I was watching Forest Gump last night and though of you. You always used to answer some of my questions with "cuz you're my girl" and I couldn't help but cry when he said that in the movie, you sounded just like him. You still to this day know how to make me laugh. I'm still your girl and I will always be your girl. I love you Bill, and miss you more than anything in this world.

Happy Birthday love! I miss you more than words can express. I know you are with me and pushing me in the right direction. I wish you were here so I could give you a hug and kiss you and tell you how much I love you and I miss you. You are forever in my heart and soul, I love you, always and forever.

I can't even begin to wrap my head around the fact that it's almost been a year. I never thought that in my lifetime that I would ever feel so much pain. I have mastered the art of silent breakdowns. In bathrooms, fitting rooms, the car and mainly at night when everyone is asleep but me. No one can even come close to imagining how much I miss you. How much I need you. Or how I'd give everything and everyone up just to have you back. I can still see your face, hear your voice and feel those rough hands. The smell of the barn or your pillow are still so strong to me.  I miss the most riding on your bike with you. My arms around your waist and you taking one hand off to hold mine. Or the best time when you grabbed both of my hands and made me steer the bike down Dixie highway. Those are some of my favorites. You gave me the BEST three and a half years of my life. I felt no pain, or sadness with you. Just pure joy and happiness and utter peace. Life was good...great! Even amazing with you. Nothing mattered, things and time didn't matter. It was just me and you. The simplest life where all that mattered was that we were together and even better if we got to go to sleep at night in each other's arms. I hated having to leave you when we fell asleep, but I always kissed you goodbye. But I never thought that one day I would have to say goodbye for good. That there would never be a "our" future or life. The life we planned and the life we so often dreamed and talked about. You and I knew exactly what we wanted. Kids. Dogs. Cars. Land. Love. And life. As long as you got the right side of the bed, the garage and grill. That's all you wanted. And of course all the classic cars and bikes you could get your hands on. I've said it a million times and I'll continue to say it. You were you around me. You were genuine and your true self when it was just me and you. I've never loved someone so much and so passionately. I'll never be the same without you. My heart will forever ache. But my memories of you will live on as long as I do. I don't know what my future holds for me but I will cling to my memories of you forever and keep moving forward like you would tell me to. Oh the things you're probably telling me now...

 I love you. Right from the start I knew I did and knew that I always would. Always.

I was running though my emails today and discovered a ton of photos of you and me. I cant even begin to explain the feeling I had I my chest and stomach. There is a few photos of me and you looking at each other, and I can remember what it felt like to be so completely happy and in love. I miss you more than anything, id give up everything to have you back. I cant believe its almost been a year...im still waiting to wake up, or get that phone call or txt, or hear your bike pull in my drive way. Every time I herd you pull in id jump up and just run out the door to see you. Im so heart broken, there's no other way to explain it but heart broken, like it was just ripped from my chest. 

I love you so much, I miss you, and I need you.

I couldn't help but smile when I was talking about riding motorcycles the other day and I remember clear as day the last day of my safety course I took. I was just finishing up and I looked over and there you were leaning up against your bike with your arms crossed and a smile on your face that just shouted how happy and proud you were of me. You were so happy that I passed (you knew I would) and we went to Rocky's right after to buy stuff. Then the day that we went riding all over, Ill never forget we were on Dixie Highway right before White Lake rd and I looked over at you riding next to me and you pulled your camera out of your tank bag and were taking pictures of me. I was laughing and freaking out at the same time. That old bike of mine is a reminder of what really brought us together. When we first met I would make excuses to come over and just watch you work on it, I always told you I would help, but you knew why I was really there. I could have honestly cared less about the bike then, I just wanted to see you and be near you. I still have that feeling in my chest when I see photos of you and think about you, that feeling of complete love. Its crazy to feel that but also feel so empty at the same time. I swear that when I want to fall and quit you pick me up and keep pushing me forward. I know you are here with me, I still see you in my dreams and ill tell you what...I've never seen you so happy. I've never missed anything or anyone so much in my entire life, if I could bring you back I would and I would keep you all to myself and never let you go, like a prisoner (our inside joke lol)  I love you Bill, I know you know and I'm sure that everyone else could see it. 

As always I cant wait to close my eyes and see you tonight.

