Kerry - 4-11-2024

Kerry today is the sixty eighth month since you passed. In this past month we have celebrated another Easter without you and on that day we stayed at home because we really didn’t any place to go and the weather was actually not that good because of the winds. I am also still going to physical therapy for my Bells Palsy and your Mom has had numerous tests done and she still has a few more to go because of the pains she is having. We are planning to go to Ruidoso for our anniversary and at least we will be able to get away for a couple of days and that will be good. Melanie has also been sick with pneumonia and she is feeling a little better now. We know that she and many of your friends will be remembering you on this day and please watch over them and keep them safe. We miss you. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 3-11-2024

Kerry well today is the sixty seventh month since your passing. In this month we received the results of the CT Scans your Mom had. The doctor who interpreted the results advised her to have a MRI of her cervical spine. We took the results to her primary doctor and he gave her an order for the MRI of her cervical spine and her hips because she’s having a lot of pain in both of them. I am still trying to recover from my Bells Palsy and have started physical therapy of my face. Hopefully this will help me recover. We know that Melanie and your family and friends will be thinking about you on this day because we as well as them never forget you and the good times we shared together. We miss you very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 2-11-2024

Kerry well today marks the sixty sixth month since you passed away. This past month we had to face numerous medical problems and I suffered Bells Palsy for the fourth time and on that day my face began to droop on the left side and I had no feeling so your Uncle Victor said that I needed to go to the emergency because it could be a stroke. As soon as I got there I was administered a CT scan of my brain and it showed that I was not having a stroke but they needed to do a MRI and a Neurological Exam. I was in the hospital for three days and then released and was diagnosed with Bells Palsy and was prescribed Prednisone for a week. Also I needed to make appointments to see the neurologist and primary care doctor. I am still having problems but I’m doing better. Your Mom has also had exams done to check the flow of blood in her blood vessels including her legs and cardioid arteries. We both have appointments this week with the cardiologist. Today is the Super Bowl and we know that Melanie and many of your friends will be remembering all of the good times that you had especially on this day. We miss you. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 1-11-2024

Kerry well today marks the sixty fifth month since you passed away. In this past month we had another Christmas and started another new year. It is in this time of the year when it is very difficult for us because we remember all of those times that we were together to celebrate but now all we have are the memories of those times. We also lost Terry Ann and Chuy Saenz this past month and the passing of Terry Ann was very hard for us to comprehend because she was also not very old and such a good person. When things like this happen we have a hard time trying to understand why but we have to remind ourselves that we are humans and that all we can do is accept the will of God. We know that Melanie and many of your family and friends will be thinking about you also because you all always got together during these times. We miss you. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 12-25-2023

Kerry well today is Christmas and another year that our family has to celebrate this holiday without you. This is the sixth Christmas that has passed and we are still having a very hard time time getting used to you not being here. So much has happened since our last Christmas and so many innocent people have lost their lives because of the wars in Ukraine and in the Middle East with war with Israel and Hamas but it is not only people who have lost their lives so many injured people with devastating injuries and the sad part is that it seems like it is not going to end soon. This month Terry Ann Maldonado passed away from a Brain Aneurysm and so this adds to our sadness because she was so young and such a good person. We will try our best to enjoy ourselves aside all of the difficult times and we know that many of your family and friends will be thinking about you. Melanie and Jose are here and that is good to see them. We miss you. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 12-11-2023

Kerry well today is the sixty fourth month since you passed away and we were left with only the memories of all the good times we passed together especially at this time of the year. In the past month we had to celebrate another Thanksgiving Day without you and this year was especially hard for us because both your Mom and I were sick so we had to stay home. This past month we continue to deal with the wars going on in Ukraine as well as the war in the middle east involving Israel and Hamas Militants. These wars have killed and injured so many children and adults and caused so much devastation to the buildings and infrastructure. We know that Melanie and your family and friends will be also thinking about the special good times that you all shared this time of the year. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful

Kerry 11-23-2023

Kerry well today is Thanksgiving Day and that we will have pass another holiday without you but we will be remembering all of the many times that we were together and places we celebrated this special day with you. We know Melanie and many of your friends will also be thinking of you and hopefully they are all doing well and enjoying this special day with their families. We miss you. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 11-11-2023

Kerry well today is the sixty third month since you passed away and like on the day you passed it is a Saturday. In the last month we have gone through quite a bit with your Aunt Sylvia having a surgery to repair her hernia and the surgery was about five hours long and the surgeon said that the hernia was quite large and she had also quite a bit of scar tissue because of her previous abdominal surgery. She is still in pain but is recovering at home. Your Aunt Rosemary also had surgery to her right arm and she is still in pain and also recovering. Melanie has started a new job on where she will be working from home and at present is going through eight weeks of training. The war in the Middle East between Israel and Hamas is quite bad because so many innocent women, men and children have either be killed or wounded. I think it’s going to take a while for it to be over. We know that on this day of the month Melanie and your family and friends will be thinking about you. We miss you. I love you my beautiful darlizxxng daughter. PBNF

Kerry 10-11-2023

Kerry this is the sixty second month since you wet called by our Lord Jesus Christ to come home. We have had to endure your passing with a lot of pain and suffering but we know that you were suffering from Fibromyalgia constantly and now you are no longer in pain and are now watching over all of us including all of your family and friends. This path month we have had a lot of our family including you celebrate another birthday and on your birthday we know that Melanie and your friends were remembering you and reminiscing good times you spent together. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry,
 Today is your birthday... Happy 46th birthday!!! I really hope you are having one of the most beautifulist of birthdays with all the angels in heavens. This is the 5th year that I haven't been able to call you to wish you a happy birthday and hear your voice. I miss you so much.. :(  I miss being able to call you and hear you answer with "Hello Auntie Bobin".  😀 You know they always say you don't know what you have until it's gone.  Well I wish I could tell you how much you meant to everyone and how much you are missed everyday. Kerry I think about you sooo much.... Everything is differnet since you left...  Holidays, birthdays....all the special stuff...  So, Shelby got married 2 days ago, and I know you're one of her guardian angels but having you her fairy Godmother there would have been so much better. The past five years so much has happened.  It would have been nice to share it all with you.  I love and miss you so much.  I know you are watching over us all, I just wish I could call you like I used to and talk to you and hear your voice. Kerry I hope you have a great 46th birthday and have a few bon-jouris to celebrate with Uncle Charlie, Auntie Seiko, Uncle Sammy, Grandma, Bonny, Michael and everyone else that might join your party. I love you so much 😘

Auntie Bobin

Kerry 9-25-2023

Kerry well today would have been your Birthday and all we can do is to remember all of the good times we shared when you were still with us. It is days like today that make it more difficult for us to deal with the fact that you are no longer with us. We are still to this day struggling with that fact and I wish that I could say that every year it gets easier but in all reality it does not. We know that Melanie and many of your friends will thinking about you even after all these years because you all had a very special friendship and shared so many good times together. We know that you are now no longer in pain and hopefully watching over us. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry. 9-11-2023

