I have been on vacation since my last entry for my beautiful wife. Last week, I went to the cemetary to see her and got quite a shock. Upon arrival, I noticed that 3 flower arrangements that I had placed on her grave were missing.
The yellow rose arrangement that I placed for our wedding anniversary was missing , as well as the tropicacana arangement that  was placed there was also missing. Then I got quite a shock to find that the pot of achimmenees that I have been babying was gone. I was totally shocked and to say the least mad. I stayed with her and talked to her and spent some time with her and told her how much I loved her and how much I was sorry that someone had stolen her flowers. I also noticed that the butterflies that I placed around her monument were also gone. 
I told her that I would be back, I went to the manager to find out what was going on. 
Upon talking to the manager; I found out that it was not uncommon for someone to steal arrangements from one plot to put it on another.
He apologized for the incovience and act of some unscrupolis people. 
I left and went back to see my Nancy and told her what I hod found out.
I will be back and I will replace the flowers when I return back to see her .
I love my Nancy, my love for her will never ever die
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
Sleep well my love and I will be back to see you again
I am lost inside of you

It has been a very busy week at work and the time to visit my wife has been limited by my work schedule. I visited on Tuesday for a short visit. and today I went to go see her after my work day.
The visit to the cemetary has been very short lately; mainly because without rain, the roads have been in good condition to travel.
I arrived there shortly after 5 and I had athe entire cemetary to myself. I first raked the magnolia leaves off the site. With the lack of rain, the leaves have started dropping sooner than they usually do. After raking, I sat by her side and talked to her. i told her how much I still loved her and how much I still missed her. It has been almost 9 months since she received her angel wings and it still seems like an eternity. Her achiminees are still doing well near her monument and I make sure that I give it some water each time that I am there to quench its thirst. The blooms are still coming and the ones at home are still blooming also.
The birds were getting ready to roost for the evening and I looked up and heard the swifts dancing on the evening breeze.  I had to leave to feed our children; but I will be back on Sunday to visit her again. I will be going with some friends to a model contest in Covington, LA on Saturday. 
I love my Nancy, my love for her will never ever die.
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
Sleep well my love and I will see you Sunday afternoon.
I am lost inside of you

It has been a busy week at work. But it still has not stopped me from visiting my beautiful bride. I have gone to see her on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday.
Each time I have gone has been a wonderful visit. No rain this week, so cleaning of the monument has not been necisary.
Each time I have sat by her side and enjoyed being with her. There has been a light breeze each time which made her wind chimes sing a beautiful song of the air. I have played our wedding songs for her and looked at her contently. I know that one day I will be by her side and we will be together forever in paradise.
Jesus is leading me by his side holding my right hand; and I know that when the day comes that we will be together, he will lead me to her and I will run to her and give her a big hug and never let her go. I miss her so much; the tears are still there every day. She was and always will be my soul mate. 
I took care of her in life and now I am taking care of her in rest. I will do this until the day I will join her.
My love for my wife Nancy will never ever die.
It is ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of her.

Had to be at work early Sunday, Sept. 13
Changed schedules with another employee; which gave me the opportunity to go see Nancy afterwards. I got off about 3 and went immediately to her side. I saw that the rain shower that was threatening  yesterday did not deposit much water. The monuments only required some wiping of some water spots to bring them up to par.
Afterwards, I sat by her side and got to visit with my lovely bride. It felt so good to be back with her. It always does feel right when I am with her. I look at her and talk to her of how much I love her and how much I want to be with her again. People don't seem to understand when you tell them of the love I have for my wife. How it is so painful to be separated from her. How I stayed with her at the hospital hoping that she was going to be better. But, it was not to be so. I only have my memories of her and all the good times that she and I shared. We had plans for the future but God had other plans and his overruled ours. I am still hurting being without my lovely bride, my soul mate. The birds were singing their songs of joy for us and her wind chimes were singing their songs of love for us.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
Our love is ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of her

I had to be at work early on Sept. 11 to help unload a stock truck. I didnt mind; it gave me the opportunity to go see my lovely wife after work.
I left the store at 3:15 and went straight to her side. Upon arrival, I noticed that there had been a rain shower the day before and our monument needed some cleaning up of the water spots deposited by the rain shower. After cleaning, I sat beside her and talked to her of the ceremony that we had for her birthday, my love for her and of things in general.
The wind was light and it made her wind chimes sing their song of love to us. The birds were singing  and I could also hear what I thought was a tree frog in the magnolia tree. I looked up and saw a hawk soaring on the thermals in the distance. His wings were out streched  and he soared and glided with the wind. 
Suddenly I heard the rumble of thunder in the distance. A cold front was approaching the area. As I sat I could hear it more and more. The wind had a hint of coolness and temps dropping. 
The wind increased and the wind chimes were a little louder in their singing.
I looked up and saw that the clouds were getting darker and darker. I apologized to my wife and told her that I guess I had better go. I will be back with her on Sunday after work. I hated to go but I also had to feed our babies.
My love for my wife will never ever die.
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
I will be back my darling on Sunday and I look forward to our time together.
I am lost inside of you
I love you my darling

On Wednesday, Sept 9 was my lovely and beautiful wife's birthday. I awoke to a beautiful day and prepared for the events that I had planned. I went to the Walgreens at Pearl and inflated my helium balloons for the balloon release that I had planned. I inflated 59 balloons and 1 balloon for my love for her. I also had cupcakes for the guests in honor of her day.
To get all these balloons in my van was a trip but I did make it. The white balloons were very thin and had to get in, some blew up.
I arrived at the cemetary and her adopted sister was there with her grand
daughter. I took out some of the balloons and anchored them to a board with some nails in the board to get an idea on how they would be flying. They really climbed.
One by One, all the guests arrived for her birthday party, Margaret McGowan, her best friend, Bobby Day and his wife Peggy, Kirk Sanson, Patrick Allen, and Shannon from Walgreens, and my lovely niece Jami Watkins. 
I handed out the remainder of the balloons to each of them. I then played our wedding song for them and explained the significance of the song to Nancy and me. I then read a poem that I had found online for the release of balloons for loved ones. We then let our balloons go and looked up to heaven and said Happy Birthday Nancy. They climbed higher and higher and the wind took them up over the area. We kept looking till they were just dots in the sky. They rose higher and higher to heaven for Nancy.
Afterwards, I handed out the cupcakes and noticed the grounds keepers across the street. I walked across the street and gave them a cupcake to and explaing to them what we were doing. 
Slowly, one by one, they all left and left me with her alone. I spent a few hours with her on her birthday. I miss her so much, I started crying because I didnt have a birthday present for her. Debbie called and said what I did was the best birthday present I could have given her. 
I stayed till I noticed that the grounds keepers were across the street in force and I felt like I needed to leave. 
I will be back on Friday to spend time with my bride after work. My love for Nancy will never ever die, My love for my wife is ageless and evergreen.
I love you my darling, sleep and rest 
I will see you again on Friday
I am lost inside of you

I haven't seen my wife since Thursday, so I had to work at the Meadowbrook store on Sunday and I went to go see her after I got off at work. While there at the store, I looked up the hill and saw where she worked and we spent many hours together as employees at Walgreens. I also looked across the street at the old Meadowbrook Mart shopping center where we both work together at the old Super D Drugstore.
I left the store at 4 and went to be by my wife's side. It was warm but I left the van and went to her side and sat beside her in my chair.
It had not rained since I was last there on Thursday, so I did not have to clean the monuments from water spots. Sitting there, I talked to her and just looked at her. I noticed that the grounds keepers had not cut the grass in a while. Although needing a trim, the section probably did not warrant a cutting due to the lack of rain. The magnolia trees are starting to shed leaves and seed pods. I picked up all the leaves and pods from her site and then sat beside her again.
I told her that I had special plans for her birthday on Wednesday. Special friends and guests said that they will come and honor her on her special day.
I will be busy on Tuesday making final arrangements for the special birthday for my bride. She will be 59, way too young.
I am looking forward to being with her one day and the time that we will not be apart from one another ever again.
She is my soul mate and my love mate; My love for her will never ever die
Sleep well my love and I will see you on Wednesday. My love for Nancy is ageless and evergreen
Sleep restfully and I will be with you on Wednesday, My love for you is only for you.
I am lost inside of you

I returned to go see my wife after work on Thursday. It was a beautiful day and looked forward to spending some quality time with my lovely wife. 
I also had a mission in mind; I had to replace some butterflies that had been damaged to the sun, rain and heat. I arrived there shortly after 2:30 and the first thing that I noticed was that there were water stains on the monument due to a shower the day before. I first cleaned the monument with some clean water that I carried. I also noticed that the grounds keepers had not cut the grass in the section and my removal of the butterflies at her feet was unwaranted. But I decided to keep them from there just in case they decided to cut the grass on Friday in anticipation of the Labor day holiday. 
I removed the damaged butterflies and very slowly put the fresh ones back in their place. I then placed some fresh butterflies at the perimeter around the monument. It really made a difference in the outlook of the place.
I am looking forward to Sept 9, Nancy's birthday. I am planning a balloon release and quite a few of our friends and relatives are going to be there. I am very excited about the event. There are going to be quite a few friends from my Radio control club there as well.
We are going to release some balloons and watch them float to her in heaven.
Sitting there, I played our wedding songs and the winds caused her wind chimes to sing along with the songs.
I miss her so much; I want her back but I know that the Lord is watching after her and she is preparing a place for me and her . I will be with her one day and I am looking forward to that day.
I will be back on Sunday, unable to see her due to my work schedule.
My love for her will never ever die
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
I want to be with her so much that it hurts
I am lost inside of you
Rest my love, and I will see you again on Sunday.

I awoke early on Tuesday to go to the cemetary to see my lovely wife.
It was going to be a beautiful day and I wanted to take care of taking care of the grass.
I arrived around 7:30. The grounds crew had yet to arrive at work. I emmidately  started cutting and trimming the grass , I had moved her flower arrangements so I could get to the monuments and trim around them. I noticed that her achiminees were growing very well. They like the heat and their stems were filled with buds that would turn into flowers in time. Their deep purple color were beautiful and I will continue to help Nancy take care of them. I also trimmed the grass around my parents grave and did the same in getting as close as I could. 
After cutting, I took my brush and cleaned the cuttings off of each monument. I then took water and  used Joy dishwashing liquid and scrubbed each one. After scrubbing, I rinsed them and used a towel to absorb the excess water off of them to prevent water spots from forming. I then replace the achiminees and flowr arrangements back into their proper place at Nancy's head. I then was able to have a peaceful visit with her. I played our wedding music and I sang to her about our love. The sun was slowly rising above the trees; but the sky was free of any clouds. It was a beautiful site of pure blue. I could imagine my beauty smiling down at me. I also played our butterfly song for her. I saw two butterflies fly by and I whispered to them to tell my lovely bride that I loved her and always would.
It was right that I was by her side and look forward to being with her one day when I will never have to leave and be by her side forever. Soon it was  time to leave and go to the flying field to do some touch and goes. As I was going to the van, I was right in moving her butterflies from her feet. The groundsmen were aproching from the west and they were going to cut the grass from the area. So, I did right in guessing the time of their appearance.
I will be back on Thursday afternoon and it is time for butterfly maintenance.I am getting the grounds ready for her birthday on Sept. 9.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
I love her so much, it is ageless and evergreen.
I am lost inside of you
Sleep peacefully and I will see you again on Thursday afternoon.
I love you baby

I went to go see my wife on Sunday. It was a good visit and a sad visit rolled into one. It was good that I was able to visit her but sad in the fact that it is also the 30th of the month. This means that it has been exactly 8 months since my dear wife passed away.
I went to go see her first thing in the morning. I had to work in the afternoon; so this was the best time to go see her. When I arrived; it was around 7:00. The sund was just peeking above the horizon. The birds were singing the beginning of the the day. I had the entire cemetary to myself. I sat beside my bride and talked to her. I told her how much I missed her and how I was so sad that she had left me and gotten her angel wings. I told her that I still loved her and wanted to be by her side.
I looked at the plot and noticed that the grass had grown despite the fact that we have had no significant rain. I  told her that I would be back on Tuesday to cut the grass. I moved the butterflies that had adorned her grave site at her feet to her monument. It was time the the  grounds keepers to cut the grass and I do not want them running over them with their lawn mowers destroying them.
I had to leave her and go home and prepare for work; I will be back my love and take care of things there.
My love for my wife Nancy will never ever die
My love for her is ageless and  evergreen
 I am lost inside of you
Sleep tight and see you then.

