Eternal love, life and energy. Love you from this lifetime into the next. ♥️  111

ever since i got my tattoo for you, i have been extra sad. i think looking at it reminds me that you’re not here. but then i have to remind myself that the reason i got it was to feel like even though you are gone, you’re always going to be apart of me. i love you so much and i think about you every day. i wish you were here for my birthday, but i know you were right next to me as i blew out my candles 🤍

Your brother set your ashes free.. He loves you and remembers you…. 

The reason you came here is written inside of you. You are the messenger, the transmitter, the receiver.  You are all… #111

i miss you and i want a hug. i just want to talk to my big brother and tell you how hard trying to be an adult is and how i wish we were 6 and 12 again. i know you’re watching over me, i love you bub 💌

Happy 25th birthday son of mine. I love you for eternity! Until we meet in Kepler. I’ll continue to breathe for you #111

you’re my bestfriend i’ll love you forever 

Two years later… I refuse to grieve or mourn you.. Simply because I choose to live for you! Son, I love you deeply, internally, and miss you in real life time. I feel you’re in another universe, and you’re the best graffiti artist to ever do it ♥️ Until we cross paths in Kepler. I love you David. My forever miracle baby 12.24.20 #111

i never knew i could miss a person so much. everything is so hard without you, i love you bub 

May not have been blood but you'll always be my brother. I miss you man. think about you from time to time & I struggle not knowing what happened. Life is short, & I'll see you again brotha. -

Today is Mothers Day, but for me it’s Children’s day.  The true essence of being a mother is being their shield. I hear so often parents saying their child owes them. In truth I owe them. I owe them to be the best version of myself, to have the knowledge and wisdom to guide them through this world. To teach them
Love and in return I watch them blossom into the best version of them. Whatever that may be. To my beautiful creations. David, Jewel and Michael. I’ll continue to shield you and if you ever fall I promise to be there to catch you!  You’re my gifts and I’ll never forsake you.  In the true words of Allan Rufus-Life is like a game of chess. To win you have to make a move. Knowing which move to make comes with insight and knowledge, and by learning the lessons that are accumulated along the way. We become each and every piece within the game called life.” Love mommy ♥️

Happy 24th Birthday son. Today is a reminder for me to cherish and appreciate all that I have. In a blink of an eye you can lose everything you hold dearly in your heart. You taught me to love, forgive and give empathy and sympathy to everyone. Your energy radiates through me every day. I want to say thank you David ♥️ Out of  all the beautiful lessons I’ve learned throughout life. You were my greatest one!  I love you with every fiber in my body. May you continue to radiate through this beautiful universe #111 My miracle baby..

Son, 

Not a single second, minute, hour, day goes by that I do not think of you and miss you! You were taken from me and that’s something I pray about all day. 

11 Now, concerning the state of the soul between death and the resurrection—Behold, it has been made known unto me by an angel, that the spirits of all men, as soon as they are departed from this mortal body, yea, the spirits of all men, whether they be good or evil, are taken home to that God who gave them life.
 #111 I love you more then humanly possible. 

Hey Bub, 

I’m on here so often that sometimes I don’t even know what to write but I know I want to say something. I hate the world and I hate life without you. Nothing has been the same since you left and I just need you but you’re not here. Sometimes I just scream in my head begging you to come back but I know you can’t. I don’t know what to do without you. We got into a really huge fight before you died. I never listened to mom when she said watch what your last words are to someone you love and I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean anything I said. I love and miss you everyday buster, I hope you come visit me in my dreams soon. 

Hey bub, I miss you more and more everyday. I wish you were here to tell me everything’s going to be okay and give me a huge hug. Me and mom went to see you on Christmas Eve and it was really hard. I wish I went to see you more often but of course I haven’t gotten my license yet. I guess I really just don’t have the motivation to. I remember when mom took you driving at Clackamas Town Center, I wish we could go back to that day and time when everything was simpler and you were still here. I guess I just came here to say that I miss you but you already know that. I love you. 

Merry Christmas Son ♥️ I tried to post yesterday, but clearly that was not approved…
I have so many beautiful memories of you. The ones that matter the most. I was reading all your letters yesterday. It made me cry. I am sorry you suffered so much. I tried so hard to save you. Drug use is a real thing. It consumes the mind and soul. I told you daily what a beautiful soul you were. You told me you were not worthy. It was the ones around you, who were not worthy. You are  a star child. A child with a gift of talent. Remember, serpents come in human form. They tell you what you want to hear and lead you down a path of destruction. They never wanted you to be great! They wanted you to vibrate on the lowest level. The level they thrive in. David, that was never you son ♥️ I believe you’re in the spirt world accomplishing great things! I believe, you are at peace 🙏 You will forever be my miracle baby #111