Kerry well today is month sixty one since you passed away. This past month Melanie and I had to celebrate another birthday without you. Melanie and Jose were here for Labor Day and they actually spent about a week here and it was good to have them here. They had a big family gathering again at Victor and Lizzy’s home and there were about 40 people there from the Couder side of the family. Melanie and Jose were able to attend and they were received very well and they enjoyed themselves so that was good and they even took Jax with them and everyone liked him. Your Mom has had quite a few days this past month in which she is suffering from fibromyalgia and even chest pains. I am worried about her and she has an appointment this week with her cardiologist. I am sure that on this day of the month many of your friends and family will be thinking about you and the fond memories you all shared. Also marks twenty two years since the twin towers in New York came down and so many lives were lost and we will never forget this attack on our country. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 8-11-2023

Today marks five years since you passed away and we were left to go on without you. I can’t tell you how many times since your passing I wish that I could only hold you one more time and look into your beautiful face and tell you how much I love you and miss you. I have lived a very long time in my opinion I can honestly say that in all my life nothing has hurt as much as losing you and I guess because I was shocked when it happened and that shock has not passed. Maybe even in the time I have left it may not. In the five years since your passing so much has happened and we have also lost family and friends and we hope that they are all together with you enjoying the after life we have been promised with no more pain and suffering. We have also passed many holidays and birthdays and it is very difficult to really enjoy those occasions like we did before but we try as best as we can. We know that Melanie and many of your friends will be thinking about you today and reminiscing on all of the special times you all shared together. Our country is going through so many difficult times with fires, floods, immigration issues, massacres of innocent people, political issues and it seems that our government congressmen can’t work together for the best of our country but all they care about is themselves and disagreeing with with what ever the other political party proposes. We can only hope that our future will soon be better and they will realize that what is truly important is what is on the best thing they can do to make our country a better place to live. We miss you so very. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF 

Kerry well today is the fifty nine month since you passed and this passed month your Mom had a birthday, Pippa suffered a broken ankle, Fathers Day, and we celebrated another 4th of July. Pippa broke her ankle on the evening of the thirteenth and so we had to take her to the emergency hospital on Airway and we were there until after 2:00 in the morning and we had to leave her there and pick her up in the morning. After I picked her up I had to take her to the Orthopedic Surgeon to schedule her surgery. It was done two days later and we feel so sorry for her because she is only 5 months old. She is recovering but will need another surgery to remove the pins on the nineteenth of this month. So that was how we celebrated your Mom’s Birthday and Fathers Day. We will have to try and make it up. The fourth was also hard because of the fireworks that bothered both Kimi and Pippa. We know Melanie and many of your friends will be thinking about you as they always do when this time of month comes. We miss you so very. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today is the fifty eighth month since you passed away and not only our lives but the lives of so many people you touched were forever changed. We no longer are able to hold you and listen to your voice but the hardest part is not being able to see you and know that you are here. We must accept the fact that hopefully we will be able to see each other again when the Good Lord decides that what we were here to accomplish we completed and now it is our time to join the rest of our family and friends who have gone before us. So much has happened in the past month with Mother’s Day and Memorial Day. We also went to a party that your Uncle Ricky and Aunt Zelma had for Zelmita. She is now 40 years old they had the party to celebrate her 40th Birthday because since she was born with Down Syndrome her life expectancy is not very long and so they had the party to celebrate and give thanks for the fact that she is still in good health. I know that Melanie and many of your friends will also be thinking and remembering you and all of the good times you all shared together. We miss you. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF 

Kerry today is the fifty seventh month since you passed away and we are still having to struggle with that fact and as we have been told before it is something that you will have a very difficult time getting over. Since last month Steven, your Uncle Victor and Uncle Mundy have had Birthdays. We also celebrated our wedding anniversary and we went and had a nice dinner and then came home. We have had to endure all month with the work being done in our bathroom and look forward to its completion. We know that on this day Melanie and your friends will be thinking about you and remembering the good times you all shared. We will be passing another Mother’s Day without you and these special days are very hard for your Mom and me because we think about how many we shared with you. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF 

Kerry well today is the fifty sixth month since you passed away. This past month we again celebrated Easter and it is another holiday that we are having to go through without you and all we can do is reminisce on how on these special days we would spend them with you some place out of town enjoying ourselves and now we have to accept the fact that we will no longer be able to do that but to continue as best as we can. We went to an Easter Brunch with Your Uncle Victor, Aunt Sylvia, Uncle Mundy, Aunt Betty and a friend of theirs Julie. The food was very good and we enjoyed getting out. We continue as best as we can with our medical problems but I continue to worry about your Mom. Please take care of her and the rest of our family who is having medical issues. We know that as always Melanie and your friends will be thinking about you and hopefully they will be remembering all of the wonderful things you all did. We miss you. I love you so much my Beautiful Darling Daughter. PBNF 


Kerry 3-11-2023

Kerry well today marks the fifty fifth month since you passed away. In addition it is Saturday the day of the week which we were given the saddest news of our lives and for us this day of the week will never be the same. In this past month your Mom has had to make some decisions in regard to her Heart and Blocked Arteries. After her last procedure her cardiologist said that he would advise for her not to go to Houston because they would probably recommend surgery. Your Mom doesn’t want to have to go through surgery and so we will continue to see how bad her chest pains are and make a decision. Your Aunt Sylvia went through a hip replacement surgery and she is in a lot of pain because she had to have it done using a posterior procedure instead of an anterior one. Your Uncle Victor is helping her as much as he can. We hope that she will soon be okay. We know that on this day of the month Melanie and many of your friends will take time to reflect and reminisce on all of the good times you all shared. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 2-11-2023
Kerry well today is the fifty fourth month that we are having to go without you and the saddest part it falls on the day of the week that you passed away Saturday. Since last month we are still having to endure the fact that we still don’t have any new information about what your Mom will have to do in regards to her blockage of her artery. They did a stress test on her yesterday and we will have to wait until next week to get the results and find out what her cardiologist recommends. We know that Melanie and many of your friends will always remember you on this day of the month and we hope that they are truly enjoying themselves and all in good health. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBN

Kerry well today is Christmas Day and this will be the fifth Christmas that we will be celebrating without you and it is these special days that we should really be happy and having a good time but for us since your passing these days are spent reminiscing on all of the good times that we all spent together and not really celebrating. Your Mom has had some medical problems lately and I am worried about her and I hope that she will get better soon. I really don’t know if you can do anything to help her but if you can please watch over her and ask our Good Lord to take care of her and all of our family and friends who are having medical problems. we would appreciate any help that you can do for us. We know that Melanie and many of your friends will be thinking about you and the good memories you all shared.  We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF 

Kerry well today is the fifty first month since you passed away and we were left devastated and having to make the best of it. We are still having a very hard time dealing with you no longer being here with us and we only have to rely on what we have been told or read that you are in a much better place no longer in pain and suffering but truly enjoying the after life we have been promised. Today is also Veterans Day and so we are hoping that all of the Veterans who have made the supreme sacrifice with their lives are also enjoying the after life we have been promised and also no longer in pain and suffering. We know that Melanie and many of your friends and family will be thinking about you and hopefully remembering those special times you all shared together. We miss you so very much and I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 10-11-2022