After a stressful day at work, I went to go see my beautiful wife Nancy.
I arrived at the cemetary at 3:45 and got my chair out of my van. I went to her side and told her that I was back to see her. The wind was blowing briskly and her chimes were singing a beautiful song. I looked at her and could see her looking at me and smiling .
The dimple in her cheek and her pretty eyes. I looked at her and whispered that I love you and I could hear her say that she loved me too. She told me that she always would love me and be by my side. I am looking forward to the day that I can join her at the base of the steps to our heavenly home that she has been preparing for us. I am planning a surprise for her on her birthday. I will do this on Sept. 9, when my bride will be 59. 
I saw a butterfly on the wind and told him to tell her that I love her very much.
I want to be back with her; but Jesus is not ready for me yet. Yet, I know that when that day comes, it is going to be a wonderful day. We will never be separted again from each other. I am going to give her a big hug and not let go.
I had to leave much too soon to go feed our children. I will be back on Sunday and spend the day with her until it is time to go to work.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
I love her so much, it is endless and evergreen.
I am lost inside of you.
Sleep tight and rest my  love

Unable to see my wife on Monday; but had to work days on Tuesday and decided to go see her on Tuesday.'
I got off about 4 and traveled to see her after work. When I arrived, the cemetary was bathed in a  glow of sunshine from a sun that was playing hide and seek. I got out of my van and walked up to her. I sat beside her and proceded to have a wonderful visit. I talked to her and let her know that I missed her very much. I looked up and saw an endless sky of blue with thin wisps of clouds. The wind was blowing lightly and her wind chimes were singing their beautiful music.
The air had a touch of cold in it; from a cold front from the North. It made sitting by her very enjoyable. The birds were flying to the trees in anticaipation of sleeping for the night. Their voices were singing a song of joy from a day of flying in the air.
I had to get ready to go and feed our babies. I told her that I would be back to see her on Thursday after work. I have to go in early and I could spend more time with her then.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
I love her so much, my love is endless and evergreen
I will see you on Thursday, my love 
I am lost inside of you
Sleep tight my love and never forget that I love you always.

I had to work from 9 til 6 on Saturday, so I could not see my wife that day due to my work schedule. I awoke today, Sunday, early and had my coffee and fed my guys their breakfast.
I then went to church and had breakfast with the local brotherhood. Afterwards, I went home, read the paper and then went to church. After church I was ready to see my beautiful wife and have a leisure visit with her.
It was a cloudy day with the sun playing hide and seek with me. but overall, it was a beautiful day.
When I got to her, I noticed that it had not rained since I saw her on Friday.
My main mission to do today was the replace some butterflies that had been damaged from the sun and the rain and blowing wind.
I first sat beside her and had a pleasant visit with my wife. I talked to her and it was just good to be with her and not worry about being in a hurry. I just took my time. I then started working on the butterflies. I carefully removed the ones that were damaged and put brand new ones in their place. The arrangements looked a whole lot better after I finished. I was sitting in my chair next to her when I felt raindrops falling on me; I looked up and there was not a cloud in sight. I believe that my Nancy was letting me know that she was alright and that she approved what I was doing. As I was sitting there also, a lone viceroy butterfly alighted on her gravesite. I told him to tell my Nancy that I loved her. He then flew off and flew skyward. The say that butterflies take your messages to heaven if you tell them what to say.
Everytime I see a butterfly, I tell them to tell Nancy that I love her.
I played our wedding songs today and sang with them to her. I told her that she was my dulcinea. Dulcinea is spanish for dream. She was and is my dream. I fell in love with her the first day I saw her in the hospital that she was working. I told a friend that I was going to marry that girl and one year later, we were married. She was my dream, my dulcinea.
I had to leave but before I did, I gave her achiminees some water. They are still doing well and blooming their hearts out. They are also doing equally well at the house. He green thumb is still doing well. I will see her again on Tuesday after work.
My love for Nancy will never ever di
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
I still love and always will love my dulcinea, Nancy
I am lost inside of you

I never got to post my entry for my early morning visit to see Nancy on Friday, August 21. 
I was scheduled to work nights that night, so I decided to go see her early that morning.
I awoke around 5; fed the guys their breakfast and had my coffee, I then left the house around 7 to go see her.
I arrived around 7:30 and had the entire cemetary to myself.
It had rained earlier that morning and the first thing that I did was  to clean the waterspots off of the monuments. I then sat by her and  had a wonderful visit with her.
The birds were awake and singing to the early morning sunrise. There was a slight breeze and it caused the wind chimes to sing a sweet light song. 
I talked to her and  let her know how much I still missed her and that I still loved her very much. The grounds keeper finally arrived and I noticed them from a distance that they were preparing another site for a burial site. They were quietly working under a tent and doing their work. I paid them no attention after I saw what they were doing; and continued on with my visit. 
The sun was rising behind the clouds and was playing hide and seek. Before I knew it ; it was already after 10 and I had to leave to go home and get ready for work. I told Nancy that I would not be able to see her again until Sunday due to my work schedule on Saturday.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
I love my Nancy always and forever
I will see you again on Sunday my love.

I worked the day shift yesterday; liked the change from nights and also got to go see my lovely wife after work.
I arrived at the cemetary around 4:30 and noticed that my suspecions were true. The grounds keepers had mowed the grass right on schedule. I had removed the butterflies from my wife's feet and placed them on her head so that the mowers would not run over them. They were safe there and I took them and put them back in their rightful place at my wife's feet. I also noticed that a good rain had been through the area with water standing on the side of the road and the monuments were wet. I took my towel and clean and dried the monuments so no water spots would be left on them . I then sat in my chair and had a very enjoyable visit with my loving wife. I told her of our nephew, Jared, wedding and showed her pictures of his honeymoon in CanCun. I know that if she could have met Cate, his now wife, that she would approve and love her like she was a member of the family . A light breeze blew through the magnolia tree and made her wind chimes sing their beautiful song. The sun was playing hide and seek again, but when it finally did peek at me again; it was low on the horizon getting ready to set. 
The geese were on the hill across the street, grazing on the grass. They were honking occaionally letting everyone know that they were there.
It was a fitting backdrop to her wedding songs that I was playing for her. I never get tired of playing them for her; It was and sign of our love on our special day and now it is a sign of our forever love, ageless and evergreen.
I miss her so much, the hurt will not go away and it is not a sign of weakness; but a sign of love for her. Love never dies in a relationship like ours. It continues to shine like a beacon for all to see. Her achiminees are still doing well, blooming their love for her.
It was getting late and I had to leave to come home and feed our babies. Our pugs were very special to her. That is the reason that we have a pug on our monument; the reason that we always callled her pug mama and always called me pug daddy.
They loved her and she loved them,
I will be back to see her on Thursday or Friday. my work schedule is so bad; it interfers with my visits.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
It is ageless and evergreen
I love my Nancy so much,
I am lost inside of you.

After going to church yesterday, I went to go spend the afternoon with my lovely wife. It was a very clouldy day with the sun playing hide and seek among the white clouds and dark rain clouds mixed in.
It has rained a lite shower earlier in the morning and I had to remove the water spots from our monument which I quickly did.
I pulled my chair out and sat by her and talking to her. Our site was clearly marked by the grass cutting that I had done on Saturday morning.
I told her all about our nephew's wedding. She loved Jared and I know that she would be proud of our new addition to the family. I could just imagine seeing her there at the wedding and smiling on all the festivities.
It brought back memories of our wedding.
Talking to her , there was suddenly a small rain shower walking across the cemetary. I took shelter under the magnolia tree and waiting for it to subside. Afterwards, I took a towel from the van and cleaned off the water from our monument. I sat back beside her and still talked to her. I never get tired of telling her how much I love her and how much I miss her. The brief shower did cool things  down and made it more bearable from the heat. 
It must have been about 45 minutes and suddenly there was another wall of light rain walking across the cemetary.
Again I had to take shelter under the magnolia tree and waited for it to subside,
After it left I went back to my chair by her side. I had to clean the monument again, but that is what I am suppose to do, take care of her.
It was getting close to 5; I told her that I had to go home and feed our babies.
I will be back on Tuesday after work. I will be unable to see her on Monday due to the fact that I have to work night at Walgreens. 
My love for Nancy will never ever die
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
I love you so much , Nancy
I am lost inside of you

I awoke yesterday early to go see my beloved wife. I also had a mission; to cut the grass at the site. It had grown quite a bit and I needed my tlc.
I got there early also to escape the heat and to attend our nephew's wedding.
I arrived about 8:00 and began my work,
I carefully cut the grass and trimmed it around our monument. Afterwards, I brushed the trimmings off of the monument and washed it with my Ivory soap and water. I used a towel to take the escess water off and prevent water spots. The whole process took about an hour and a half. I knew that the grounds keepers would be on the site next week, and I want to keep them off of our plot; they dont exactly take care of the plot the way that I do.
I then sat in my chair and talked to my lovely bride. I told her how much I still missed her and about Jared's wedding plans. I played our wedding songs again, reliving the time that we were joined in matrimony in 1981. We had a wonderful wedding. She was such a beautiful bride. Her black hair under her veil, her smile on her face as she walked down the aisle being led by her father.
I was scared, but my dad, my best man, stood by my side and wispered that it would be alright. I was honored by my grandfather, first time he ever had a suit on in 40 years, just for my wedding.
My mom and sister was beautiful. Jared was just a toddler then and was held by his father. My, how time flies.
He is now getting married to a beautiful girl, after so many years. I hope that he and Cate have a wonderful life together. I hope that they will be as happy and close as Nancy and I were.
Its a wonderful thing to have a marriage like that. To be close enough that when one cries; the other tastes salt. It is only fitting to be happy like that.
Nancy and I had a special love, a love of life and love of each other. I miss her so much; all I want to do is to be with her. I want to smile again, to laugh again. The only time that will be accomphished is when we are reunited together again. She is waiting for me I know and I pray to God to please not keep my waiting. To me, it has already been too long. I want to be with her now. We did everything together, when you saw one; you saw the other. I want to be with her now. We have been apart for way too long; it is time that we be together again.
I will be back to be with her today after church. Really don't want to do anything on my day off but to be with her.
Saw a bunch of butterflies in our momosa tree this morning; told them to go to heaven and tell my Nancy that I loved her, that I need her.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
I love my Nancy so much
I am lost inside of you

I awoke yesterday in the early morning hours to go to work. It was going to be a busy morning; but the best part of the day was when I get off, I would be able to go see my wife.
After work, I left and made my way to her via 2-20. It didnt seen to be as hot as it had been; I think the humidity was lower. I arrived and took my chair with me and I sat by her side.
I talked to her and just enjoyed being back with her. I always enjoy being with her, it is the way it should be
just me and her.
The birds were very active today. They were very vocal and flying from one tree to the next. They flew into the magnolia tree where I sat and had a concert for me. You could almost understand them , it was like they were saying she loves you and she is alright.
As I sat there, I took a nap and it felt so right.I was with my lovely wife and she is the only woman that I have ever wanted to sleep with and would sleep with. She was my soul mate and the reason I got up for and went to sleep for. She was and is my love and my life.
The wind chimes were singing their song to the breeze that was blowing out of the North. I looked up in the clear blue sky and told Nancy that I loved her and would always would.
Before long, I looked at my watch and saw that it was getting late and I had to go home and feed our babies. Why is it always that time with her goes by so fast? I will be back on Saturday to cut the grass. I will also move the butterflies from her feet. Next week, it is time for the care takers to cut the lawn again and I dont want them to run over them. 
My nephew, Jared, gets married Saturday night. He was just a toddler when Nancy and I got married in 1981. I know that she would be smiling  down on him and his bride.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I couldnt go see my wife on Monday due to my work schedule but I made up for it and went to go see her on Tuesday. Upon arrival , I noticed something wrong. I could not see her yellow roses. I quickly walked up to our plot and saw that they were laying on their side. We had a big thunderstorm that morning and the wind must have blown them over. I gently picked them up and put them back in their rightful place. I then cleaned the monument with water from my van and rid them of water spots from the storm. I then sat beside her and enjoyed talking to my lovely bride.
I had the entire cemetary to myself, due to the late hour of my arrival. I played our wedding songs and talked to her of my love for her and how much I missed her. It was good to be back beside her and I also fell asleep for a little nap; it felt good.
I had to untangle the wind chime from the shepards hook. When I did, it started singing in the evening wind. I looked on the horizon and saw a lot of dragon flies darting on the moist grass. It was a pretty sight in the setting sun. It was time to go and feed our babies. I will be back on Thursday, August 13. I will have more time to spend with her since I get off at 2;00.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
I will see you again my love on Thursday
I am lost inside of you.

