi Babe this website is in your memory and I feel so much better when I write.
Babe I cried so much so much last night night as it was Carmen's Jacob's Birthday and it brought tears to my eyes because I remember last year when Carmen's mom had her her birthday party at their house in Rialto  and you were  dancing with Carmen and you had tennis shoes and shorts on but you were out there anyway. Well she had her birthday at the new Veranda Restruant and of course we we all were there except YOU, Carmen's mom came to me to console me but what she said didn't make any difference. I told her I cry st night, because I miss you.
And all of sudden I started crying for one thing about the yard and P. J. has been doing it since you left but I know it's hard for him to go to work  and then come here and then it get's late and starting to get dark. Well he asked this man if he could do the yard and he brought the man over to look at the yard and the man his name is (Jose)and he said he would do all of trim and blow and mow the yard for a $100.00. A  month then I told Lucinda and she said well what about the man and his wife that wanted to rent Jimmy apartment. Said he would do the yard if I gave him a cut on the rent so I text P. J. and told him never mind and Lucinda asked me if that guy called me and I told he had called me,and I told her no and she said yes he did and I told her I was home and he never called. Well then I started crying even more so I told her tell him to forget it I'm not renting the apartment is been vacant for 7 months it can stay that way. I will do the yard the best I can, and when I can find someone that won't charge me so much I will handle that. Well Babe I came home went to bed but I drank two beer's with Tomatoe juice in so I could sleep. And this morning I got up got ready for church and here I am today i'm going to Michael's game, they won yesterday. He really is a good baseball player I am so glad that baseball is in his mind and not out in streets like other boy's his age. Oh I forgot to tell you made the all Start team and he is the youngest one on the team all the other boy's are High school kid's. Well Babe I hope you remember the Mayor from Colton that we spoke to at Stater's one time well he is in heaven with you he also had a massive Heart Attack. I know what his wife is going though just like me. Well babe I' running out of space so I will write to later after Mike's game.  No one knows what I'm going though unless they have been in my shoes. I LOVE YOU
Your Wife Marie

Hey Raul it's been awhile since I have been able write you.Well Mom made me my favorite dish this wednesday,lengua and fedieo I think that how you spell it anyway she made burrito's with the leftover's and I took them to work boy the guy's loved them.The hurt from losing you has not gotten any easier for me I miss you everyday why did God take you from us so soon I ask myself that same question everyday and I can not come up with any kind of answer only you and God know why how I wish we could of talked more and laughed more on easter sunday I remember the two of us laughing at the easter bunny cause he was showing his egg's to everyone I will never forget that because it's the last time we talked and the last time I hugged you and said goodbye.I know they say that a man is not supossed to cry but to lose someone that I love so much to hell with them I'am gonna cry everyday if I want too. missing you everyday  Rudy Sr

Hi babe well today is the 15th of July and it's almost 3 months that you have been gone and I miss you it's  horrible.
Yesterday the girl that did your services called me and told me to take your ashes to her she ha a surprise for me. I wanted to take your URN to Texas but there would so much I had to do with the URN and the airlines told me that the funeral home would have to put you in cardboard box and I didn't want that for you. You deserve better and I called Amy and she said she would see what she could do for me. Well she called me and I took the URN over to her and she went out and bought this little Bear with a zipper in the back and it had a heart in that hole where the zipper is and she took the little heart out and took your ashes and put them in a small plastic bag and put  of your ashes in it. And that way I could take you with me it is really cute and right now I have you sitting in your chair watching 3 1/2 men your program. Samantha wanted you but I told her no that the bear was mine to sleep with. I cannot go to Texas without you. I am going to see Raymond and Delpha and maybe Belinda if I have time. I leave on the 4th of August and I will be back on August 15th. But I will continue to write to you while I'm there. Rudy was so upset last week because at his work in Riverside the internet was down and he couldn't write to you. When he comes he always goes into our room and say's hello and when he leaves he say's goodnight. Well babe China fixed the air conditioner and I took the honda to where you had it painted because it was fading on the trunk and the hood and Juan the guy that painted it is going repaint the whole car all I had to pay was for the paint, he was so shocked about what happened he said you would go by once in awhile and he said you were such a nice guy he really liked you. I haven't seen the Chino's since he fixed the car. But I will go by and say hello to Rick and Benjamin one of these day's. And I take that little Bear with me where ever I go to Walmart and to Stater's people will think i'm crazy but I don't care Well babe I'm ging to close with all my Love,
Marie

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Raul V. Gonzalez

December 31, 1945 – April 28, 2011

Montecito Memorial Park and Mortuary

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