Kerry well today is fifty months since you passed away. This past month so much has happened with Jose struggling with the pain and suffering from his motorcycle accident. He has a long road ahead to try and get back to normal. Melanie is struggling trying to help Jose and dealing with the illness that her Father is going through that will probably result in his passing. Your Mom is still struggling with the pain from her knee replacement surgery and most of the days she has a lot of pain. Robin and Joe and the family have now moved to Philadelphia where Robin is starting her new job at the airport checking on passengers coming from other countries and entering our country making sure that they have the correct documents. Suzzy is also beginning her new job in Washington DC. We know that still many of your friends remember you and at times reminisce on good times passed. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF 

Kerry 9-25-2022

Kerry well today is your birthday and you would have been y celebrating your forty fifth birthday and it has been more than four years since you passed away and we were left only with the memories of all the good times that we were able to share together. Since your last birthday so much has happened this past year with so many people that we know have had to suffer with the Corona Virus and many other illnesses and like your Mom is still struggling with daily pain from her total knee replacement surgery. Mel is also having quite a bit of pain in her knee and Jose is trying to recover from his motorcycle accident. He was in the hospital and a rehab facility and now is recovering here with us. We know that many of your friends will be also thinking about on this day and reminiscing on the good times you all spent together. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 9-11-2022

Kerry well today is the forty ninth month since you passed away. It is also a day that we all remember very well because on this day in the year 2001 our country was attacked and we lost over 3000 people when the Twin Towers, Pentagon and the plane crashing in Pennsylvania. This past month has been very hard for your Mom with so much pain from her knee replacement surgery and falling and hurting her face and leg. The doctor says that her pain is from the surgery and she is trying her best to cope with it. Also Jose was involved in a very serious motorcycle accident and is still in the hospital and had under gone several surgeries and will have to go to a rehab facility afterwards for therapy. Melanie is trying her best to deal with this situation as well as her Father is terminally ill. We know that many of your friends will be remembering you on this day and we hope that they are all in good health. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today is the fourth Anniversary since you passed away and our lives have not been the same since your passing. So much has happened this passed year with the Corona Virus still affecting the lives of people around the world. We have also had to deal with the passing of Kira in November on Jay’s Birthday and that was very sad for us because she was the last of our Yorkies. She had been with us about 15 years and we hope that she is with Maya, Zoey and you all together looking out for all of our family and friends. In February of this year we were finally able to get Kimi our new Yorkie who was born in November of last year and Melanie picked her up in Dallas and brought her to us. She has been a lot of fun to have and brought happiness to your Mom. Also two of your Mom’s friends from high school have also passed away recently and saddened her. Robin and Suzanne will have new assignments outside El Paso and they probably won’t come back here to live. The economy is not too good and inflation is raising. Your Aunt Sylvia had a major abdominal surgery and your Aunt Betty had knee surgery. Your Mom had total knee replacement surgery and has been in excruciating pain daily and said that this has caused her more pain than her double bypass surgery. We know that Melanie and many of your friends will also be thinking of you today and hope that they are remembering all of your good times. We will continue to miss you daily and please take care of us in any you can. I love you so very much my Beautiful Darling Daughter. PBNF 

Kerry well it has now been forty seven months since you were called by our Lord to go home. Although you are no longer here physically with us we have to accept the fact that you are in a better place no longer in pain and suffering and enjoying the promises that we were promised. So much has happened this past month with your Aunt Sylvia still trying to recover from her surgery and having to deal with all of the side effects that she will have to deal with until at least November of this year. Your Mom had her total knee replacement surgery and is quite a bit of pain since she had it two weeks ago. She is going through physical therapy and that also increases her pain. The economy has had some affect on us all especially with the increase in gasoline. Robin and Joe will be moving to Philadelphia and Suzanne will be going to Virginia. That means that your Uncle Mundy and Aunt Betty will no longer have any of their children here. We know that Melanie and all of your family and friends will be thinking about you on this particular day and trying to remember all of your good times spent together. We will never be able to get over the fact of you passing and will continue to remember and miss you so much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today marks forty six months since you passed away. We continue to miss you each and every day and you are always on our minds. In the past month we have had to deal with the very serious operation that my sister your Aunt Sylvia had to go through which was over six and half hours long. She was in the hospital a week after her surgery and is now at a rehab center. She has a very long and hard road ahead. Also the mapping was done on your Mom’s left knee for total replacement and the surgery will probably be at the end of this month. We know that Melanie as well as your friends will be again thinking about you today. We can only hope that they are remembering all of the good times you all enjoyed together and how much fun you had. All we can think of what might have been of you were still with us. Kimi is adjusting to being a new member of the family and your Mom really loves her. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today marks the forty fifth month since you passed away. Every time this day of the month happens we are reminded of how devastated we were back on that day when we found out that you were no longer with us. In the past month some much has happened with your Aunt Sylvia having had to be hospitalized with abdominal problems and she lost about twenty pounds and is still not doing that good. Also your Mom’s Sister Sylvia has had to begin Radiation for about six weeks. Both your Mom and I going to have to have total knee replacement surgery. Your Mom will be first and then it will be my turn. We know that Melanie and many of your friends will be thinking about you and please help any of them that you can because we all need an Angel to help us from time to time. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today is the forty fourth month since you passed away. We are still on a daily basis struggling with the fact that you are no longer here with us. In the past month we have had my sister Rose and her husband Richard both come down with COVID and they had a very hard time and are still trying to recover. Richard was in the hospital for about 18 days and developed pneumonia and was on high doses of oxygen and when he was released he was still on oxygen.  My sister Sylvia is in the hospital right now with a perforated bowel and they trying to treat her with medication so that she will not have to go through surgery. Your brother Jay will starting a new job working for the same company that Steven is working at. That should be good for them. I am sure that on this day of the month many of your family and friends will be remembering you and the fond memories you all shared together as will Melanie and us. If you can in any way look out for all of your family and friends who are struggling at present with either an illness or just having a hard time in there lives we would truly appreciate any help that you can give us  because as one of the Lord’s Angels maybe he will listen to you and help those of us who are struggling. We miss you so very much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well it has now been 43 months since you passed away and in this past month much has happened. Your Aunt Rose and Uncle Richard both got COVID and they were very sick. In fact your Uncle Richard has to go to the hospital and he got pneumonia and was on oxygen for over two weeks and barely this week they sent him home but with oxygen and he still is struggling with the virus. Also we were finally able to find a new teacup Yorkie for your Mom. We found her about an hour away from Dallas and Melanie went to pick her up. She stayed with Melanie for about five days and then she brought her to us. We named her Kimi and she is so tiny. Your Mom is finally happy again since we had to put Kira down. We know that on this day of the month many of your family and friends will be thinking of you and that was because you touched so many of their lives. We know that Melanie and both your Mom and I will be thinking about you and just miss you so very much. We love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry today is the forty second month since you passed away. We are still having to battle with the Corona Virus and Steven called me to let me know that Samantha and Kaylee both were recovering from the virus. Hopefully they will not have any lasting effects. Your Mom has been battling with the pain in her left knee. Today both of us will be having MRI’s her on both of her knees and me on both of my hips. We will get the results by the end of next week and then we have an appointment with Dr. Eleje. Your Mom has been seeing Dr. Alost and he has taken the water out once and twice given her cortisone shots but they work for a very short time. We know that Melanie, friends and members of our family will also be remembering you on this day. We have been watching the Winter Olympics and this weekend will be the Super Bowl between Cincinnati and Los Angeles. Every day both your Mom and I are thinking of you and we miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF


Kerry today is forty one months since you passed away and as we begin a new year it seems that we are still all having to deal with all of the COVID problems especially with the new COVID Variant which seems to spread very rapidly but it is believed that it is not as bad as the Delta Variant but we still all need to stay vigil and protect ourselves especially at our age. Your Mom and I just went to the Casino for a short while to celebrate the New Year and then came home to see the festivities on TV. We will continue to try and complete the shutdown of the business in Juarez and hopefully sell the property. We know that at days like today Mel and your families and friends will be remembering you and hopefully maybe you can watch over them and keep them in good health and happy. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 1-01-2022

Kerry well today is the first day of a new year - 2022 so my wish for you and all of our departed family and friends a Very Happy New Year knowing that you all are now enjoying the after life we have been promised no longer suffering and in pain. This will also marks the fourth New Year since you passed away. I wish that I could say that this past year had been great but we had to see family and friends also pass away as well as the Corona Virus is still gaining strength with new variants.  Although Vaccines are now available some people refuse to take the vaccine because of various reasons and so many who have refused it in the past when they get the virus really bad they ask if they can get the vaccine but it is too late for that and some survive with lasting effects and some unfortunately passed away. I think that your Mom, Melanie and I will continue to trust the medical scientific research that the vaccine can help you either not to get the virus but that if you do get it will not be as bad and you have a very good chance to survive. I think that this disease will be be a part of our lives for many more years to come. We hope that maybe we can take a trip some where. Your Mom was also very saddened because in November we had no choice but to put Kira down because she was suffering so much and we sure do miss all three of them but we don’t know yet if we will get another dog because of our age and health. We miss you so very much each and every day and we know that many of your family and friends do as well because you were such a very special caring person. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today is another Christmas that we are having to celebrate since your passing. Yesterday we had a Christmas Eve party and we had about twenty family members here to celebrate Christmas Eve with us. We had a lot of good food that your Mom and Melanie prepared and it was very good and everyone truly enjoyed it. Although we are still trying to accept the fact that you are no longer here and suppose to celebrate it is still very hard for me. We know that many of your friends and family will be also be thinking about you today and remember the good times you all had. We hope that you can now continue to watch out for all of us. We miss you so very much and I love you my Beautiful Darling Daughter. PBNF

Kerry today is forty months since you passed away and for us all especially at this time of the year it is extremely difficult to realize and that you are gone and we will not have you here to celebrate Christmas with us. I am still struggling to understand why every day that this happened to us and to be honest I don’t know and guess that I can not question the will of the Good Lord and only try to accept his decisions. I only hope that when my time comes that once again we will be together again and hopefully in a better place where we are no longer in pain but truly enjoying the after life we have been promised. I know that Melanie as well as your family and friends will also be thinking about you today and please ask the Good Lord to give them good health, happiness, peace and tranquility. We are still having to be so careful with our health because the Corona Virus has come out with another variant that is easily transmitted very quickly. We have lost family and friends to this deadly virus and it seems like it is going to be with us for quite a bit longer. Please if you can ask the Good Lord to watch over all of us. We miss you so very much. I love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today is Thanksgiving Day and we will be going to your Aunt Betty’s and Uncle Mundy to celebrate this special day. In the past few weeks we have lost Kira the last of our Yorkies and your Mom was and is still grieving her passing. Also Joe Robin’s husband has lost his father as well as two other friends of Your Mom and Aunt Sylvia. With there passing of so many family and friends it will be rather difficult for us to truly celebrate this day but we know that they are no longer suffering and hopefully in a better place. Mel will be celebrating this day with Jose and I think some of his family will be with them. We know that so many of your friends will also hopefully be celebrating this day with their families and we know that they will be remembering you and thinking about the good times you all passed together. On days like today we miss you so very much because we remember the many Thanksgiving Days we spent together. I love you so very much my Beautiful Darling  Daughter. PBNF

I wish you were here. I miss you so much and I have so much to tell you. I'm in need of a Sushi Zushi/HEB date. I love you my sweet friend. 

Kerry today is the thirty ninth day since you passed away and also Veterans Day. On this day those who gave so much and the many who have also sacrificed their lives so that we are able to enjoy the freedoms that our country provides us with are honored and remembered. I know how hard you worked all of your life in the field of medicine trying to make a change and I remember how often you would struggle on a daily basis with the pains of Fibromyalgia but in spite of your illness you would work so many daily and even late in the evening because you were conscious that you needed to do what was in your power to try and help those afflicted with the diseases that were doing your medical research on would be benefited some time in the future. Your Mom, Melanie and I were so proud of you and we miss you so very much. We know that many of your family and friends will also be thinking about you on this day because you impacted so lives with your acts of kindness and respect. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry today is the thirty eighth month since we lost you and it seems like only yesterday. A few days ago your Birthday passed us by and again we are reminded of another time in our lives when we would celebrate this special day with you and we are saddened because we know that those times are in the past but will never be forgotten. I really don’t know if you knew how much I really loved you and I keep thinking about did I do all that I could as a Father for you and I can only hope that when we see each other again you will be well and happy to see me because I miss you so very much and I know that your Mom, Melanie, your family and friends all feel the same way. You were truly a very caring and wonderful person whose life ended much too soon and although you ever wanted was to do everything in your life to help others and that was why you were so dedicated to the medical field. We’re so proud of you and although maybe in your mind you were not able to do all that you wanted to do but in God’s eyes you accomplished what you were meant to do and then he needed you to help him in a better place than this. Each day we all miss you so very much and will never forget you. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBN

Kerry well today is your birthday and we will not be able to celebrate this with you like we would like too but please know that your Mom, Melanie, your Family, Friends and I will be thinking about you today and reminisce on all of the the good memories we shared together. Although you are no longer here physically we believe that you are with us in spirit and looking out for all of us in trying to help us when we all have a need for an Angel to be at our side and guide us through the difficult and happy times that life presents us with. Also in this past year we are still struggling with the Corona Virus and many of our family and friends have suffered from this disease. Some of them have not suffered very much but many have suffered quite a bit and some have succumbed to it. We ask that if you can please help any of us that are inflected with this illness in any way that you can. We will always remember you for all that you truly tried to do in the field of medicine. We miss you so very much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today is the thirty seventh month since you passed away. It also is Saturday the day of the week which we were notified of your passing and for me every week when this day comes I still am very much affected because what used to be a day of the week we would look forward to has now become a day in which I no longer truly enjoy like before but try to reflect on all of the good times we were able to spend together that will never be possible today. Today also marks the 20th year anniversary of terrorist attack on our country and bombing of the World Trade Center. It was such a sad and tragic event. Melanie and I have both celebrated another Birthday and she was able to be here so that we could pass our Birthdays together. That was good but for me and I know her we both missed you not being here or able to hear from you. Your Mom and Aunt Yvonne made Melanie her both of her cheesecakes and they were very good. I know that many of your friends will be thinking about you today because although you are no longer here they still about you and know that their Angel is looking looking out for them. Yesterday your Mom went through a Angiogram of the arteries of her legs and thank God she has no blockage. We miss you so very much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry today marks the third year since you passed away and our hearts were broken. I still have a very hard time believing that I will never be able to hold you or see you again. So much has happened this past year with the world hit so very hard with the Corona Virus and so many lives lost and so many have suffered and recovered and then we get a vaccine and we think that soon we will be able to put this behind when a new variant comes. It is really hitting so many of younger people who have not taken the vaccine because they either are afraid or feel that they do not need it. Your Mom and I made the decision to take the vaccine as soon as possible because at our age we felt that we would not survive if we got the virus. We also have a new President and for the first time a female African American Vice President which is good for women and minorities. We know that Melanie and all of your friends will be thinking about you today and hopefully reminisce of all the good times you all shared together. The annual anniversary of your passing is extremely difficult for both your Mom and me and no matter how hard we try to move on we are still grieving your passing. We miss you so very much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today is the thirty fifth month since you passed away and all we were left were the memories that we had when you were alive and with us. Since your passing your Mom and I continue to be heart broken and we think about you every single day. We know that our grief will never go away and all we can do is to try and in someway handle what we going through since your passing. So very much has happened since last month with your Mom celebrating another birthday, another Fathers Day and another Fourth of July without you which for both of us have been sad events. More and more businesses are beginning to open up and reducing their requirements of masking and social distancing. There is also still so many people who do not want to be vaccinated and at the same time a new variant of the virus that is impacting the younger adults. We know that on this day Melanie and many of your friends will be thinking about you and reminisce on the good times you all passed together. We know that you will always be remembered by everyone for the happiness and enjoyment you brought them. We miss you so very much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry today is the thirty fourth month since you passed away and your Mom and I were left totally devastated. Since last month we have gone through another Memorial Day in which we really had not too much to celebrate about because it is just another holiday in which we were not able to call you and see how you were going spend this day. We know that you probably would have spent it with your friends either at one of their homes or off on a trip somewhere but we know that those days are over and all we have are the memories of the holidays that we were able to spend together. In three days your Mom will celebrate another Birthday and she said that she is really not looking forward to it. I can understand why because as we get older it seems that time is just passing us by and each day we just hope that we can have a day that we are not in too much pain and discomfort. We know that on this day of the month Melanie and many of your friends will remember you and reminisce on all of the good memories you all shared together and hopefully they are all doing well taking care of themselves especially with what we have had to live through this past year. We love you my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF


Kerry well today it has been thirty three months since you passed away. Two days ago we celebrated another Mother’s Day without you and these days are quite difficult for especially your Mom because she remembers how you would come home to be with her on Mother’s Day and how she really looked forward to your visits. Melanie was here and that was good for your Mom for her to be here and spend a few days with us. We went to the Centennial Center at Ft. Bliss for lunch and they have a very good buffet. It was very good and after that everyone came over. Your Mom bought some food from Olive Garden for us all to eat later. It all turned out very nice and everyone seemed to enjoy themselves. Also on a separate note your Uncle Victor and Aunt Sylvia will be moving back to El Paso and have even put their house up for sale. We continue to miss you and you will never be forgotten. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry thirty two months ago we were given the very sad news that you had passed away and from that time to now our lives have never been the same. Your passing has been one of the hardest things that I’ve have ever had to deal with and on a daily basis I continue to try and accept the fact that you are no longer here for me to not only talk to and hold you but just to be able to share the experiences of life that we are going through. Your Mom, Melanie and I know that many of your friends still wish that we had you here physically instead of an Angel that is looking out for us and  hopefully continues to take care of all of us. Since last month Mel has received her first vaccine and is scheduled to have her second dose shortly as well as Jose who has also just received his first dose. Mel will be coming home again for Mother’s Day and that will good. She will be here for about 4 days. We continue to miss you so very much and I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF


Kerry well today marks 31 months ago since we lost you and although it just seems like yesterday your loss is still a mystery to me and one of the saddest moments that we have had to live with. Your Mom, Melanie, your friends and the lives you touched while you were here are still trying to move on as best as we can knowing and praying that someday we will all be together again.This year has already begun with events that make us realize how vulnerable we all are because we not only have to continue to worry about the Corona Virus but in addition so acts of insurrection and violence that are happening. I have a hard time trying to make sense of what drives people to act that way. All we can do is to try and be careful and vigilant and make sure that we are trying our best to stay safe. Your Mom and I have already had both of the Pfizer Vaccine shots so hopefully we are some what protected and we will continue to wear our masks. We continue to miss you daily and I love you so much very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry - 2-11-2021

Kerry well today it has been 30 months since we were notified of your passing and for us it just seems like yesterday. We continue to try and move on but it is just so very difficult and staying home and avoiding going out only as needed adds to our dilemma. We have already taken the first shot of the Covid Vaccine and by the 16th of this month we will have take the second dose. Maybe after that we can kind of plan to get away and enjoy ourselves little bit more. Since last month we now have a new President and at least when he was inaugurated we did not have any major problems. We hope that he will be able to make changes for the best of our country. The first day of this your Aunt Yvonne’s husband Edward passed away from Cancer. She was really affected by his passing and the services were held yesterday. You are always in our thoughts and prayers and we miss you so very much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today marks the 29th month since we were notified of your passing. We have started a new year and we had high hopes that this was going to be a very good year after the past year that was filled with so much pain and suffering because of the Corona Virus. Well we have already gone through an attack on our capitol and democracy when they gathered to certify the presidential election and people were injured and even lost their lives. We have to have faith that better days lay ahead and that we can put all of the chaos behind us. We know that not only us but Melanie and many of your family and friends will be thinking about you on this day and we hope that you are truly enjoying the after life we have been promised. We miss you so very much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today is the first day of January 2021 and we are reminded of heartaches, tragedies as well as the good times that we have experienced not only in the past year but throughout our lives. We look forward to a year that will be filled with hope, peace, happiness, tranquility, Covid Free and good health. We pray that at the end of this year we will be able to say that it truly was a very good year. We know that Melanie as well as of your family and friends will continue to not only miss you and remember you with fond memories as much as we do and that you are now looking out for all of us. We love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry we hope that you are enjoying a very Merry Christmas with the rest of our family and friends who have passed in heaven with the Good Lord and that all of you are no longer in pain and suffering. On Christmas Day we should be giving thanks for our blessings and so today I will give thanks that our family has been blessed this year and so many previous years with good health and peace and pray that in the years to come we will continue to be blessed in the same way. I also have to give thanks for him blessing us with you for 40 years and although to us that was not enough we have to accept the will of our Lord. This year because of the virus your Mom and I will be spending this day alone because Mel will not be here because of the virus but we look forward to next year and being with each other again. We know that not only us will be thinking of you but I know so many of your friends and family will be thinking of you because you touched so many hearts and we all miss you. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry well today is Saturday and on this day of week marks the 28th month since we were notified of your passing. During this time of the year is when we are truly more affected because it is a time when families are supposed to get together and celebrate but in our case with your passing and the Corona Virus pandemic it will be even more difficult. Melanie and Jose will also not be coming because of the Virus and we can not blame them. We know that on these days Mel and so many of your family and friends also as well mourn your passing but are remembering you. All of us can only hope that you are no longer in pain but finally really enjoying the after life we have been promised. We miss you so very much each and every day. I love you my beautiful darling daughter.