The triple digit heat is making things unbearable here lately. I was unable to see her yesterday due to the heat. So I woke up this morning and decided to go see her early in the morning before the heat kicked in. I arrived about 7:30 and was rewarded with a very pleasant  visit. It was very comfortable with temps in the 70s and the reward of getting there early was rewarded. 
I first had to clean our monument because there must have been a thunderstorm yesterday. The monument had water spots on it and the wind chimes were tangled so that their voice was silenced. I first untangled the wind chimes and make it possible for the chimes to sing. I then cleaned the monuments of the water spots and make it look pristine. I then sat in my chair beside her and talked to my lovely wife. I talked to her of how much I loved her and how much I missed her. I know that she is waiting for me and I am looking forward to being reunited with her. We are a team and when you saw one; you saw the other.
She was what I woke up for in the morning and what I wanted to go to sleep with in the evening. 
Her achiminees are doing very well. With my watering and the few good rains; the plants that Nancy loved and nurchured are doing very well. There is new growth and on one branch there are are least a dozen blooms showing their heart out. 
It was good to be beside her again. The purple martins were flying above the plot and doing aerobactics in the air and singing a beautiful song. I was looking at her when a mockingbird lit upon the arm of my chair and looked at me. I believe that Nancy told him to do it to let me know that she is alright and that she is waiting for me. Waiting for us to be reunited; saying don't cry. Telling me that she loves me and that she will be there for me. He stayed for just a moment and then flew off. I believe.
I had to leave to escape the heat. but told her that I would be back either tomorrow or on Tuesday. I will always be back. I love going to see my beloved wife. 
My wife is my all still and I still love her.
My love for her will never ever die
My love is ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I was unable to visit my wife on Wednesday due to the excessive heat we are experiencing here in the South. I had to go in early yesterday; so I already planned on seeing her on Thursday. I left the store about 4 to go see her; at least the heat had subsided.
I arrived and just about had the entire cemetary to myself. I brought some water for her achiminees. They havent had anyt water since Tuesday and I was sure they needed some. I sat beside her and it felt good to be back with her; it had been 3 days I had seen her. 
The loneliness of missing her is getting worse. I keep asking why God had to take her away from me. The doctors were suppose to fix her. To make her better. But, like her sister said, God was tired of seeing Nancy suffer and he brought her home. I know that she is not in pain any more and is waiting for me to join her. I miss her so bad, it hurts both physically and mentally to be apart from her. I am tired; I am tired of living like this. I havent smiled since before she had her heart attack in October. I havent laughed since October. Life is not fun any more. I want to be with my Nancy. I keep asking the Lord to please take me and lead me to her. But, I am still here; guess he has a reason for me, what, I do not know.
All I know is that I am just existing, one day at a time. I want to be reunited with her; I want my Nancy back.
I talked to her, and cried to her that I miss her so much. Arriving so late, my visit was too brief. Had to go home and feed our babies. I will be back on Saturday for an extended visit. The only joy I get is coming to see my Nancy,
My love for my wife will never ever die
Our love is Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I had to work the morning shift at work yesterday. Afterwards I went to go see my lovely wife, Nancy
Upon arrival I noticed that the grass had been cut by the grounds keepers.
Walking to the plot, I immediately noticed that the two butterflies that I had at her feet were missing. Apparantly they were torn from their mounts by the lawn mower. I looked around and was able to find one of them. The other one was too damaged to put back in place. I repaired the good one and took one from her achiminees and was able to restore them to their rightful position.
I then sat by her side and had a good visit with my wife. The sky was a deep shade of blue ; the dragonflies were busy flying in the wind. The windchimes were singing a sweet song by a gently breeze. I could hear the groundskeepers at another secction at the cemetary, soon they were silent and I had only the quiet sound of the birds with Nancy and me. I actually fell asleep and had a nap with her. It was time to go home and feed our babies.
I will be back today after I fly with my flying buddies at our field. I know that Nancy will be by my side watching me fly. I will go see her after we finish.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
It is ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Unable to see my wife on Saturday due to my work schedule, I looked forward to seeing her today after church
I went to morning service, then had lunch with her sister, I then went to see my lovely wife
I arrived in early afternoon and sat beside her in my chair.
I talked to her and played our wedding songs for her. I broke down crying and had to call her sister to calm me down
I miss her so much, it hurts more each day. She calmed me down, but I still cried like a baby. Nancy is what I lived for and what I went to bed for. She was my soul mate and my everything. I will be back tomorrow after work.
My love for Nancy will never die
My love for her is ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Yesterday, July 30, was 7 months that my lovely sweet wife Nancy passed away at St. Dominic's Hospital. I know that I has only been 7 months but it has seem like it is an eternity.
I have missed her very much and the pain and the emptiness has not gotten any better. It still hurts to see where she would be sitting in her easy chair in the den with our pugs all laying in their exact positions on her. To lay down beside her in bed, to put my arm around her and hug her and kiss her sweet lips.To look in her eyes and see the dimple on her chin when she smiles,
the only thing I have now is just memories. 
I went to go see her today and spend some time with her before I have to go to work. The weather was beautiful. There was a cool breeze blowing and the wind chimes were singing a merry tune. 
I looked in the sky and saw a swarm of dragonflies darting in the wind and some butterflies flying in the breeze. I saw our hawk friend resuming their aerobatics and out of the blue, a lone canadian goose flying over over plot. I think they were all there for my benefit, thanks to my lovely wife. I believe that she was giving me a sign that she was alright and waiting for me when it is time for me to join her and we can go to our eternal home together.
I will be back on Sunday when I am off and we will spend the day together.
My love for my wife, Nancy will not die
I will love her forever
My love for her is eternal 
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After work yesterday, I went to go see my lovely wife Nancy. It had been a typical hot day in Mississippi and had actually rained at the store. But when I got to the cemetary; it had not rained a drop.
But the one bonus was that the brief shower we did experience, had cooled things down a bit. I sat by her side and just enjoyed myself. I talked to her and  told her how much I missed her and how much I loved her.
My heart is hurting more and more from being apart from her. Our relationship was and is so special. She was my soul mate; we did everything together. When you saw one; the other was by our sides.
Now that she has received her angel wings, I know that she is by me and is watching over me. but it still does not help any. I still miss her and still want her back.
I am lost inside of her and she has my heart. Death cannot separate us. Some people dont understand. I have been written off of a quote friend's list because he said that I have ignored all of his help. Yeah, right--his help is call a grief counselor. I dont need a grief counselor; I will mourn my way and I have the best counselor in the world. The Lord Jesus Christ is my counselor. That friend has never gone through what I have experienced; How can he tell me what to do? I dont need him; I need my Nancy back.
I know that I will see Nancy someday. That is the only thing that keeps me going. My love for her is my strength.
While sitting by her, I found out that our baby Button had her tumor removed by the vet and is doing fine and will be able to come back home on Wednesday.
Our babies meant a lot to Nancy and me 
They were our children; and they loved us and we loved them
I awoke this morning crying because I miss her so much. I sit in our swing  in the back yard and look at all her flowers blooming. She loved to work with them and when I see them; I see my Nancy. The new butterflies on the flower arrangements look so good. I will keep them fresh. I took care of her in life and now I am taking care of her at rest. It is my duty, it is my promise that I made her 34 years ago when we were joined in holy matrimony.
I had to leave and feed our babies. I will be back on Friday before work and most definitely be back this weekend. 
My love for Nancy will never ever die
My love for Nancy will never stop
It is ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of you, Nancy
Rest, my darling, rest
I will be back, I will always be back
I love you

After a enjoyable visit yesterday with Nancy, I told her that I would return today and see her again. I first went to Hobby Lobby and bought some more butterflies to replace the ones that the wind and heat and rain had damaged.
I went this afternoon about 3 to see her and upon arrival, I saw that some geese had walked in the ant dust and then walked on our monument staining it.
I retreved some water from the van and quickly cleaned it up. I then began my work on replacing some butterflies that had been damaged.
It really made a difference having them on the flower arrangements. I then just sat beside her and enjoyed my visit. I played our wedding music and talked to her telling her of my day and how I was enjoying myself just being with her. Before I knew it; it was already after 6 and I had to go home and feed our babies. I told her that I would be back either tomorrow after work or on Wednesday before work. I will always come back to see her because I love her.I took care of her in life and now I am taking care of her at rest. 
My love for her will never ever stop
My love for her is endless; 
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I awoke early this morning to go to work on the morning shift. On awakening, all I could think about was how much I missed my wife Nancy and how much I wanted to be by her side today. I had already planned on going after work today; one reason was to sprinkle ant dust on some cracks in the ground  near our monument where they had began to construct a mound for a colony.
I reported to work and did my duty but down deep all I could think about was getting off and going to see Nancy.
Three oclock finally got here and I ventured to go see her.
The heat was not too bad and upon arrival, I noticed that the monument had water spots from a brief rain , the day before.
I  took out a towel and some distilled water from the van and got rid of the spots. I then took the dust out and dusted the ground behind the monument where the cracks in the ground had given fire ants an invitation to start a colony. It works very well and will prevent them from starting a colony.
I then took my chair out and sat by her side and talked to my lovely wife.
It was good to be by her side again and I was at home. I played our wedding songs for us and shed a few tears while the songs were accompanied by her wind chimes being moved by a light breeze in the air.
They say to move on; but they do not understand. It is not time to move on, it has only been 6 months, soon to be 7, and I do not want to move on. Or relationship was special and I do not want to move on. I made her a promise 34 years ago and I will keep my promise until the day that we will be reunited again. I will take care of her as long as I have breath in my body. I took care of her in life and will take care of her in death.
I did not want to leave, but I had to come home and feed our babies. It was 6 oclock and I knew they will be hungry.
I will be back tomorrow, Monday, 
My love for you, Nancy, will never ever die
I love you so much, baby
Our love is special
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I was off today and I awoke early to take advantage of the morning coolness to go see my lovely wife Nancy.
After coffee, I journeyed to the cemetary and was welcomed by the coolness of the day. I took my weedeater and very carefully cut the grass on our plot. Despite the lack of rain, the grass has been growing very well. I moved the flower arrangements and trimmed the grass away from the monument and surrounding area. I then took my distilled water and Ivory and cleaned the monument to a pristine clean condition. I then replaced the flower arrangements to their original  position and took my chair out to enjoy a nice long visit with her.
It was so peaceful and calm and I talked to her and let her know that I was there and would always be there by her side for as long as I can before it is time to be with her in paradise.
I let her know that my love for her has not waned and that I will always love her.
While there , we were joined by 3 hawks during aerial acrobactics in the clear blue sky. They were performing for us, they soared and glided on the thermals and it was pretty to see how they glided with their tails doing the maneuvers of their flying. 
I looked at her graveside and looked at her picture on my cell phone. I miss her so much and all I want is to be with her again. I want to hold her in my arms, to kiss her sweet lips, to take my hand and brush her soft hair.
I want to look in her eyes and see the dimple on her cheek. I long to be with her and I am longing to be with her soon. Life is not any fun any more without her in it. 
I told her that I would be back on Sunday after work. Her achiminees were still in good condition and I repositioned them so they would not get so much sun and reward us with more blooms. I know that she will take care of them and give them some tlc.
Just little signs like that let me know that she is alright and is waiting for me at the base of the stairs of our heavenly home; ready for me to join her.
I left but told her that I would be back.
My love for you , Nancy, will never ever die.
I love you so much
Our love is
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Had the bad schedule again today and also due to the intense heat we are experiencing, I went to go see Nancy this morining before work. I was not disappointed. It was cool and had a very good breeze blowing. The wind chimes were talking to me as well as the birds were very active, waking up to a beautiful morning. I raked up the few magnolia leaves and then sat in my chair and was soon welcomed by a flock of geese flying over the field. There was at least 25 of them and they were singing as they flew over. 
I talked to Nancy and apologized for not seeing her yesterday. It was entirely too hot to be out in the heat.
I noticed her achiminees were still growing in the heat. She must be taking care of them when I am not there. I looked up in the sky and it was a beautiful shade of blue with thin wisps of clouds. I played our butterfly song and cried just thinking about her. I miss her so much and I want to see her so bad. I want to hold her hand and give her a big hug from me and our babies. I want to look in her eyes and give her a kiss of her sweet lips. I will be with her one day and I so look forward to that day. 
I will be back on Friday morning and plan on trimming the grass  and making the plot more presentable.
My love for you Baby will never ever die
I love you so much
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I went to go see my lovely wife after work today. The heat was very hot but I didnt let that keep me from her side. I left work at 3:15 and arrived shortly before 4. I noticed that there were other people also that beared the heat to see their loved ones like I did.
I took my chair out of the van and put it in the shade by her. I talked to her and noticed that it was very comfortable in the heat filled day. A light breeze was blowing and her wind chime was singing a quiet song. There were some dragonflies darting among the grasses and the birds were singing. Two  
vultures were flying on thermals and our hawks were no where to be seen. I wanted to stay longer but had to leave to go home and feed our babies. I will be back on Monday and give the grass a good trimming. Believe it or not, the grass is growing quite well. Her achiminees are also doing well in the hear. They love the heat and bear it quite will.
I will be back my beautiful love.
My love for you will never ever die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to go  see my wife this morning before going to work. Since I had to work til late, it was the best thing to do.
I arrived before 8 and it was a surprise that the caretakers had cut the grass.I noticed that the grass had been cut and it was also noticed that they had also not blew off the grass clippings. I had some water in my van so I immediately cleaned the  monuments of the excess grass and washed them also.
After I had cleaned the monuments of the grass; I sat by her side and had a wonderful visit next to her. I talked to her and also played our wedding music and started to cry.
I had missed her so much that all I wanted was to be by her side and hold her hand. 
It is so lonely being here and not to have her by me. I pray that the Lord will one day soon, join us together.
I am so lost without her that I dont know what to do.
Before I knew it , it was time to go to work. I will be back tomorrow after work and spend more time with her.
I will always love you forever.
My love for you will never die.
We shall one day be together forever
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you.