Bill, i don't even know where to begin. I think about you every single day. The only thing that brings me peace is seeing your smiling face in my dreams. I've never seen a light or a smile so bright when i dream of you. I miss hugging you and waking up before you and how grumpy your face looked, but you never cared. You just squinted and shoved your face in my neck to go back to sleep. I loved that it was never about big things with you, it was the little things that mattered. Making dinner, sleeping in, watching movies and just being with each other. I cant even begin to express how much i miss you. I'd give anything to have you back. 

I love you, always have....always will.

Today would be the mark of 4 amazing years with you. I wish you were here so I could run out of work over to your house so we could make the best dinner just for me and you. Steaks and whatever else we felt like having. You made the BEST steak I have ever had in my entire life. You were an amazing cook, comedian, worker, person, best friend and love of my life. You were everything that I ever wanted and needed. I would give anything to be with you again, to hug you and kiss you again. I still remember the feeling of when I was at work every day and all I wanted to do was leave there so I could rush over to your house and just see your face. To try and sneak up on you in the barn, but you would always pop up from the front of the car and make that silly face. That face that was always covered in grease and oil, I didn't care how dirty or smelly you were from working, I just wanted to hug you and kiss you. Nothing mattered when I was with you, not time, not money, no one else mattered because I was with you. Now it seems like nothing matters because I'm not with you. I hate having to talk to you in my head, to close my eyes to see you. I wish I would just wake up, roll over and see you lying next to me like you should be.

I wish you were here with me, but I know that you are so happy now. I love you more than anyone can even imagine and I always will. Happy Anniversary my Love.

Not a single day goes by that I don't think about you. I miss you with all my heart and soul. I see you everywhere and in almost everything. Theres always something that reminds me of you. The silly things we did and all the laughs we had (which was every time we were together). Im so thankful to have had you in my life and I hope that you're there by my side always leading me in the right direction. I love you so much, always.

I came to see you today. You would have loved a day like today. Well the fact that the sun is out. If anyone hated the cold it was you, but it never stopped you from tackling me in it. I remember we would laugh so hard and then go in the house freezing cold and our clothes all wet. I don't laugh like I used to anymore. You could make me laugh so hard. All the things that you and I have been through we always found a way to still smile and make each other laugh. I miss the look in you eyes when I would hold your face and tell you I loved you and kiss you and you always said it back, it was absolutely perfect. We may have not been perfect, but we were perfect for each other.  No other person made me as happy as you did. Please don't stop visiting me, I love you and need you more than anything.

Happy Birthday Bill! I posted something on your birthday and must have forgotten to hit submit. Anyway, I know that your birthday wasn't a day that you really liked to celebrate because it also came with a lot of pain. I hope you know how much I love you and always will keep you in my heart. You were an amazing man that had a heart of gold. I cant even begin to tell you how much I need you here. I think of you every single day and dream of you all the time. Thank you for giving me the best memories anyone could ever have of you. I hope this birthday was the best one you have ever had. You, Jeremiah, and Scott all probably partied together and had the time of your lives. I say it over and over again because no other words exist to tell you how much I love you and miss you. I wish I could wake up and see that smile and be able to hold your rough hands and rub them for you like you always begged me to. Someday, we will be together again. I love you and cant wait to dream of you at night! Happy Birthday my love.

Happy Birthday Bill. I wish I could say it to you in person and give you a hug. I think of you often. It just still feels werid that you don't come over anymore. It seemed a normal thing to have you at the house all the time. I want to thank you for giving Sam the strength to carry on everyday. I see the sadness in her eyes and I know she misses you terribly. We cry together when she talks about you.  I hope you know from us that you are truly missed. Miss you way more then a tinge. It was our joke and I will never forget it. Happy birthday bill.

Happy valentines babe. I know this wasn't a holiday we really celebrated but made it a good excuse to make some amazing food, steaks in particular. You made the absolute best steak I have ever had. The food we would make together was always good. You maned the grill and I took over the stove. Cooking isn't the same anymore, you were always so open to just throwing whatever into the concoctions we were making and it always turned out amazing!! Food was a big part of our life together. We loved to cook and loved to snack. I miss laying in bed with you and finding crumbs all over in the sheets. I'm not sure my heart will ever stop aching without you. No one can even begin to understand the pain I feel without you. We had a special kind of love that I truly believe only a few people have ever experienced. I miss you so much and dream about you all the time. Don't stop visiting me. I love you doesn't even begin to convey how much I care for you. See you tonight.