Kerry - 11-26-20

Kerry well today is Thanksgiving Day and it is the third year since your passing and we are supposed to be able to celebrate this special day of the year and give thanks for all that we have been blessed with. We will be reflecting on all of the past Thanksgiving Days that we passed together and the fond memories of those days gone by. Your Aunt Betty and Uncle Mundy will be joining us for dinner. We know that also Melanie , other members of our family, and your friends will also be remembering you today. Our only consolation is that we know that you are no longer in pain and you are now celebrating this day with all of the rest of our family and friends who have passed. We miss you so very much and I love you my beautiful darling daughter.  PBNF

Kerry well today marks the 26th month since you passed away. We just learned that Dolores Atencio also passed away in October 2018 and that was a shock for your Mom and me. She passed away from Cancer and had been battling it for over 16 months. We continue to struggle with your passing and I know also still so many of your family and friends do too. You impacted so many lives because you were such a kind and caring person who all you really wanted was the chance to make a change in the field of medicine so that hopefully your endeavors would help someone have a better life.  A life that maybe was not filled with so much pain and suffering. We know how hard you worked to accomplish this and it impacted your life and health because of many long hours you devoted to your cause. Your Mom, Melanie and I miss you so very much as I know that many of your friends do. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry - 10-11-2020

Kerry well today is the  twenty sixth month since we were notified of your passing. I am still having a very difficult time accepting the fact that you are no longer here and sometimes I think that if I close my eyes this will all be nothing but a very bad dream and you will be here with us and then reality sets in and I know that you are no longer here with us and no matter how much I wish that were not true it is. I want you to know that you will never be forgotten and that you will always be in my thoughts and prayers. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter and we miss you terribly. PBNF

Kerry your Mom, Mel and I hope that you are truly doing okay today on this special day when you would have been 43 years old and instead of celebrating this special day with you all we can do is hope and pray that you are with God and the Good Lord in heaven no longer in pain enjoying the after life we have been promised. We will be spending our time reminiscing all of the Good Times that we all had together. So much has happened this past year with the passing of your Uncle Sammy, Tillie, Maya and Zoey and we hope that all of you are together with the rest of our family and friends that are no longer with us. I wish that we could turn back the clock hoping and be able to do whatever was in our power to stop your passing but we know that will never be possible and all we can do is to try and accept the will of God no matter how hard it is for us. We know that many of your friends will also be thinking of you and that is really a tribute to what a good friend you were and it gives so much peace of mind and pleasure to know that we were not the only ones who cared about you. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.


Kerry well today marks two years since your passing and so much has happened this past year. I remember a year ago we were in San Antonio with so many of your friends having a Celebration of Life Service in your honor.  It was truly remarkable to your Mom and me on how many beautiful friends you truly did have that cared so much about you to be able to take the time to be with us and we are truly thankful to them for spending this time with us. This year will be difficult and different for us because of the virus we will be passing this day alone remembering you but I know that many of your friends that were with us last year will also take a moment from there day to remember you. This year was marked by the passing of your Uncle Sammy and Tillie as well as Maya and Zoey which was especially hard for both your Mom and me because it was so unexpected just like your passing was. Also this year has been so tragically marred by the Corona Virus that not only infected so many millions of people but also the hundreds of thousands that have lost their lives and the sad part is that we really don’t know how much longer it will last or when a vaccine will be found.
We all know that loss is a part of life, but that doesn’t make it any easier. The death of our loved ones often takes its toll on us left behind, and at times it can feel like grief is never ending. 
Kerry we just miss you so very much and your passing has caused us such heartaches. I really don’t know how and when we will be able to move passed the tragedy of your passing because every day that passes we are reminded of you. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today marks two years since your passing and so much has happened this past year. I remember a year ago we were in San Antonio with so many of your friends having a Celebration of Life Service in your honor.  It was truly remarkable to your Mom and me on how many beautiful friends you truly did have that cared so much about you to be able to take the time to be with us and we are truly thankful to them for spending this time with us. This year will be difficult and different for us because of the virus we will be passing this day alone remembering you but I know that many of your friends that were with us last year will also take a moment from there day to remember you. This year was marked by the passing of your Uncle Sammy and Tillie as well as Maya and Zoey which was especially hard for both your Mom and me because it was so unexpected just like your passing was. Also this year has been so tragically marred by the Corona Virus that not only infected so many millions of people but also the hundreds of thousands that have lost their lives and the sad part is that we really don’t know how much longer it will last or when a vaccine will be found.
We all know that loss is a part of life, but that doesn’t make it any easier. The death of our loved ones often takes its toll on us left behind, and at times it can feel like grief is never ending. Kerry we just miss you so very much and your passing has caused us such heartaches. I really don’t know how and when we will be able to move passed the tragedy of your passing because every day that passes we are reminded of you. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF


Kerry well today is Saturday and it has been twenty three months since you passed away. I wish that I could say that this second year since you passed has been a year filled with joy and happiness. This year your Uncle Sammy, Tillie, Maya and recently our little Zoey all passed away. Your Mom has passed many days with pain from Fibromyalgia and sadness because she tells me that she thinks about you all the time. Also, to make things worse we are having to deal the Corona Virus so we have to stay home as much as possible and only go out for necessities. At our age we probably would not survive the virus if we caught it. I miss you and everyone who is no longer with us and pray that you all are now in heaven with the Good Lord enjoying the after life we were promised no longer in pain and suffering. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry well this morning we experienced another heart felt tragedy.  Our beloved Zoey passed away so very unexpectedly because yesterday she was doing okay. About 4:00 to 4:30 in the morning your Mom woke up and said that she heard a loud knock on our bedroom door. She went to check the house and when she came back Zoey gave a loud cry as though she was in pain. I picked her up and then she seemed okay so I laid her down but then gave another loud cry so I picked her up and gave her to your Mom and she was trying everything possible to help Zoey but when she was not successful we took her immediately to the emergency. When we got there after they had a chance to examine her they told us that she had passed away. We stayed with her quite a while and then left and she will be cremated. We are both totally devastated as well as Kira. She is now with you and Maya and please take care of her and us if you can. We miss you so very much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry today is the 22nd month since you passed away. Since your passing so much has happened in our lives. We are at present having to deal with a world pandemic of Corona Virus which has no vaccine and can in so many cases become fatal. We have lost over 100,000 lives in our country in just a few months and with no end in sight. We have also recently had to endure with so much social injustice and racism which has affected so many of our cities and so many protests and riots have ignited. In just a few days we will be celebrating your Mom’s birthday and this should be a time for celebration but with you gone days of celebration for us seem to be a thing of the past. It is times like this that we sure wish you were still with but although you are no longer here you will never be forgotten. We miss you so very much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry well yesterday was Mother’s Day and we had your Aunts Sylvia and Betty and Uncle Mundy here and on Zoom Melanie, Suzzy, Robin and Shelby. It turned out very nice even though we are going through the Corona Virus. Today marks 21 months since you passed away and we have been trying all these months to find some way to accept the fact that you are no longer here with us but with the rest of our family that have also passed. We know that you are no longer in pain and having to suffer on a daily basis with your pains from Fibromyalgia and I guess that should be a consolation to us. I will continue to work on trying to accept the fact that you are no longer here and accept the will of the Good Lord and not continue to wonder why and continue to ask myself why??? I miss you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. I love you and you will never be forgotten.