Since my last visit on Monday, I have been unable to visit my wife due to an unusual work schedule. Working from 11-10 did not leave much time to go see her, so I decided to go see her on Wednesday, but go see her before I have to go to work.
I awoke at 5 AM and drank my coffee and put my working clothes on and go see her at 7. It paid off. The weather was absolutely beautiful. I sat by her side and there was a cool breeze blowing and I had the whole cemetary to myself; just me and her.
I talked to her and looked at her and wished that she was back by my side. But, I felt that she was next to me there and holding my hand and telling me that it was going to be alright. She was telling me that she was happy and not in any pain any more. That she was waiting for me and that we will be together again one day and that will be a glorious day.
I saw a buttefly flutter by and told it to tell Nancy that I loved her. They say that when you see a butterfly and tell it that you loved your loved on; they will fly to heaven and give them the message. So, everytime that I see one, I will tell them that; plus I also will say her name to them.
The sun was not playing hide and seek today. It was shining in the blue skies.
Her wind chimes were singing their song to me. I played our butterfly song and smiled at her. I will get some more butterflies and replace some more of them. Some of them are damaged due to the last thunderstorm.
I need to cut the grass again; it is really growing. Her achiminees are doing so well. The pot beside her is growing; I know that she is taking care of it .The ones at the house are also doing well.
I didnt hear our hawk this morning; maybe next time.
I miss her so much; it just keeps hurting every day. I take it one day at a time, but our love is the only thing that keeps me going.
I will try and see her today, if not, then I will see her on Saturday after work.
My love for you will never ever die, Nancy
I love you so much
I will love you forever
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Unable to go visit on Saturday due to my niece's daughter swim meet. I awoke yesterday and went to church. After church, I went to go see my lovely wife.
I arrived at Lakewood and basically had the place to myself. The typical Mississippi summer heat kept a bunch of people indoors but it was not going to keep me from seeing her.
I took my chair out of the van and found a cool spot under the magnolia tree and started talking to my wife.
We talked of Macie and her swimming and of the heat. I noticed that there was water spots on the monument; so I took some water and towels out of the van and cleaned them off. As I was cleaning, I heard our friend, the hawk, crying in the distance and I looked for him. I found him perched in a tall oak tree and pointed it out to Nancy. But , I know that she saw him before I did. 
He jumped off the branch and started flying; found a thermal and was just gliding in the blue sky crying out to anyone that would hear him.
I head another cry and looked, blue jays were in the magnolia tree looking for a quick meal.
Seeing all the pretty birds and listening to their calls reminded me of how much we loved them; Nancy and I would sit in our back yard in our swing and listen and look for all of God's beautiful creatures.
I played our butterfly song and our wedding song Evergreen and it brought tears to my eyes. I long to see my beautiful wife again and be with her.
I know that she is standing beside me in spirit and is waiting for me and we will be joined together forever.
Got a text from a flying friend while there and he shared a text he received and I thought it was so poinant. It said that everytime you see a butterfly, tell it that you love her and he will fly to her and deliver the message.
That is beautiful. I will do that  everytime that I see a buttefly.
I will have to change my visit schedule because my work schedule has channed.
Hopefully, I will have a four day work week with 3 days off. But on the days that I have to work 10 hours, I will visit her early in the morning before I go to work.
I will see you on Tuesday my darling
My love for you will never die
I will love you forever, Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After working late last night; I awoke to a beautiful day and a very eventful day.
I was going to fly with some of my fellow CCRCC friends at our field and then go see my lovely wife afterwards.
At the field, it was a beautiful day for flying. My Super Cub performed flawlessly as usual. It is a good flyer and never disappoints.
I then flew my T-28, I experience a major problem while flying It doved thraight into a grove of pine trees; no control watsoever. With Kirk, my fellow CCRCC member , we were able to retrieve the plane. It was lying on its back and upon examination. The 3 blade prop was broken and upon closer examination, the clevis on the elavator and the wheel was disconnected. An easy fix and glad no major damage was seen.
I then flew Nancy's favorite plan, the Roly Mud Duck. It flew well and still needs some tweeking on the engine.
I left the field excited and satisfied.
I was excited that I was going to see Nancy and satisfied over my flying experience.
On the way to see her, there was a small thundershower. When I arrived at the cemetary, all I had to do was wipe the monument of the water droplets.
I took my chair out of the van and sat by my lovely wife. We talked of the flying experience and of my new work schedule.
I played our wedding songs and just sat there and talked to her of past times and wonderful memories. The rain previous had cooled the temps down from the heat index of 104. Plus I had my chair  under the magnolia tree.
I was enjoying myself, when suddenly I noticed that is was 6:00 and I had to go home and feed our babies.
I will be back tomorrow and spend more time with Nancy. I am at peace with her when I am sitting by her. I am doing as I should, taking care of my lovely wife.
I love for my wife will not ever die
Our love was of true love
I will always love her
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you
Until tomorrow my love, I will be back

I was off from work today; I returned to see my beautiful wife and complete my tasks that I wanted to accomplish .
It was a beautiful day for it and I arrived early before the heat set in.
I got there about 9:30 and started by raking the magnolia leaves from the site.
I then took my weed eater and cut the grass all around the monuments and around the site.
Taking my time, I made sure that the grass was cut just as it should be.
I then brushed aside the clippings from the monuments and washed the monuments with Ivory dishwashing soap and rinsed them off with distilled water.
I then took a clean towel and wiped off the water making sure that there were no water spots to dry on them
I reposistioned the flower arrangements and then took my chair out to have a nice leisurly visit with Nancy.
I talked to her and told her of my new work schedule and how it would be affecting our visits together.
As I was sitting there, I listened and our hawk was riding  the thermals again and crying out to us. It was beautiful, he really knows how to fly. 
There was plenty of  aerial activity. The bluebirds were actively seeking insects for their young. Everytime they found one, there was a young bluebird by her side to take the morsel.
The dragonflies were active and landing by our monument. The mockingbirds were also looking for insects for their. young
About 1, the temps were high and the heat index was about 100, so I gathered  up my equipment and prepared to go back home. I told Nancy that I would be back on Friday to see her as I had the work nights on Thursday. But, I will be back on Friday, Saturday and Sunday to see her as I am off for 3 days.
My love for Nancy will never ever die
I will love you forever Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I was finally off today after working the holiday. I drank my coffee this morning and after I had showered and shaved. I was off to go see my beautiful wife.
It was a beautiful day, the sun was shining , no longer playing hide and seek.
A light breeze was blowing but it just added to the beauty of the day.
There were no leaves to speak of and I saw that I needed to clean our monument from the water spots left by the thunderstorm on Sunday.
I quickly cleaned it and I then retrieved my chair and sat beside my lovely wife. 
I talked to her and we listened to our wedding songs. We never get tired of them, they were a sign of our special relationship. Some people say I need to 
move on but they dont understand our love for each other. I made her a promise 34 years ago and I will continue to live up to my promise.
I never left her side in live, in the hospital, and now by her in death. I promised to take care of her; and I will live up to that promise until that day when we are reunited together forever.
The hawk and buzzards were not there today as they were yesterday; but I did see a small falcon fly over us and talk to us.
The birds were singing their sweet songs. I noticed that I need to cut the grass again. I will do that on my next visit; which will be on Wednesday. I will not be able to come tomorrow due to work schedule.
I sat beside her for about 4 hours but the time shot by so quick. I didnt want to leave, but there were some things that I needed to do at the house.
I will be back my love on Wednesday
My love for you will never die
I will love you forever Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Had to work nights since the last time that I spent time with my wife.It was a long two days when finally I was given a day to work and I went to go see her today after I finished my day shift. It was a holiday; but not too bad, it went quick.
I quickly went to her and pulled up to the plot. A thunderstorm had rained earlier in the day but it wasnt as bad as it seemed. The wind had tangled the cystal pendant to the windchime and after I straightened it out, the windchime started singing.
The monuments had some staining after the rain, so I took my towels and quickly cleaned them off and made them like new again. I then sat in my chair and spent the next 2 hours with my lovely wife.
I talked to her and told her about my last two days and how glad I was to be with her again.
The wind was coming off of rain because the temps were a little chilly. The sun started playing hide and seek with me, but I enjoyed it. It lit up the sky and the ground, and the warmth of the sun stopped the chill of the east wind.
I heard the sound of an hawk in the sky and was rewarded with an aerial show of aerbactics  by the hawk and a couple of buzzards  riding the thermals.
It was beautiful in the patchy blue sky watching these two experts in flight annouce their prescence with sounds of their song.
I played our wedding music for Nancy , and just smiled as I listened to the songs that meant so much to us.
Her achiminees are doing very well, I have a feeling that she is taking care of them and they are rewarding that care with a show of flowers of deep purple hue.
I was enjoying myself with being with her that I actually dozed off a couple of times and slept with her by her side.
I looked up and smiled at the sun in the sky and told Nancy that I loved her and would never ever stop doing so.
I told her that we will be together one day forever  and never be separted ever again
I will be back on Monday to see her again, as I have to work nights tomorrow night.
I will always love Nancy
My love for you will never ever stop
You will always be in my heart and my mind forever until that day when I will meet you at the stairs to our heavenly home
I look forward to the day that I can hold you in my arms again.
I will love you forever
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I worked until 9:30 last night and today I was off. I had breakfast with Nancy's sister and then I went to visit Nancy. It was a beautiful day today, pretty blue skies and a constant breeze blowing.
I arrived and quickly was surprised. The grounds crew had cut the grass in her section and removed the magnolia leaves from the section. I only had to rake up a few leaf fragments but quickly made fast work of that. I then took my towels and distilled water and cleaned the water spots on the monument from the thunderstorms yesterday. It was looking better after I had finished.
I then took my chair out of the van and sat down beside her. I talked to her about going to the chapel at St Dominic Hospital and looking at her name in the registry of patients. About the time since she had left and received her angel wings. I then played our wedding songs for her and then played our butterfly song. It was so peaceful and calm there, I could have stayed there forever, which I know one day I will.
I placed some new flowers in her ornaments and replaced some new butterflys on them. Her achiminees are doing so well there. They are blooming their hearts out. I know that she is taking care of them. They were her favorite flower and the ones at the house are also doing well also.
I arrived about 9 and finally I left at 2 to go home and do some yard work. I will be back on Friday to see her again and definitely see her on Saturday.
I will always love you Nancy
You will always be a part of my life and my heart'My love for you will never ever die
I will love you forever
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Today is 6 months since my beloved wife Nancy passed away. It has been a long passage of time since that night that I received a phone call saying that her health had taken a turn for the worse and to some to the hospital as soon as possible. I got there very quickly and saw the hospital staff gathered around her bed and making her as comfortable as possible. The lead doctor asked me if I wanted them to resusitater her if she passed, but I said no, she had fought a very hard battle and the future for her was long term nursing care. She couldnt move, she couldnt eat,speak, or respond to any stimulus.
All she could do is have assisted breathing, being suctioned when her airways clogged, being turned so bedsores wouldnt start, being cleaned when she had a bowel movement or urination. No quality of life at all.
I said no, just let her pass  quietly and with dignity.
I sat by her side and held her hand and brushed her head.
Her breathing was labored and you could tell she was having problems breathing.
The monitor on her heart was on and it was showing the pain she was having to hold on to life.
The heart rate was slowly falling and I told her that it was alright, that I was there and it was alright.
The rate keep dropping and dropping until I saw it drop to a straight line and she took her last breath. I knew then that she was at last in peace.
I informed the nurses that she had passed, the hardest thing that I have ever had to do.
The Lord saw that the cure was not hers to be; so he put His arms around her and said it was time to go home and he took her to His side and took her home.
I will always love you Nancy
You will always be a part of my life
My love for you will never die
I will love you forever
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After a nights sleep, I got up early this morning and went to my brotherhood prayer breakfast at our church. After that, I went straight to see my wife Nancy.
When I arrived I had the Cemetary to myself, no one else was there.
I talked to her a little bit but then went straight to my chore.
I first cut the grass being careful to trim around the monument and move the flower arrangements to get all around the monuments.
I extended the perimeter around to give some more room for sitting around the site.
It took extra time to do it but it was well worth it. I then took my brushes and cleaned the grass clippings  from the monuments, then I washed them  with my Ivory soap and rinsed them with distilled water. They look good and then proceded to put the flower arrangements back into place. The Achiminees are doing very well and I know that she is taking care of them.
These were her favorite flowers and I am glad they are back with her.
At the house, they are thriving and I know with time, they are going to do well with her at the Cemetarty.
I then got my chair and sat beside her and talked to her. I always feel calm and relaxed when I am with her.
It was cool this morning and the birds were singing all their individual songs. It was so quiet , you could hear the leaves rustling in the trees when the wind blew. The wind chime was singing our song and I could have stayed with her all day. but I have to go to work again. I will be back to see her tomorrow if I can, If not, I will be back on Tuesday. But, I definitely will be with her on Wednesday, when I am off.
I bid her by for now but told her that I would be back soon. 
My love for her will never ever die
It grows stronger each day.
We shall be together again
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Off yesterday, had a busy day.
I cut the grass at the house, got a hair cut and had to  go see my eye doctor for my regular diabetic eye check up. The best part about yesterday was that I got to go see my lovely wife.
After I finished at the eye doctor; I went straight to the Cemetary to see her.
It had rain while I was at the doctor and when I arrived; the ground was wet but the storm had moved away.
I cleaned the grounds of the magnolia leaves and then took cloths and  cleaned our monument. The quick rain did make the temps drop dramatically. 
I got my chair out and spent the rest of the afternoon into the early evening with my lovely wife. We talked and cried over the things that had happened since last I went to see her. I was going to cut the grass but the dampness prevented that today but I am going to take care of that probably today or tomorrow. It depends if we have rain showers again. I still miss her so much. It will be 6 months on Tuesday since she left and received her angel wings. Tuesday will be a very bad day for me I know. I have to work evenings again the weekend, so I will have to get my visits in between the holiday work schedule.
I will be back on Saturday my love
My love for you will never ever die
We shall be together forever
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Unable to go see Nancy on Monday and Tuesday due to my work schedule was really taking a toll on me; so when presented to work early today and get off at 2 was like music to my ears. I could work and go see my lovely wife at 2.
I left work at 2 and quickly went to her side. It had rained a little, but it only helped with the relentless Mississippi summer hear.
I arrived and was surprised that the magnolia leaves were not that bad. I quickly raked them up and I noticed that a bird had messed up our monument, I took some water out and cleaned up the mess he made.
I then took my chair out of the van and sat beside her to enjoy my visit. I talked to her, how much I missed her and of the events that have happened at work since I last talked to her on Sunday.
I felt so relaxed that I was with her and just enjoyed being by her side.
The rain clouds were gathering up in the South; but that did not distain my visit with her. I just continued to enjoyed being by her side.
As the time wore on; the clouds were getting darker and threatening up with rain. The wind started picking up but I stayed; I did not want to leave her side, I never do.
I continue to talk to her and her achiminees were doing so well, I know that she is taking care of them. They are growing so well, I gave them a drink of water to help them cope with the heat; but they like the heat.
Lightning started to flash and thunder begin to rumble in the sky; the heat has a way of doing that. It forced me to leave but I told her that I would be back on Friday. I have my eye appt. with Dr. Bear and it is close by. I plan on spending more time with her. I am sure that I will have to clean water spots off of our monument. I know that the grass needs cutting again. 
Sleep well my love, I will be back
My love for you will never ever die
We shall be together forever
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I worked Friday til 11 and went home and went to sleep looking forward to seeing my lovely bride on Saturday. I awoke anew and went to Debbie, her sister, grand-daughter  4 year old birthday party. After the party, I left and went to Nancy's side around 2 and spent the rest of the afternoon with her. The magnolia leaves werent that bad and I quickly made hash of them. I then sat by her side and spent the rest of the afternoon into the erly evening with her. Talking to her and playing our music, it was a great day and visit. I told her that I would be back on Sunday, Father's Day, to see her again.
I left and went home to feed our babies and get some rest.
Sunday arrived and I went to church today, and went to the flying field to check out operation of the T-28 after a few upgrades. It flew well and then I left and went to go see Nancy.
I arrived with her and the cemetary was busy with many people there for Father's Day. The leaves were gone and after that I worked on butterfly maintanance.
I replace the ones that had lost wings and lost their colors; it looked much better with the new ones in their place.
I then sat by her side and stayed with her until 6. I had a good cry; having missing her and wishing that I would be able to be with her again soon.
My love has not faded and I knew that I am going to be with her one day. I am looking forward to that day when I will not have to leave her side.
My love for you has not faded, Nancy
My love for you will never ever die.
I will see you again my love on Tuesday.
My work schedule prevents me from seeing you on Monday.
We will be together again one day and when that happens; it will be a wonderful day.
I love you with my heart and soul
We shall be together forever
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I was unable to visit my bride on Wednesday due to my work schedule but I definitely kept my promise to see her on Thursday.
After work, I left and went to be by her side.
It was a hot day; but it didnt take me long to get to her. Traffic was light and I arrived to an almost empty Cemetary.
There were plenty of magnolia leaves to be raked away, which I quickly took care of. I noticed that the monuments were a little dirty due to rain spots and looked like a bird dropping on ours. I took some distilled water that I always keep in my van and I quickly make them look much better.
I then sat by her side and talked to her.
I told her of my day at work, how the babies were doing, and plans for the weekend.
I shed a few tears when I told her how much I loved her and how much I stilled missed her. I know that she would wipe away my tears if she could but she is preparing our mansion in heaven for when I will be by her side.
I told her that I would be back on Saturday and get to spend some extended time with her. I can hardly wait.
I had to leave after only an hour to go home and feed the babies and go to my model club meeting. She would want me to go, but to tell you the truth. I didnt have much fun. I would rather be with her and spend time with her.
I will be back Saturday, having to work nights again.
My love for you will never ever die, Nancy
I love you with all my heart and soul
We will be together one day and when that happens; our love will be ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of you, darling