Bill, not s single day goes by that I don't think about you. I'm still waiting for that phone call and to hear your voice. I dream about you all the time and the worst part is when I wake up and have to remind myself that it was just a dream. I'd sleep forever if it meant I could see you. It's so real and vivid I swear I can feel you or smell you. If it's selfish to want to keep you here then I'll be selfish every day of my life, I'd give anything to have you back. You were all I ever needed and wanted and I still don't know how I function every day with out you. Everything reminds me of you, even the dumbest things that only you would get. I miss watching you work on cars, or our late night run to meters for junk food. I miss the baby face  and whiny sound you would make when you wanted me to rub your hands, or how I knew exactly when you would fall asleep because you would start to snore so gently. I miss all the ways you would make me laugh, you'd do anything to make me laugh, my favorite is when you would act like a velociraptor. You always bent over backwards for people, even when they didn't deserve it, and never asked for anything in return. You were too nice to people that didn't deserve your time and I remember always telling you to stand up for yourself and you always said that those kind of people don't matter and "stuff" doesn't matter. You absolutely hated fighting and yelling and always said that it's not worth it. You were always the bigger person. You taught me so much about life, myself, and how to love. You are my best friend and my greatest love. 

Don't stop coming to me at night. I can't wait to go to sleep. I love you.

Happy New Year's Eve my love. What I would give for one more kiss. I love you and think about you every day. Miss you with all my heart.

Merry Christmas Bill. I still think that I'll see you or hear my phone go off from you texting me. It's not the same without you. Just feels like any other day. I miss you and love you with all my heart.

I still can't even grasp that you are gone. This time last year we were laying on the beach all day and just having the time of our lives. I'll never forget that trip, so many things happened good and weird that we just had to sit back at the end of the day and just laugh. That's what we did best, we could make each other laugh like no other. People probably thought we were so weird but we didn't care, we did what we wanted.  I am so thankful that I got to see a side of you that no one else knew. I love you so much Bill

Bill was such an amazing person.  I have known him for about seven years, and knew my day would be brighter when I saw him.  We had some very good conversations, and even as a teen he had a depth of spirit that not everyone can express.  I am deeply saddened by his passing, but Heaven is a brighter place now with his smile!  Hugs and prayers to his family and friends .

I'm so lost without you. You've come to me in my dreams though and I love seeing your face again. I honestly don't know what to do with my life without you in it. I feel like you've just gone on one of your BMW rally trips an will be back soon, but in know better. I just keep hoping. I miss you so much and my heart aches 24/7 without you. I'd give anything to have to back.

Yesterday I saw a BMW motorcycle drive past me and today a black fiero sitting in a parking lot. I can't help but think by seeing these that you have found peace and happiness. I'll miss you forever Bill, I will carry you with me wherever I go. Like I said before and ill say again. I'm praying for you,Sam and your family with the hopes that you all can find peace and strength. Love you buddy.

Ricky and Debby, sending my prayers for you and your family.  Janice

Bill...I don't even know where to begin. You are my best friend and my greatest love. We always said it was true love and that we were meant for each other. You've touched my life in a way that words cannot describe. You were my everything. There's nothing that I loved and longed for more than just to be near you. Even when you were busy working on a car I'd freeze my butt off just to watch you. You always made me smile and laugh, you had the best smile and the best laugh, and those faces! I swear we could have a whole conversation with me talking and you just giving me all the faces that you could make. The eyebrow was my absolute favorite. I'll never forget the first time I saw you, from the moment you took off your helmet my heart dropped to the floor and that's was it, I was all yours. I'm so thankful that you accepted my heart and gave me yours in return. We were always in our own little world, dreaming of our life together and predicting our future and making bets and deals on it. We made some pretty weird bets. But we were always laughing and messing around with each other. I've never known someone to be so ticklish! I'll never forget our camping trips, ohio trip, Florida, Chicago, Indianapolis, mackinaw island, and trip to Virginia. You've given me the best memories and you showed me a side of you that I don't think anyone else got to know. People say that you were a great man who would give you the shirt off his back, I remember times where I had to stop you from giving me your shirt in public because I said I was cold.  We made each other laugh, we supported each other, challenged each other and were always there for each other no matter what. When we were apart and you would ask me what I was doing, I told you and you always said "I know, I'm watching you" or that you were outside my window watching me. And now you really are watching over me. You gave me  three and a half amazing years and showed me that there is such a thing and true love, although  saying "I love you" doesn't even begin to convey my feelings for you and you knew that. Life is so unreal without you now that I can't wait to sleep and dream of your face and be able to hold you again. You took a huge part of me when you left, but I'll see you in my dreams, feel you watching over me and I'll see you again someday. If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever. I love you and miss you more than words can express.