Kerry well today is Saturday and it has been 20 months since we received the very sad news that you passed away and our lives were devastated. We continue on a daily basis to try and move forward and every day it is a struggle for us because you were so very special and important for us and can someone let me know how you can possibly put those feelings behind and forget. We only pray and know that you are now no longer in pain and together with all the rest of our families that have passed away and are waiting for us to join you all some time in the future. We will never forget you and I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry 
Well on Wednesday the 11th of March was the nineteenth month since we lost you. It seems that I don’t know why but it seems that on that particular day of the month Andrea is here cleaning just like she was here when Guy called to let us know of your passing and I hope that some day and I really don’t know when that will be that we are able to get over this. I just want you to know how much we miss you and are always thinking about you and we find ourselves saying well Kerry would do this or she really liked this TV show. This Tuesday marked the end of the Bachelor and we know that it was one of your favorite show and it really had a surprise ending which I guess was pretty good. We miss you so much and I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry,  I have been thinking about you so much lately.  Not that I don't think about you every day, but lately I have been getting more emotionaly about it.  Not exactly sure why, but I miss you dearly.  I think Ajla is adjusting fine here in San Diego, but I know she probably is pretty lonely during the day when I am at work.  She has always had one of us with her throughout the day.  I do come home and know she has been active cause her toys are shifted around or a drawer to the dresser is open, I still have not seen how she manages to open them, but she is keeping busy.  I pick her up a bit more than we use to and I think she is getting more accustomed to being carried around, but she still is a big fan of it.  AND yes I am still giving her wet food daily even I always said we were spoiling her.   
I so wish we were here in San Diego together cause I know how much you liked to beach and the warmer weather.  The weather is super nice and where I live is convienient to restaurants, once I park at home I dont drive anywhere, I walk everywhere since we are close to everything.  I miss you tremendously and I know Ajla does as well.  

Love you more my lil rock star........GUY 

Kerry - 2-11-20

Kerry well today is exactly eighteen months since we received the very sad news that you had passed away. I really don’t know if I will ever be able to accept that fact because to me it feels like it was just yesterday. I ask myself why so many times a day but the answer never comes and maybe it never will but I want you to know how much we truly miss you and love you and that for us you will never be forgotten and to please know how proud we are of all that you accomplished. I love you my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry - 1-11-20

Kerry well today is exactly one year and five months since you passed away. How ironic it is that it is also Saturday and that Andrea is here cleaning just like on August 11, 2018 when Guy called us and gave us the news of your passing and totally devastated our lives forever. As each day that goes by we really try and move forward but I can honestly say that I am still having a very difficult time doing this and I know that your Mom is even having a harder time. I don’t know how long it will take but you have to know how much we really miss you and maybe some time you will be able to let me know that you are truly doing okay. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. PBNF

Kerry well today is Sunday and although we just got back from celebrating the New Year in Las Vegas we had a fairly good time. The fireworks display at midnight was beautiful and in watching it in all of its glory I was thinking about all of the many times that you were with us celebrating these special moments. I know that you probably there with us in spirit but we really do miss you so much and I hope that you are truly doing okay. We hope that this year will be better for us and the family but I am hesitant to think because there are so many of that are having medical problems and our age does not help us. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter and know that you are our guardian angel watching over us.

Kerry - 12-12-19

Kerry well today we are supposed to celebrate the Virgin of Guadalupe but although this is a day for celebration I can honestly say that since your passing we really have not had much to celebrate. This has been a difficult year for us with me having to have two operations, Michael passing, Melanie having a back and neck surgery and I really do not expect your Uncle Sammy to make it through the holidays. Your Mom and I are still really struggling with your passing and accepting that fact. We just miss you so much and maybe some day you will be able to let us know that you are truly doing okay. I love you so very very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry,
You were on my mind today so I did what others may have--I looked for pictures and memories of you.  It is a blessing to have sooooo many childhood memories, and to have shared some really good times with you.  Eastwood Middle! My heart breaks for your family and for all the people who love you.  You are a big bright start guiding us!  Love you Kerry,
Darlene Carbajal

Kerry, this week has been especially rough.  I think about you everyday but definitely more recently so much more.  I know it has to do with our birthdays.  We always had fun celebrating them together.  You are still my heart and the love of my life.  You made me stronger and we were definitely better as together as one.  My family is doing well and Ajla is for sure spoiled.  I am still giving her lots of treats as you did and of course as much wet food as she can eat.  I know she still misses you greatly.   On your actual bday, I went to the movies with Osana cause she is currently take some time off.  She donated a kidney on behalf of her mother.  They both are healing and re-cooperating well.  In the evening we had a bday dinner at Luce, the Italian restaurant that you liked.  Mitch, Kirsch, Tex, Osana, Mando and Glenn attended.  This is the second year we have done this to celebrate your bday.  We all miss you and so many of your friends still reach out to me and it helps a lot with the pain.  I know Moni and a few of your other friends had a bday dinner for you as well, and they of course got olive garden as usual. 
I love you so much, and will always live a better life  because of you, I am still trying to be strong for you and want to keep making you proud of me.  
I love you more, my lil rockstar.
Your love,
Guy

Kerry my sweet friend, nine years ago today we were celebrating you when I met the person who would bring me so much happiness. I owe you so much. You always brought joy and kindness in my life. I love you and miss you so much! I'm so blessed to have had you in my life. You were much more than a friend, you became my family. Cheers to you, my sweet Kerry 

So I can' t tell you how much you are on my mind today 😢 I just hope that you are having one of the best birthdays amongst all the angels. Kerry Couder not a day goes by that I dont think of you. I often go through pictures and still cant believe that this isnt a dream. I love and miss you so much. You know every year I'd always try to be the first one to call and wish you a happy birthday cause you never failed to always be the first call on mine every year, without fail. I miss your voice Kerry, i miss holidays with you, i miss your laugh and your smile. I can still hear you say "Hi Auntie Bobin" everytime I saw you. I saw you not too long ago in a dream and you were just as beautiful as ever. Happy birthday Kerry!!! Enjoy your Bon-jouri's in heaven with Uncle Charlie, grandma and the rest of our angels that are with you. I love you always.