I always kept my promises I made to Nancy and likewise at this time also. I promised that I would be back yesterday and true to my word, I returned to her yesterday.
I arrived around 11 after the due had dried on the grass and I began to trim the grass around her and my parents.
I carefully cut it and trimmed the grass so that it look like it should. It deposited the clippings on the monuments; but I carefully cleaned each one and brought them back to their prisstine condition.
It was a very warm day but it made no difference. After I finished, I sat under the magnolia tree for a little while and talked to her and played our music. The knats were very bothersome; so I sat beside her instead and continued our visit. I noticed that her achiminees were doing very well.What started off with one bloom has now grown to 5 and looks like it is going to continue to thrive. She loved them and grew them with love and now I am giving them back to he. Her plants at the house likewise are doing well also.
I miss her so much, I want to be with her. I want to feel her next to me and get a bear hug from her. I am so lonely and life continues to be  unbearable.
Its no fun any more without her with me; we were a team and now that team is broken. Work is starting to be a bear and I feel like they are not being fair about the work schedule. I am working more nights than I should but I dare not say anything., for fear of retaliation.
I will not be able to see her again until Saturday; due to my work schedule.
I had to leave earlier than I wanted to when a thunderstorm started moving in.
As I left; I promised her that I would be back Saturday. I will too
My love for you, darling, will nevr die
I love you with all my heart and soul
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Unable to go see Nancy on Friday due to my work schedule, I was looking forward to seeing her yesterday on Saturday. But, unfortunately when I got off from work; a thunderstorm prevented me from going to see her. I was more determined today that rain or shine that I was going to see my lovely wife. 
When I got off, it was raining again; but I left to go see her, as I got closer to her, the less it was raining.
When I arrived, there was no rain; in fact the clouds were leaving and the sun decided it was tired of playing hide and seek.
There was a few magnolia leaves on the plot which I quickly got rid of.
I took a towel and wiped the water droplets off of our monument.
I then took my chair out of my van and sat down beside her. We had a good conversation. After 2 days, we had a lot to catch up on. I missed her so much, it seemed right that I was again beside her. I played our wedding songs and played our butterfly song. The windchimes were singing very softly . A tree frog interupted the song to put in his rendition. It was so funny. I just sat there and talked to her over and over of what had gone on at home and at work. 
I did notice that the grass is growing with all of the showers that we have been having. I told her that I would be back tomorrow and cut the grass and make sure the monuments are washed and cleaned back to their pristine look.
It is right that I take care of them. She is my love and my life in death as it was in life.
I love you with all of my heart and soul , Nancy
My love for you will never die
We shall be together again
forever and ever
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I was off from work yesterday and decided to go flying before going to see Nancy.
Art Solonar went with me; he was one of Nancy's pallbearers and one of our good friends. It was a beautiful day and got an early start. We arrived at the flying field around 9 and quickly got things started. I had some good flights on the Super Cub and Preying Mantis. But when I tried to get the T-28 in the air; I had to abort because of a problem with the rudder function. Will have to check it out when I got home. Enjoyed being in the air and I could just see Nancy standing beside me guiding my actions on my planes. The mama sandpiper eggs still have not hatched yet; but mama is still there taking care of her four eggs. Around 12, we left and I was taking Art to see Nancy. He had yet to see her since the day of the funeral.
We arrived at the Cemetary and I saw that I needed to take care of some things. First, I had to rake the magnolia leaves off. Not too bad considering it had been 2 days since I had been there due to work schedule.Then I also noticed that the thunderstorm from the previous evening had cause water to be deposited on the monuments and water spots were there. I had a gallon of water in the van and I quickly dispatched them to their pristine condition. Art was impressed on how I had taken care of our gravesites. We stayed about an half hour; he had to get back home. I told Nancy that I would be back to see her on Saturday. I have to work again today at night. When I do come, I will cut the grass again. The rains are making the grass grow and it needs constant attention. I told her to sleep tight and I will be coming back; I always will come back, It is because I love her that I take care of her. I took care of her in life and now am taking care of her in death. 
When I do come back; I will stay longer
I love you with all my heart, Nancy
My love for you will never ever die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you
See you on Saturday, my beloved

Yesterday, I fulfilled my promise to Nancy and went to visit her. After I had lunch with my sister, I went to go see my wife. It was warm but there was a shade at the foot of her grave that I sat down and spent the afternoon with her.
There were no leaves on the ground this time, and I sat there and talked to her and played our wedding music for her and me.
The light breeze blew in the air and the windchimes were very lightly singing. It also caused some of the butterflies to flutter in the air. It looked like it was going to rain; but it never did. 
There were a few water spots on our monument, but I removed them with a damp cloth. The birds were very active and singing above in the magnolia tree.
I told her that I would not be able to come see her for the next 2 days due to my work schedule; but I will be there to see her on Thursday. 
I stayed until about 5:30 and then I had to leave and go home and take care of our babies. I miss her so much; sometimes it does everything in my power to leave. I just want to stay with her and never leave.
I love you with all my hear, Nancy
My love for you will never ever die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you
See you on Thursday, my beloved

After work on Saturday; I went to pay a visit to my wife Nancy, I could only stay a little while because it was 5 before I got off and I didnt know how long I could stay before they closed the gates. I will find out what time they close the gates to see how long I can stay in the future.
Sunday, I went to church and after church; I went to our flying field to get some touch and go practice with my Super Cub. It rained in Clinton on my way there, but when I came to the field, the rain quit. It was just a passing shower and the skies started opening up. Had a visitor at the field, a gentlemen who flys RC helicopters came to our field and expressed an interest in joining our club. I invited him to fly with me and he took me up on my offer and in turn is going to join our club. I stated til 3 and left to go see my lovely bride.
I arrived at the Cemetary about 3:30 and noticed that the shower I encountered on my way to Clinton had caused water spots on our monument as well as on my parents monument.
I had some water in my van, I proceded to clean them off and bring them back to the luster that they deserved.
I brought a chair with me and sat beside her. I told her all about my encounter at the flying field and how my touch and goes went. I cleaned the magnolia leaves off and just enjoyed being by her side.
Before long it was after 5 and I knew that I needed to go home and feed our babies. I told her that I would be back today and spend more time with her. I will always be by her side any time I get. I love you with all my heart, Nancy
I love you so much, Nancy
My love for you will never die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Working at my job yesterday, It was a rather pleasant day because I knew that after I was through I could go see my lovely bride Nancy.
I jouuneyed my way to her and arrived anxious for my visit. After my cleanup yesterday, the plot looked very good, in fact; the magnolia leaves were few and far between. Actually only 2 leaves had fallen since I raked and cleaned up yesterday.
I sat beside her and started talking to her. I told her of my day at work and how I was happy to be back by her side.
I talked to her of how my loneliness is getting worse. My heart has a hole in it and the doctors have no cure for it. 
There is only one cure for my heart and that is when I can be by her side and we be united forever. No one can tell me they know what I am going through until they actually experience the actual event. They say they are there for you, let me know; but that is a lie,
They forget about you, they have other things to do, they do not have time for me. An old man that has lost his spouse and lost a reason for living. But, enough of all that.
I stayed with her, and played our songs and just brushed the grass where her head is and told her that one day we will be joined again and we will be together. I know that she is waiting for me at he bottom of the stairs to our mansion; ready to lead me up those stairs and show me.
It will be wonderful to hold her in my arms again, and kiss her sweet lips.
To hear her sweet voice utter those wonderful words, I love you.
Had to leave at 6 to go home and feed our babies. Didnt want to, wanted to stay with her. 
Unable to visit today because of work schedule; but will be back on Saturday after work. Then I have off on Sunday and Monday; I will be back then also.
I love you so much Nancy
My love for you will die
Our love shall be Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Waking up in the darkness of early morning; I prepared myself for work but also made up the materials that I would need at the Cemetary. I poured my gallons of water and filled up the gas tank of the gas trimmer.
After work, I stopped and got the last item, a gallon of distilled water.
I arrived and the magnolia leaves were not that bad. It was a quick job to remove them and begin the edging.
I carefully trimmed the grass from the monuments and then worked on the grass on the rest of the plot. Afterwards, I washed and cleaned my parents monument and then work on Nancy and mine. Again, I brought them back to pristine condition.
After that, I sat beside my lovely bride"s side and talked to her and just enjoyed being by her side. I feel that she has talked to me this past few days by finding my birthday card from years past and finding her Achimindes plants blooming. She was a wiz at them and enjoyed growing them. I enjoyed seeing her work with them as much as she did growing them. They are beautiful.
A lady that has relatives buried across the area came and visited with us and was impressed with our plot. Her mther, daughter and husband are buried there and she , like me, is taking care of them.
She was especially impressed with Nancy"s windchimes as well as her pug on our monument. 
I thanked her for the compliments and she thanked me for hints on cleaning of the monuments. She said the method I used was good and it has improved her monuments in just one washing.
She left and I spent the rest of my visit with my lovely bride, talking to her and just enjoying being next to her.
I will go see her again tomorrow after work. I will always go see her every chance that I get.
I feel better when I do.
I love you with all my heart, Nancy
My love for you will never ever die.
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After church on Sunday, I hurried home to feed my pugs before visiting Nancy. I wanted to go see her before I had to work the 3-11 shift on Sunday.
After I got there, I raked the area and cleaned the monuments of water spots after an evening thunderstorm. While doing so, I hear the sound of thunder in the distant. It got louder and louder. I continued with my project, especially taking care of the ant bed on my parents side. I also delivered a special plant for Nancy. I noticed that her Achimenees are bloomed from last year; so I made a pot plant to place on her side. She loved those plants and it was a part of her. Upon placing the plant on the ground, it started raining. I went to the van and the bottom fell out. Hail started falling and the road was flooded with rain water forcing me to leave. I told her that I would be back today after work and clean up.
After work today, I went to her and the weather was very much improved. The sun was shining and the skies were blue.
I got there and to my surprise, there was very little evidence of a thunderstorm damage. I raked up the leaves, and the only cleaning to do was wiping the monuments with a damp cloth.
The potted plant was perfect, no damage at all of the huge torrent of water and wind yesterday.
I sat beside her and talked to her and told her about the surprise of her Achimenees . It was still blooming and the plant was doing quite well.
It felt so good to be back with her; this new work schedule is cutting into my visiting time and I will have to make adjustments.  
I will be back tomorrow and do some grass cutting, all these rains is making the grass grow and it show in the height of the grass.
I left about 6 to go home and feed the babies, but I will be back tomorrow, since I am off.
I never get tired of going to see her.
My love will never ever die
I love you with all of my heart, Nancy
My love will never die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I couldnt visit my wife yesterday due to my work schedule. 
I woke up this morning with one thing on my mind. To visit my lovely bride and to also take care of a fire ant bed that had made its nest next to my parents monument.
I had coffee and then proceded to travel to her side. It was 8:00 when I arrived and I had the entire cemetary to myself. Just me and her.
I raked the leaves away and noticed there were water spots on the monuments were a small rain had deposited itself on them.
I cleaned them with some distilled water and got them looking back to their spotless condition.
I took some ant poison and dusted the mound next to my parents and all it needs is one day and it will destroy the queen and the workers. 
After taking care of it, I sat beside her and talked to her of our memories and played our wedding songs and our special butterfly song. It was so nice the clear blue sky was beautiful with an occational cloud. The light breeze made her windchimes sings a very quiet like song. The birds were singing and it was very tranquil there with just me and her.
I found a surprise at home when getting ready to go see her. I found a birthday card that she had given me and it was like a special message to me. She wrote
"I will always love you and be here for you!" It was so special that I started crying tears. I believe that she is here by my side in spirit. We will be together again one day side by side forever and ever, ageless and evergreen.
I had to leave to come home and prepare to go to work, but I will see her again tomorrow after church before I have to go to work again tomorrow. 
I love you so much Nancy
My love for you will never ever die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After two days of not seeing my wife; I look forward to seeing her after my early shift on Wednesday.
Upon arrival, the magnolia leaves were all over the plot, so the first thing I did was rake the leaves off of the area.I then saw that the monuments were  water stained from the thunderstorms from the last 2 days. I cleaned both our and my parents and they looked a whole lot better.
I then sat beside her and told her all about my experiences the last two days. 
It felt good to be back by her side and the sun was playing hide and seek again.
I stayed til 5:30, and then I knew that I had to leave and go home and feed our babies. I told her that I would be back on Thursday, my day off.
Thursday started off cloudy and foggy, but it quickly cleared off and the sun was bright in the clear blue sky.
After my errands were complete at the house, I went to go see Nancy.
Upon arrival, I had the horror that I did not expect. The lawn crew had cut the grass erlier that morning and small bits of leaves were scattered all over the plot and both monuments were littered with grass shavings and magnolia leaves. 
I quickly raked the leaves off the plot again and got them raked to the side.
I then took what water I had and cleaned both monuments of the litter.
Finished with that, I sat by her side and enjoyed the rest of the afternoon with my visit. I talked to her and listened to her wind chimes playing in the light wind. The sky was a beautiful blue with billowy puffs of white cloulds and warm sunshine.
I noticed that overnight, an ant bed had started a bed next to my parents monument. When I return on Saturday, I will bring some ant powder and get rid of the infestation. It felt good to be back with her and enjoyed myself.
I will be back to see her, I will always be back to see her.
I love you so much Nancy
My love for you will never die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I went to church yesterday and after church, I went to go see my lovely wife.
It was a humid day, the sun was no where to be seen. The wind was blowing very strong and it made the tree limbs dance.
It made her wind chimes sing their song very loud. 
I cut the grass and trimmed around the monuments to prevent the lawn crew from running over her and my parents with their heavy lawnmowers.
After cutting the area, I then took my cleaning supplies and washed and cleaned the monuments. They looked so good after cleaning.
I then sat beside her and talked to her of my day at the field yesterday again and plans for flying her duck again.
She always loved that plane and I have to admit it; it is a good flying plane.
I played our wedding music again and just broke down and cried.
She is waiting for me in heaven I know and preparing our mansion. She is waiting for me at the foot of the steps to the mansion she is preparing and one day we will both walk up those stairs together never again to be separated ever.
I will hold her in my arms again and I will never let her go. To look into her loving eyes and see the twinkle in her cheeks as she smiles at me. To kiss her lips again and nuzzle her ears with my nose and hear her laughter at our happiness. I so look forward to that day.
I am ending my vacation today and will not be able to visit her until Wednesday due to my work schedule. Til then.
I love you so much Nancy
My love for you will never die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you.