God bless you, Bill, and keep you in his loving embrace. ?

Bill was a student of mine at OCC, taking all the body repair and paint courses. Of course, he was a great student because he was doing what he loved, but sometimes I think the rest of the class got more out of being entertained by Bill than they got out of me! One quiet and well-timed snide remark, or one lift of that goofy eyebrow would leave us laughing so hard we'd be wiping our eyes. I'm wiping them again now. 
On behalf of all of us who knew Bill at OCC, our deepest sympathies and heartfelt prayers are with his family and friends.

Debbie and Rick: We are sorry for your loss.  Your family is in our prayers.
May God be with you.

Prayers to you and your family bill...you made me laugh so much.

Deb and Rick we are sooo sorry for your loss. We well be praying for your family.
John and Glenda Underwood

Praying and thinking of you all....may time ease your pain. Love you all! Rick, Kris & Drew Trygstad

Bill you will be very much missed in our house. I know you made Sam  so happy and I know she made you happy, I can tell by all the pictures she has of you. I just wish we could of done more for you. Sam was your angel and gave you happiness and now you are hers. I know you will be around her and help her thru this dark spot in her life. You made each other happy. Please know that you were loved by us and we have awesome memories of you to keep forever. Thank you for being a part of our lives. You will be in our thoughts and prayers. Thank you for letting us know such a special person that had so much more to give in his life

May the prayers I send your family and friends  help them with there pain, and hope that the sun will shine on you again soon. 

                                                                Todd Trout

Prayers and thoughts for you and your family. Your son, brother, and friend will be truly missed I'm sure. Lots of love, thoughts and prayers.

I met Billy at work. He was always smiling, making funny places and making us laugh. You will be missed by so many. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. Billy may you rest in peace.

My prayers go out to Bill's family and friends. May you find Peace and comfort during this difficult time.

You are all in my thoughts and prayers...! Love, Lynne

So very sorry for your family. Sending thoughts and prayers.

So very sorry for your loss.  Our hearts and prayers are with you.                                                                             Mike and Diane Herron

Sometimes things happen that just don't make sense and words fail us. I love you Angi, and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. To say I'm sorry and I mourn for your loss is only the beginning of how deeply I feel for you all.

So sorry Angi. My thoughts are with you and your entire family!

I met Bill while in college with him and are mutual friend Aaron. I don't know how many times I'd be on the way to my car and we would be talking for what seemed like 5 minutes when in reality a hour or two had passed. Later on out of school I got to know Bill better as a kind and funny guy with a deep passion for his bike and Fiero, a great friend to me when I first moved to Michigan.
I've never met  his family but my heart goes out to them.

To Bill's family, I am sooo very sorry for your loss. My Heart aches for you! Thoughts and prayers are with you all. Angi, I Love You!

Rick, Debbie, Angi and Jenny. We are so sorry!  Our thoughts and prayers will be with you.

Rick, Debbie Rubenacker and family, my thoughts and prayers are with all of you in this time of sadness. I never had the honor of meeting Bill but through family and friend I got to know him.  With all my love

My prayers go out to bill's family. I am  glad I had the chance to get to know and work with him he will be missed.

My prayers go out to Bill's family and friends. I only worked with him for a short time but he was a very nice guy. He will be missed

I met Bill in college, worked with him and most importantly he was one of my best friends. He had a huge impact on everyone he met, definately was unique and special in every way. I love you buddy, you will be missed and certainly never forgotten. My thoughts and prayers along with my families are with you and your family.

Billy you where my friend and coworker you will be so missed  by so many people , love you bro. We will meet again.

What a great guy and awesome co-worker. His smile will be missed by us all. May you all find peace in the days ahead.

I had the pleasure of working with Bill for a few months. He was hard worker and a wonderful young man. He had such a sweet soul and a smile that could brighten any room. We're really going to miss him. Your family will remain in our thoughts and prayers and hope for your peace.

OBITUARY

Bill A. Rubenacker

February 20, 1988 – November 25, 2013

Elton Black & Son Funeral Home

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