Kerry today is your second birthday that we are having to go through since you passed away. These are the most difficult times in our life because we are both still struggling to accept that you are no longer with us.We know that we have to accept the will of God and not question as to why he had to take you from us and maybe it was because you were in so much pain that you were not able to truly get relief from your doctors that his only alternative was to bring you back home and take care of you. We will always continue to miss you on a daily basis and await for the day that we will be united again. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry today is your second birthday that we are having to go through since you passed away. These are the most difficult times in our life because we are both still struggling to accept that you are no longer with us.We know that we have to accept the will of God and not question as to why he had to take you from us and maybe it was because you were in so much pain that you were not able to truly get relief from your doctors that his only alternative was to bring you back home and take of you. We will always continue to miss you on a daily basis and await for the day that we will be united again. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry well this is the second year that I will be having a birthday without you being here. We would probably think that Birthday’s are times for celebration but when you passed away I really don’t have much to be celebrating about. I just miss you so much. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter. Gone But Never Forgotten 

Kerry it has been a year since you passed away and I have tried to use the site provided by the funeral home as a journal to let you know that you are truly loved and missed. I will continue my journal in a different way most probably manually since when we were in San Antonio I purchased a journal. I will from time to time visit your site, but hopefully some of your friends will also in the future stop by and leave you a message. Maybe it will be when they are remembering a time in their lives when you were together and just wanted to reminisce the good times you all spent together. Your Mom and I miss you so much. If you are reading this post please save the following web site and when you have a chance and want to leave her message it will take you right to her.  Thanking anyone who still wants to remember Kerry for your posts.

https://www.dignitymemorial.com/obituaries/el-paso-tx/kerry-couder-7961389

Kerry it has been a year since you passed away and I have tried to use the site provided by the funeral home as a journal to let you know that you are truly loved and missed. I will continue my journal in a different way most probably manually since when we were in San Antonio I purchased a journal. I will from time to time visit your site, but hopefully some of your friends will also in the future stop by and leave you a message. Maybe it will be when they are remembering a time in their lives when you were together and just wanted to reminisce the good times you all spent together. Your Mom and I miss you so much. If you are reading this post please save the following web address and when you have a chance and want to leave her message it will you right to her.  Thanking anyone who still wants to remember Kerry for your posts.

https://www.dignitymemorial.com/obituaries/el-paso-tx/kerry-couder-7961389

Kerry well today we will be going back home. We were able to get done everything that we set out to do on our trip. Kerry you have to know how much you were truly loved and missed. We only have the good memories that we shared together when you were still with us to cling too.  Nothing will ever stop us from thinking about you on a daily basis. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry today is the 11th day of August and it is exactly one year ago today that you passed away. This year has been extremely difficult for not only your Mom and me but also for all of your family and friends who cared so much for you. We only hope that the Good Lord will give us the strength and courage to go on without you. We know that he had his reasons for taking you from us and all we can do is accept his decision and hope and pray that you are in a better place. All that I know is that as long as I am alive you will not be forgotten. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry 8-10-2019

Kerry well today we attended your Celebration of Life Service. Many of your friends were there from San Antonio and from out of town. It was beautiful service and everyone who attended said that it was really nice. We will probably go to lunch with Monica and some of friends tomorrow. We continue to miss you so much and I hope that you are truly doing good. I hope that you you were able to see and enjoy the beautiful service that was held today and see how much you were truly loved and missed. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.


Kerry as you probably already know that we were not able to fly out last night to San Antonio because Southwest kept changing our departure time and on the last change I called Southwest and told them that because of the lake arrival in the early morning the car rental place would be closed. They then booked us on the first flight leaving this morning so we should be in San Antonio about 9:00 in the morning. We have some last minute things to do with Celene in regard to your Celebration of Life Ceremony tomorrow so we will take care of that first and then go on to San Marcos to attend Shelby’s graduation. We will be really thinking a lot about you this weekend and how much we miss you. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry well today we are leaving today for San Antonio to attend Shelby’s graduation on Friday and then on Saturday a celebration of life for you that we will have mass for and many of your friends will be attending. That will be a very hard day for for both your Mom and me because we will be having many memories of you that will be shared by your friends. Sunday will mark the first year of your passing and it seems like it was only yesterday. We continue to miss you so much and I hope that you are truly okay. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry 8-7-2019

Kerry well today we had to go to Juarez. We are leaving early because we are afraid that they might close the bridge because President Trump is coming to El Paso in regard to the massacre that happened this past weekend. Hopefully there will be no problems because many residents don’t want him to visit our city because they feel that he is partially the reason for the massacre because of what he has said in the past about Mexicans. We continue to miss you so much and I hope that you are doing okay. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry well today we are just staying home and finish preparing for our trip to San Antonio because tomorrow we have to go to Juarez. El Paso is still trying to recover from the deadly massacre that happened this weekend and tomorrow President Trump will be here. There are a lot of people who think that he should not be welcomed because they believe that his rhetoric about Hispanics is what might have fueled the massacre. We will wait and see what happens. It should be interesting. We are continue to think about you on a daily basis and miss you so much. I still await for some time in the future that you will be able to let me know that you are truly okay. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry well today is Monday and we begin preparing for our trip this coming weekend to San Antonio and San Marcos. We will be going to Shelby’s graduation on Friday evening and on Saturday we will be having a Celebration of Life Service in memory of the first year of your passing. It is hard for us to believe and accept that it will be a year on August 11th since you passed away. It seems to us like it was only yesterday and every day we talk about you and how sad we both are that you are no longer here. When will the pain and grief go away I really don’t know. To date I can truly tell you that it has not gotten any easier. I also have an appointment with my kidney doctor this afternoon and will see how that goes. Please know that we miss you so much and that I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry well today is Sunday the day after the worst mass shootings in the United States this year and the sad part is that it happened in El Paso at a Walmart and was directed at the Mexican population and it was a hate crime. Also this morning there was another mass shooting in Dayton, Ohio. We are truly sorry for all of those families that have lost a loved during these massacres and senseless killings. We can only emphasize what it is lose someone who you truly love and try to understand why. We will continue to accept the will of God and not question it but it still does not make it any easier to accept. We continue to miss you so very much and hope that some day you will be able to let me know that you are doing okay. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

Kerry well today we were going to go shopping at the mall for your Mom and I know that you are truly taking care of us because we had not left the house because your Mom is resting and we were just notified that there is an active shooter at the mall. The police and other law enforcement agencies are looking for the shooter because they are also looking for the shooter at the mall and Walmart. We will stay home and go another day that hopefully is safe. We continue to miss you so much and I hope that you are doing okay and maybe sometime in the future you can let me know that you are okay. I love you so very much my beautiful darling daughter.

OBITUARY

Kerry Dawn Couder

September 25, 1977 – August 11, 2018

Martin Funeral Home East

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