The day started out foggy, but quickly cleared. I went flying with my buddy at our field in Clinton. I flew one of Nancy"s favorite airplanes; the Roly Mud Duck.
She always like the duck and we both loved its builder, Roly Scott. He has been gone for at least 10 years now, but, yesterday I know that he would be smiling knowing that his creation was still flying. Nancy always like the duck for the comical decals on it. I felt her prescence yesterday by my side as she lifted off and flew in the clear blue skies. I know that she would be happy.
After flying that morning, I left and went to be with her. The cemetary was quiet, but as I sat beside her; I told her all about her airplane and how well it flew. I played our wedding songs and cried as I listened to them and remembered our times together and how happy we were. I still miss her so much and want to be by her side. We will be together one day and we will never ever be separated again. I look forward to that day. 
They never cut the grass on Friday, I return to work on Monday at 3 and will not be able to visit her again until Wednesday because of my work schedule.
I will see her again after work on Wednesday.
I love you so much Nancy
My love for you will never die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to go see Nancy this afternoon,
I had finished my errands for the day and was going to spend the afternoon with her
I arrived and the work crew were cutting grass and trimming in the adjacent section
I stayed with her for about an hour and noticed they were paitently waiting for me to leave so that they could start on the section where my wife was.
I left but told my wife that I would be back on Saturday.
I am flying at the North field with the Natchez Trace Bandits. After I fly that morning, I will go see and spend the afternoon with my wife, Nancy
On Sunday, I am sure I will have to trim around the monuments and wash them of the trimmings.
I will be back tomorrow, my love
I love you Nancy
My love for you will never ever die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After I finished some errands here at the house, I went to go see my wife. My main concern was a thunderstorm the evening before and I wanted to check the monuments for dirt deposited on it by the splash of the raindrops.
I got there and sure enough, the thunderstorm had made the monuments dirty by the sheer force of the rain. I got out a towel and some water and quickly cleaned off  the monuments. They looked much better.
A wind was blowing out of the North and  it made sitting beside her  a little cold. I got my blanket and wrapped around me and sat in my chair and talked to my lovely bride. I still am missing her so much. How much longer am I going to have to bear this pain? I want to see her again and feel the touch of her hands on my head. The smell if her hair as I nuzzle her head, the taste of her lips on my lips. I pray the Lord helps me, Right now, life is not any fun.
I played our butterfly song for her and looked for a butterfly on the horizon, the cold has them in the trees waiting for a warmer day.
Even the cicadas are quiet today due to the cold air from the front moving through.
I will go to her this afternoon and spend the afternoon with her. I never tire of being with her. This was my promise that I made her 33 years ago, to take care of her. 
I love you, Nancy
I miss you so much, 
My love for you will never die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I went flying yesterday with my flying buddies at our field in Clinton. It wasnt as good as it was the day before. Cloudy skies, high winds and the field was wet.
It eventually faired off and got a few flights in , but it was still not anything to brag about.
I left them and went to go visit Nancy.
When I arrived, the skies were better; but the sun was playing its old game of hide and seek.
I raked the leaves off the plot and then sat beside her. I told her of my flying experience that day and how our babies were doing. The birds were singing their songs and you could hear the windchimes were singing along. I played our butterfly song and just cried that the words in it were so true.
It rained very hard last night and I will go see her today and make sure that the monuments are clean. The rain has a habit of dirtying the monuments.
It will be soon time to cut the grass again. The Miracle grow is helping the grass green. I will also need to replace some more butterflies that have been damaged from the winds and the rain. I am still crying every morning from missing her so much.
I miss you so much, Nancy
My love for you will never die
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Yesterday was a very rainy and dreary day.Today was quite the opposite. The day opened up with the sun shining and beautiful blue skies.
I decided to go fly my radio control planes before I would go see my lovely wife.
I was at our flying field in nearby Clinton and you could not ask for a better day. The skies above were a brillant blue with billowly clouds and the trails of jets way up in the upper level of the sky. I flew my aircraft and it felt good to be back on the sticks again. She would be proud of me flying my aircraft. After a couple of hours; I decided it was time to go see my wife.
I left and went straight to her. Upon arrival, I raked the leaves from our plot and then took a damp cloth to clean our monuments from the aftermath of a thunderstorm yesterday.
I got my chair out, because the ground was still wet from the rain and put it right by her side. I talked to her and told her of my flying adventures. I told her that I loved her and that I would always take care of her as I should. I took care of her in life and now am taking care of her in her eternal rest.
I want to be with her but the Lord has a plan for me and he will let me be with her when it is my time.
I know that she is paitently waiting for me and we will be joined together again and never be separated again.
I stayed with her today until it was time to go home reluctantly and feed our babies.
I love our babies very much and they miss her also. I just hate to leave her, I am complete when I am beside her and talking to her. 
I am going flying with my flying buddies tomorrow at the field; after we get through , I will go see her again. Anytime that I have to opportunity to see her, I will be by her side
I love you so much, Nancy
My love for you will never die
You are my life and my soul
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

It was a very busy weekend working at the Trail of Honor with my modeling buddy Doug, We exhibit aircraft from World War II for the veterans but I didnt let it keep me from my lovely wife, Nancy
On Saturday, I broke away from the exhibit and went straight to her side. It had rained earlier and the grass and monuments were wet. I took a towels and absosrbed the excess water and then I took my chair out and sat by her side til the early evening. I talked to her and told her how much I loved her and how much I missed her. We listened to our wedding music and the sound of her wind chimes were a welcomed addition to the songs.
As the faint drops started falling again, I left and went home to feed our babies.
The next day, Sunday, I went to her side early that morning before the Trail of Honor opened for the day. It was a quiet and peaceful morning: I was the only one in the cemetary and after I cleaned the excess water off of the monuments, I sat beside her and talked to her and played our wedding songs. The sun was playing hide and seek, but it did not matter. I was with her and that was all that mattered. I started cying that morning, I miss her so much, and want to be with her .
That is the way it should be, me and her beside each other forever and ever.
I had to leave her and go to the Trail but I will be back Monday and spend more time with my love.
I love you so much, Nancy
My love for you will never die
You are my life and my soul
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Yesterday was my first day of vacation and I could not think of any thing better than go see my lovely wife.
I went in the early afternoon, my main mission was to trim the grass, it had grown and it needed it very badly.
I trimmed the area very carefully, The trimmings deposited themselves on the monuments, which I had already expected.
I brushed the shavings off and washed the monument very gently in Ivory dishwashing soap . I rinsed the soap off with tap water and then rinsed that with distilled water. The monuments were very beautiful and shined in the afternoon sun. I then took a towel to the excess water in the lettering and figures to keep an water spots from drying and leaving residue.
I then sat by her side and talked to my lovely wife. I wasnt able to see her on Wednesday due to my work schedule and I missed talking to her. We talked of the wonderful times we had and what it is going to be like when we are reunited together. I can hardly wait.She was and is my soul mate and it is hard to be separated. I plan on seeing her every chance I can get on vacation.
We will have a lot of time together.
I love you so much Nancy
My love will never die
You are my life and my soul
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Got off at work early today due to the fact that I went in at 6 in the darkness before light. It was finally raining very lightly; first rain in about 2 weeks.
As I was traveling to the Cemetary; it was raining, but as I got closer, the rain stopped.
Upon arrival, I got out of the van and saw that there was evidence of a steady rain by looking at the monuments. Rain had collected on them in the form of residue of rain in the letters and images.
I took a towel and proceded to dry up the rain on the monuments, they looked a lot better afterward. I raked the few leaves on the ground to the side, glad there was not as many as it was the day before. One reason was also there was only a light wind in the air.
Afterwards, I sat in my lawn chair that I had put beside her and talked to her and looking at her wind chimes, I am going to have to replace a few butterflies that have lost a wing or two.
I stayed with her for a couple of hours and just enjoyed being with her and by  her side.
The light breeze made the chimes sing a beautiful song of love for me and her.
I will be back on Thursday, first day of my vacation, to cut the grass.
I will also wash the monuments to get rid of the grass shavings.
I was given a picture on facebook today by my sister that helped me imeasely .
It showed a man being hugged by Jesus.
The man said that he was tired, depressed, hurt, sad and very alone.
Jesus said I will always be with you and hold you and remember that you are not alone. That man, I felt was me. He expressed all the feelings I have had since she passed away. I pray that He will always be there to help me until that day when I will be reunited with my lovely bride.
I love you so much, Nancy
My love will never ever die
You are my life and my love
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to my fly in on Saturday. It was a beautiful day and met some fliers that did not know about Nancy passing away.
They were all sad because Nancy was always a part of the fly ins. She would welcome them to the event and talk to them and their kids. Help with the raffle and registration. They all said how the event was different that she was not there. I tried to subsitute in her place; but I can never replace her.
After the fly in was over, I went to her and told her all about the event. The wind had picked up and I had a hard time raking up the leaves and trying to keep the area clean. After cleaning, I sat beside her and talked to her, told her about my flights and how everyone missed her and told her how much they loved her.
I stayed till about 6 and left for the day. Sunday was going to be Mothers Day and my sister was going to come visit her.
Sunday arrived, I went to church and after church, I went straight to see and be with her.
Upon arrival at the gate, the personel were handing out carnations in honor of Mothers Day. I got 3; 1 for Nancy and 1 each for my mother and father. I raked the leaves off of the plot when my saw my sister coming. She was accompanied by Maci, my neices daughter. A pleasnt surprise.
This was the first time that my sister had seen the monument since it had been installed.
She was impressed and said it was beautiful. They also had carnations and it was special that Maci put them on the markers.
They stated a while and she invited me to supper for Mothers Day. After they left; I stayed with my lovely wife and visited with her in honor of Mothers Day.
Today after work, I went to her side after work. It was threatening rain; it rained a few drops but it never came.
I am going to have to cut the grass again. It is growing quite well and is needing constant maintenance.
I will see her again tomorrow after work. I got some new butterflies to replace the ones that were damaged in the high winds. I am on vacation starting on Thursday, May 14. I plan to see her quite a bit.
I love you so much Nancy
My love will never die
You are my life and my love still
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Got an unexpected surprise yesterday when I was asked to come to work early. This meant that I could go see my lovely wife.
After my shift, I quickly drove to her and got out of my van.
I quickly noticed that the magnolia tree that is close to her and my parents started shedding its leaves. I quickly grabbed my rake and cleaned the area clear of them, she hated magnolia trees.
The monuments were still clean from when I last cleaned them and in the clear blue sky, the letters and figures shone as a golden hue.
I spread my blanket beside her and sat beside her.
It felt so good to be by her again. I shed a few tears of joy knowing that I was again by her.
We talked and listened to the birds, and the wind making her chimes sing their song of the air.
I could hear the hum of the song of the cicadas in the nearby forest. I saw them emerging at our home and now they are in the woods singing their song of love.
I still miss her, I miss her more each day. I received a text of scripture and encouragement from my niece. It helped me, I read it to her.
I will be back on Saturday to spend some time with her after our RC fly in in Clinton. She always enjoyed going to the event with me and renewing friendships from contests back. They all loved her and she loved them/
My sister will make the journey Sunday to our site to see her and my mother on mothers day. I can hardly wait
I love you so much Nancy
My love will never die
You are my life and my love still
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After going to see Nancy yesterday; my visit was cut short due to the face they were cutting grass in our section. I left early but I had the foresight to go get some distilled water. I knew if they cut grass anywhere near her; the monuments were going to need washing afterwards.
I arrived today after work, and true to my words; when I walked up to it. There were leaves and grass pieces all over the plot and on the monuments.
I took my rake and prceded to remove all of the grass and leaves from the plot.
I carefully raked them to the area of the magnolia tree. After raking, I cleaned both my parents and our monuments with the ivory soap and distilled water. I restored them to their original condition. and to my satisfaction.
I then spread my blanket beside her and talked to my Nancy. I had a good visit with her. It felt good to be back with her and listen to the music of her wind chimes in the air.
The sky was blue with billowey clouds and the sun played its usual game of hid and seek.
Temps were a little warm but with the clouds; it was very comfortable.
I will not be able to see her tomorrow due to my work schedule; but I will be there on Thursday. On Sunday, mothers day, my sister will be there to visit my mother and it will be my sister's first visit to see our monument in person.
I am looking forward to it. 
I love you so much Nancy
My love will never ever die
You are my life and my love still
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to see my beautiful wife yesterday after church services.
I arrived  and went immediately to her, spread my blanket and talked to her and brushed the grass on her resting spot.
It was right that I was with her, spending my time taking care of her as I did when she was at home.
Talking to her, looking at her, just being with her, I was content.
The sun was playig its old game of hide and seek, but eventually It abandoned its game and stayed out and warmed me and her.
I buffed our monument and it was looking much better than the day before; the wax is doing a good job
Time passed and before I knew it, it was after 6, I had arrived there at 1
I will be back today after I cut the grass at our home.
The roses are blooming their hearts out for her, her angel trumpets are beginning to grow, every plant the she touched is beginning to bloom. As a tribute to her. 
I love you so much Nancy
My love will never ever die
You are my life and my love still
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you.

Went yesterday to see Nancy, and to also trim the grass on our plot.
I didnt get to leave work as early as I wanted to but this did not stop me from going to see her.
It was a pretty day and when I arrived, there was not a cloud in the sky. I immediately went to my work after saying hello to her,
I got the trimmingdone and then I washed the monuments of the trimmings and dirt.
It was a nice site to see both monuments, ours and my parents, look so clean and shinny. I stayed with her a while talking to her and just being with her by her side. I told her that I would be back Saturday to wax the monuments.
It is Saturday now, and I arrived by her side and I waxed both monuments and buffed them to a clean shine. They both shined like a new penny. 
After waxing, I sat beside her and enjoyed my visit. Talking to her and listening to the music of the wind chimes. I could have stayed there all day but I had to leave in order to go to work.
I will be back on Sunday after church.
We will spend the day together as it should be, together as man and wife.
I love you so much Nancy
My love will never die
You are my love, my life
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

The day was too beautiful not to go see my wife Nancy today.
The sun was shinning brightly in the blue sky and it was an open invitation to go see her after work.
When I arrived I grabbed my blanket and walked up to her from the van. I also carried my buffing rag and buffed shinned the monument from the cured wax from yesterday. It shined like a new penny. 
I spread my blanket beside her and I sat down and started talking to her.
We talked of our love and the times of our previous visits.
I played our wedding songs and also the song of her flowers, 
The wind was singing through her wind chimes and sang a song of love that was beautiful.
I stayed with her until after 6 PM when I reluctantly left to go home and feed our babies.
I will be back tomorrow after work. It is going to be another beautiful day and I am going to cut the grass again .
After cutting, I will wash the monument again. I will be back this weekend to spend more time with my lovely wife.
I love you so much Nancy
My love will never ever die
You are my love, my life
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

The day started off cold as a front moved over the state. Temps were in the low 50s
but quickly warmed up as the sun rose above the horizon.
I was off today and looked forward to going to go see my wife after I had some bussiness to do.
After I finished my task, I quickly went to her.
It was absolutely beautiful, warm temps and the sun illuminated the sky. The sky was blue with thin wisps of clouds.
The wind was a little high but bearable.
I left my van and went to her. There was no magnolia leaves on the ground today to my surprise.
I spread my blanket beside her and told her what I had accomplished on my task.
I know she would be happy on my work.
I laid beside her and talked to her and enjoyed myself very much.
The monument was clean with no stains .
I got out the can of wax and proceded to wax our monument. It was a easy process and the monument looked a whole lot better. I will take a buffing rag tomorrow and buff it to a sheen after the wax has cured. I also waxed my parents monument also.
What I accomplished today will help when that time comes when we are reunited together again.
I miss her more and more each day and it becomes harder each day to leave her when I am with her.
I feel so complete when I am beside her and look forward to the day when I will not have to leave her alone.
I love her so much
I love her so much my wife
I love her so much my soul mate
I love you so much Nancy
I will see you again tomorrow after work
I love you so much
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to go see my lovely wife today after work today.
The weather was unusually different as there was a cool snap in the air and the wind was very cool.
I got there and immediately raked the magnolia leaves from the site.
It left the plot clean and serene
I spread my  blanket on her side and sat down beside her.
I talked to her and we enjoyed our visit 
After an hour and a half, I felt the drops of a rain begilnning to fall.
I told her that I would be off tomorrow and that I would return to see her.
I love you so much, my lovely wife
I love you so much, my soul mate
I love you so much
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to see my wife on Saturday morning; but it was cloudy and threatening rain.
I stayed long enough to fix some wind damage from a thunder storm from the evening. It caused one of her flower arrangements to tip over and some mud was on our monument. I had water and a towel in the van and I proceded to clean the monument and fix the flowers.
I stayed a few hours and talked to her in hopes the sun would come out of its hidding place. It did not. I reluctantly left about 3 and went home to cut grass and clean the sidewalks.
I told Nancy that I would be back on Sunday after work.
I went to work today and the only thing that helped me through the day was the thought that I was going to be with Nancy after I finished.
I finished my shift and immediately went to her.
I arrived, and the sun was playing its old hide and seek game, but it was nice and comfortable.
I raked the magnolia leaves from our plot and cleaned the residual grass shavings .
It looked so much better.
I spread my blanket beside her and proceded to talk to her and brush her face grass.
Talking to her about crying last night and told her how much I missed her. How much I still needed her. How I was going to be with her one day and we will never ever be separated again.
I laid down beside her and just whispered to her how much I love her and how much I need her and how she will and always be a part of my life.
The light wind blew against the wind chimes and played her music in the afternoon air.
If my work schedule changes, I will be back tomorrow. If it does not, I will be back on Tuesday afternoon. I will always come back, I am so lonely, I need her. I am lost inside of her.
I love you so much baby,
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you.

Went to see my wife before I have to go to work today, and finish weedeating our section.
I carefully trimmed around the monuments and cut the grass around the plots.
After trimming, I washed our monument and my parents monument and got it looking nice and clean.
Stayed with her for a while and talked to my lovely wife. Played our wedding songs and listened to her sweet music of her wind chimes.
I will be back tomorrow. I am off from work, and will replace some of her butterflies that have lost some wings.
I took care of her in life and and now am taking care of her while she is in rest.
I love you so much, baby
I love you so much, Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After waking up in the darkness of the beginning of the day to go to work, I got off in the early afternoon. I then journeyed to see my beautiful wife,
Upon arrival, I retrieved my blanket and carried it to her resting spot and spread it out by her.
I sat beside her and just enjoyed the day, sitting beside her, talking to her, napping with her.
The sun was playing its old game of hide n seek. I have become a pro at it, He finally relented and lit the blue sky.
I enjoyed myself and didnt want to ever leave,
About 5, I had to leave and go home and feed our babies. I work tomorrow and will go see her again. Anytime I have the chance to see her, I will go.
She is my love, my life, my soul mate, in life and in death.
I took care of her when she was living and now am taking care of her in death.
I gladly accept this responsibility, because I love her and this is what I am suppose to do.
One day I will lie beside her and we will never ever be separated again.
We will soar so high in the sky together forever.
I will see you tomorrow my love, 
I love you so much, Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I went to go see my endocrinologist today and then I went to go see my lovely wife, Nancy.
I had to stop by the house first to retreve a jacket. Overnight, a front came through and it was a little on the cool side.
I arrived at Lakewood, and walked to her.
Upon arrival, I noticed that a mockingbird had decated on our monument.I returned to my vehicle and got some water and towels and quickly cleaned it off.
I spread my blanket beside her and began talking to her of the results of my doctor visit.
The sun was high in the sky; but the wind made it a little chilly.
I still stayed because I wanted to be with her.
She is my wife and no matter what, I will always be there for her.
The time passed way too quickly and I had to go home and feed our babies.
I have to work early tomorrow and I will go to see her after work.
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After a stormy and rainy night; Sunday awakened to a beautiful sunny day.
I went to church and after church; I journeyed to see my lovely wife.
My first mission was to weed eat the grass surrounding the monuments and graves of my wife and my parents.
I cut the grass around them and then I noticed that the shavings of the grass was deposited on the monuments. I then cleaned each monument very carefully and restored them to their clean pristine condition.
I then unfolded my blanket by Nancy and spent the rest of the day beside her .
I talked to her and brushed the grass where her head lay.
I played our wedding songs and enjoyed the day in the warm sunshine and clear blue skies . 
The birds were singing and the soft wind played in her wind chimes.
I couldnt help but admire my handy work
It looked so good, Even though, they cut the grass a week ago, it needs cutting again. But, our plots are neat and trimmed; this way they have no need to run over her or my parents to cut the grass. I plan on keeping this up at least once a week. I do not want them to do any damage to our plots.
I will come back tomorrow after my appt. with Dr. Woo.
I can hardly wait
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

I went to go see my lovely wife today after work. It was cloudy when I left my job; but when I arrived at the cemetary.
It was absolutely beautiful.
The skies opened up and the sun was in full bloom. The blue of the sky was accented by the beauty of the sun.
I spread my blanket beside her and sat down and talked to her. It was nice and warm and the wind caused the wind chimes were singing their sweet song.
I had to go and meet her sister for supper; but I will be back tomorrow morning to spend some time with my wife before I have to go to work that night.
Sunday will be a good day to spend time with her after church, suppose to be pretty.
Any day with her is a good day.
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Received a call from my doctor's nurse at noon today that the doctor would call me today with my test results in the afternoon.
I got off at 4 and preceded to go see my lovely wife. If I was going to receive any news from my doctor, either good or bad, I wanted my wife to be with me.
I arrived at the cemetary and got my blanket and spread it along her side. We talked and laughted and cried waiting for the doctor to call. 
It was an absolutely beautiful day, the sun wasnt playing hide and seek, it was shining brightly in the sky. I bathed myself in its warmth and beauty. It reflected on our monument and on the grounds.
Time just seemed to slip by and the doctor did not call and I saw the sun slowly slipping behind the clouds and trees as time eased by. Before I knew it, it was already 6:15. I had to leave and feed our babies. I will be back on Friday; I have to work late on Thursday. I love her so much. Maybe the doctor will call back tomorrow and I can tell my lovely wife the news.
I will see you my beloved on Friday
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After coming to work in the predawn hours today; what a wonderful way to end the day than to go see my beautiful wife.
I got off at 2 and went straight to her side.
Arriving there, the clouds were not too dark, and the temps were good.
The rain on the previous day did not kick up too much dirt on the monument.
I was able to wipe it off with a towel but I will bring some distilled water next time and give the monument a good cleaning.
I spread my blanket beside her and talked to her and we  laughed and cryed together.
I miss her so much, I want to be with her so much, but I will have to be patient.
The Lord has a plan for me, I do not know what, and has promised that we will be together again someday. And want that day be wonderful. To be reunited with Nancy, and never again to be separated again. I won't have to ever leave her side again one day; we will be together forever.
I will see you tomorrow after work
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After my test procedure at St Dominic Hospital; I went to go see my lovely wife, Nancy.
When I arrived, the clouds were dark, and the sun was hidden by them. I went straight to my love.
I talked to her and I replaced two butterflies on the flower vase on the monument; they were damaged by high winds last month. They look beautiful now, fresh and colorful.
I removed some more magnolia leaves from her site, she hated magnolia leaves.
I then sat by her side and talked to her and listened to her wind chimes singing their songs.
After about an hour, I heard the tap, tap, tap of rain drops starting to fall.
I told her that I would go , but I will be back tomorrow after work. I will let her know my test results as soon as the doctor tells me.
I looked over my shoulders as I walked to the car and told her that I loved her, always will, look forward to the day that I will not have to go, the day that we will be reunited forever and ever.
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to go see my loving wife today after church.
When I got there, it was clouldy and look like it was going to rain, but the sun did not let me down. It wanted to play its old game and sure enough I won, It came out and illuminated the surrounding area.
I spread my blanket next to her and talked to her and we had a good conversation about my medical procedure tomorrow. I prayed to have God watch over me and I know that my Nancy will be by my side also.
As I sat beside her, I rearanged a pot of flowers so that it was better viewed.
I plan on doing butterfly duty tomorrow after I get through with the doctor.
I need to replace 2 butterflys around the monument base. The wind has torn their wings.  
I fell asleep for a few minutes next to her and it was so peaceful. I could have stayed all night. Unfortunately, I had to go home and feed our babies, what seem like minutes was actually 4 hours, but one day we will be reunited and time will have no meaning. We will be together forever.
I will see you tomorrow again my love.
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to go see my beautiful wife, Nancy, after work yesterday. I carried her sister, Debbie, with me. She had never seen the grave site. It was a cool day after a afternoon rain shower had moved through earlier in the day.
It dropped temps and the clouds were gray and dark.
We arrived about 4:30 and we could tell the results of the rain.
Splatter had put dirt on the monument and it had dried on the edges of the images.
I had some distilled water left and I cleaned our monument and used a towel to drop the water droplets which brought our monument up to par, It looked a whole lot better.
Some more magnolia leaves had dropped and I used a rake to remove them from the area.
We stayed about an hour and a half; I left and told Nancy that I would be back on Sunday to spend the afternoon with her after church.
I will be back to spend time with her and talk to her and play our wedding music.
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Before going to work today, I went to go see my beautiful wife.  The sun was up to its old tricks again. It was playing hide and seek between the clouds. When it did show its face, it illuminated the grounds and then it would hide behind another clould. I looked in the horizon and saw the glow of the sun chase the ground.
I laid my blanket beside her and we talked and I cryed missing her so much.
I saw a message on my phone that helped me; he said that one day I would not be lonely any more. He said that Christ would give my strength, and when that day comes, it will be a glorious day.
It brought tears to my eyes. I will be back to see her tomorrow after work.
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After having lunch with my sister, I went to see my lovely wife Nancy. I arrived there around noon and started my work. I first cleaned my parents monument and got it looking much better. I then cleaned mine and Nancy's monument and it looked just like it did when it was first laid.
I then spread my blanket on the ground next to her and talked to her.  The wind was blowing a little brisk but it made the wind chime sing a lovely song while we had our conversation.
I laid down and napped next to my sweet wife dreaming of the times we had shared and of the times we are goig to have when we are reunited.
I awoke and just sat there and looked at her and was at peace.
Time had no place there; before I knew it, I had been there 4 hours. I had to leave and go home and feed our babies.
I will go back on Thursday morning and spend some time before I have to go to work. I love spending time with her; it makes the day go by a little easier.
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After work today, I went and spent the afternoon with my lovely wife, Nancy.
As I drove up, my prediction of yesterday was realized as I saw the mowers had cut the grass flowers from their place of growing.
As I walked to her place of rest, I saw that our monument and my parents monument had pieces of grass and dirt from the lawn mowers. I tried to wipe them off but ;; the combination o rain and hear made them stick to them. I will be back tomorrow and give both of them a good washing bringing them back to their original look.
I spread my blanket beside her and talked to her. I played our wedding songs and just enjoyed being next to her.  I repaired her damaged butterflies and put some dragonflies on her windchimes. We both enjoyed wataching dragonflies fly in our back yard. They were natural helicopters flying up and down.
I will put some more there when I get the chance. I continued to sit by her and before I knew it; It was time to go feed the babies. I had been there for 3 hours, but it felt like 3 minutes.
I will be back tomorrow.
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to go see. my lovely wife, Nancy, after my doctor's appt.
The sun was playing hide and seek. When it was in view; it shine in the cloudy sky and it lit the ground.
I spread my blanket bedside her and told her about my appt
We laughed and cried and remembered about past times
The wind was blowing through her wind chimes constantly
The wind was blowing through the grass flowers
The tranquility of the day was interrupted by the sound of lawn mowers. I am afraid the next time I go, the grass flowers will be gone but they will be back
I will be back tomorrow to lay by her and spend the remainder of the day after work
I love you so much Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to see my wife yesterday on Easter Sunday. Unfortunately it was raining when I got off. Did not stop me, I went, opened my umbrella, and stood by her and visited her for about an hour. I cleaned our monument with cleaner of all of the dirt and pollen. It looked a lot better. I kept standing there and talking to her and playing our music.
I started crying, missing her even more in the rain and on a holiday.
I told her that I had to go see my sister but that I would be back on Monday after my doctor's appt. 
I love you Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to see my loving wife after work today. Today on Holy Saturday, I went to her and laid my blanket beside her and talked to her of our wonderful times we had together.  
The skies were clear and the sun was shining in all of its beauty and warmth.
I played her our wedding songs and just looked at her and smiled when I knew she would be pleased and smiling.
I will be back tomorrow on Easter Sunday after work and stay with her until the close of the day. I love her so much; it is hard to leave her and go home.
I love you Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to see my loving wife, Nancy, today.
It is a beautiful warm day. The sun was playing its old game of hide and seek with the thick clouds. The wind was blowing very hard from the South; making the grass flowers dance over the grounds of the Cemetary. Their days may be numbered; I noticed the grounds crew cutting grass and I am sure when I come back tomorrow, they will be gone until they fight their way back into the sky.
I spread my blanket and the ground and talked to her about things and how much I missed her.
I tried to play our music but there were problems with the internet, have to try again tomorrow.
It is Good Friday and I know that Nancy is in the palm of God's hands.
She has no pain, can breathe without the need of a trachea,can walk with the angels, and is preparing our mansion.
I still miss her so much, her beautiful eyes, her little smirk of a smile, the way she cocks her head when she laughs and wants me to talk to her.
I miss her touch when I need encouragement, her understanding when I need her input. her embrace when I need a hug, her sweet lips when we kiss, her smell , the feel of her hair on my shoulder when we embrace. I want all that back and more.  I want to be with her.  I want to be with her now.
One day we will be together and shall be together forever.
I will be back tomorrow after work and together we will close the day together.
I love you Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Getting ready to leave for work and I look outside. It was cloudy and looking like rain. But I look outside and the sun is shining. My thoughts go out to my wife and wish I could go see her today. But, Obligations keep me from going to see her today. I will go see her tomorrow, she is still my wife and always shall be.
I love you Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Could not go to see my wife yesterday due to my work schedule. 
Today is 3 months to the day that I lost her to her illness.
Not a day has gone by that I have not missed her and wished that she was still with me.
But I know that she is waiting for me at the foot of the stars to heaven. We will be together again one day and I so look forward to that day.
My tears are now tears of sorrow in missing her and wishing she was with me; but that day will be tears of joy that we are together again, forever=
ageless and evergreen.
I will see her tomorrow on Friday as we celebrate Good Friday.
She is with Jesus now and not in pain,
she has a new body and is smiling at me.
I will see you tomorrow my love,
I love you Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to see my beautiful wife yesterday and today after work and spent the end of the day with her. The sun was playing its usual game of hide and seek; and the wind was blowing across the grass flowers making them dance in the sunshine.
I spread my blanket beside her and just talked to her and we listened to our wedding songs and I laughed and cried of all of the good times that we shared.
I added some more butterflies to her flowers and windchimes and looked up and saw we had company, 2 swallowtail butterflies were flying near us and feeding on the nectar of the grass flowers. I am sure Nancy enjoyed the view of the butterflies as they descended and ascended on each flower drinking the liquid of the flowers.
I just stayed by her until the sun went behind the clouds and the magnolia trees and caused a shade to fall on the cemetary.
I will be back again on Good Friday before I have to go to work. 
I have to work Easter, but will be there after work and spend the end of the Easter Holiday with her
I love you Nancy,
Ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of you

After attending the modeling sow in New Orleans yesterday; I stopped by the Cemetary to see my beautiful wife.
It was a pretty day with the sun illuminating the sky against the clouds. 
I stayed with her a while and talked to her and enjoying her company.
The birds were singing a beautiful song with the accommodate of her windchimes 
Our monument was shining in the sunshine , I know that she would be proud of it.
The grass still had the beauty of small purple flowers across the field.
I had to leave at 5; to go homeand feed our babies but I will be back on Sunday after work to spend the afternoon with her.
The time I look forward to
I love you Nancy
Ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to see my beautiful wife today before I have to go to work this afternoon.
It is an absolutely beautiful morning there, the sun was shining in a cloud encrusted day, the birds were singing, and a light breeze blew across the field making her wind chimes sing a light song on the air.
I sat beside her and talked to her and we just enjoyed being together as it should be, she and I together.
I placed a few fresh butterflies to replace those that were damaged in the chill of the month.
I will be back this weekend to spend more time with her.
I love you so much, Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to see my beautiful wife today after work and I was not disappointed. It was beautiful today. The sun played hide and seek until it was below the horizon. I sat by her side and talked to her and played our wedding music.
Our monument is looking good and has a light layer of pollen on it.
The sod on her place of rest is starting to turn green. Meaning that it will soon be a layer of grass.
Looking over the cemetary, the grass is sporting a layer of small flowers. The rain has taken the blooms of the pear trees and left a layer of green.
The wind was blowing and her wind chimes were singing their sweet song of happiness.
I reluctanly had to leave to go home and feed the children, 
I will be back on Thursday ; I am looking forward to it already.
I love you so Much, My beloved Nancy
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you.

Went to visit my wife on March 22, after church. It was still misting rain but I stayed to talk to her and visit with her.
The birds were singing their songs of joy and it made the day a little better to deal with. 
It is suppose to be sunny on Tuesday; will go see her after work and spend the afternoon with her.
I am missing her even more each day, Sunday, I started crying because I am so alone and long for her touch, her kiss, her laughter, and her smell.
I miss her so much.
I will see you Tuesday, my love
Nancy, I love you so much
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you

Went to see Nancy yesterday on March 21,
The rain was hard and unrelenting but I was determined to go see my wife. The rain was soaking the new monument but at least it washed the dust off of it that was on it when they placed it.
I will be returning today after church to see her again. The weather is better and I will go see her.
Nancy, I love you so much
Ageless and evergreen
I am lost inside of you

It was such a pretty day yesterday after all of the rains, I went to go see my wife after work.
I arrived around 5 and the sun was playing hide and seek as it was getting ready to set.
I spread my blanket beside her and talked to her and played our wedding songs.
I am missing her even more each day and
I want to see her so bad.  I am not feeling good, loneliness is a villian that knows no bounds.
The sunshine would peed in and out of the clouds, and illuminate the cemetary.
I will go to her on Saturday and Sunday and spend more time with her
Nancy, I love you so much
Ageless and Evergreen
I am lost inside of you.

Unable to see Nancy on Sunday due to my  work schedule. I took off early today to go see my lovely wife.
As I walked up to her place of rest; the grass was a purple carpet of flowers shining in the sun.
As I neared her closer and closer, I got a surprise.
Our monument was already installed on our plot.
It was beautiful, the marble base was the same color as my parents.
The bronze monument was attached and it was shining in the sun. Her pug was in the proper place and so was the pilot figure on my side.
All the wording was spelled correctly and the wedding date was in the right place with the words ageless and evergreen in the center.
I broke down and cried tears, but it was not tears of sorrow; but tears of joy that it was finally in place  on our grave.
I rearranged the flowers and winchimes so that it was better looking where they had moved them.
I left for a few minutes to get some fresh roses to put in the vase in the center of the monument. It was beautiful
I spread a blanket beside her and stayed there talking to her, playing our songs and just being next to her in peace.
I had to leave at 5 to go home and feed the babies.
I will be back Saturday to spend more time with her

James, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I just found out today. May God's grace comfort and keep you in this time of sorrow.

OBITUARY

Nancy Carol Robinson

September 9, 1956 – December 30, 2014

Baldwin-Lee Funeral Home

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