On this day, a year ago. I lost the ability to see you, reach out to you, check on you, and hold you. I wanted to go to war with everyone who played a part in your downfall. I decided instead, to kill them breathing. I warned you of our corrupted DNA I told you it was up to you, to reverse it! I warned you of the degenerate men in our family, with their luciferian behavior and wicked ways. You were a special child with a gift of talent. I always told you, you were my miracle baby. We grew up together side by side. You taught me unconditionally love! You gave me 22 years of beautiful memories. Son, I promise I will continue to celebrate your life on the highest level. I love you more then humanly possible. ♥️ I miss you immensely #111 

It’s your day baby boy I’m sitting here tripping off your absence reliving this exact day 12 months ago pulling up and seeing them take you away I know your in a better place I believe that. I know the pain you were in. I’m glad I got to tell you everything I needed to daily it’s a hard day for us son know that but I promise I will keep afterlife going down here until I get there…. Love pops!

On this day, a year ago. I lost the ability to see you, reach out to you, check on you, and hold you. I wanted to go to war with everyone who played a part in your downfall. I decided instead, to kill them breathing. I warned you of our corrupted DNA I told you it was up to you, to reverse it! I warned you of the degenerate men in our family, with their luciferian behavior and wicked ways. You were a special child with a gift of talent. I always told you, you were my miracle baby. We grew up together side by side. You taught me unconditionally love! You gave me 22 years of beautiful memories. Son, I promise I will continue to celebrate your life on the highest level. I love you more then humanly possible. ♥️ I miss you immensely #111

Bub,

Happy thanksgiving son. I miss you like I’ve been missing you way before you left this earth. I promise you,  I’ll prevail when it comes to providing you peace of mind and justice. I love you and I’ll continue to celebrate your life ♥️ 

May you continue to dance with the spirit of my gods #111

We celebrated Michaels 7th bday today. He misses you immensely. He doesn’t understand why you are no longer here  visit him to help him better understand. David you are a king and you are loved. 

Hi Bub, 
Tonight was my last homecoming as a senior and I wish you could be here to see me. A boy named Keith took me and I had so much fun. I wore mom’s white dress with the cutouts on the side, and black heels. You definitely wouldn’t approve of my outfit, but I know you would’ve told me I looked beautiful anyways. I love you so much and I know you’re always watching from up above. 

I miss you so much. I cried about you the other day in mom’s arms. I bottle up my feelings about you, because I don’t know how to cope properly with it. But I wish you were here, and I would do anything to bring you back. I love you so much bub. 

This is David's close friend .. I miss you homie good looking out when I was still locked up. .  I wish u where still here my guy . . I would like to get ahold of ur mother 360 369 9437 please get ahold of me I was David's close friend I considered him my brother . We where locked up at larch mountain and cayote ridge together he played basketball and we ate together for couple years we had each other's back unconditionally .. he had such a big heart I love u lil homie .. 


Hey Son, 

I don’t come here often, because I kiss you daily and have you with me always ♥️ Your ashes are right next to your uncle David. Juju kisses you Meer kisses you! We all kiss you! I miss you immensely. I picture your face and smile. Yesterday we went to your favorite Mexican
Restaurant.. El Indio. Madeline was with us. She misses you too! I told you I would celebrate you instead of mourning you, and that’s exactly what I’ll continue to do! Every where I go, you’re on my mind, in my DNA and most importantly attached to  my soul. You’ll forever be my miracle baby, my firstborn, my first son my first unconditional love and the reason I am the woman I am today. Thank you!  May you continue to grow in the spiritual world. #111

I love you bub ♥️

Cuz I love you so much and I know you know that you are like my best friend not only my cousin and I didn't realize how close we were now that you're gone I think about the day I'm going to see you again and I miss you I never realize how close we were until after u where gone but you were my best friend you weren't just my family I think about you everyday fool and I'm not going to lie I cry almost every day for you just know we love you. We will always love you and never be forgetten that's for sure  I love you and I miss you and I know your always watching over me ❤️ I can't wait for the day I get to see you again 

Son, 

I do not come here often because I know that you are  with me. I feel blessed to kiss you every single day alongside your uncle David. I have been praying for forgiveness,  doing such a disservice to you by having the wrong man in your life to teach you all the wrong things. I literally beg for forgiveness every single day David for this. I am so sorry. Unfortunately, I myself was learning. I am so truly sorry for not being equipped, mentally, and spiritually when I gave birth to you.

YOU were my greatest accomplishment! You taught me how to be a woman in her right mind. You taught me how to be a mother, I will forever be indebted to you ♥️ 

David, you were better than anybody you ever associated with and they were so lucky to even be in your presence son. 

I cherish the memories that we do have and I am so blessed that I had you at your best. The luciferian’s had you at your worst! They prayed  on your downfall and fed off your weakness. 

I damn near lost myself trying to save you. Guess what? I would do it 50 times over again.

One thing that I always told you is, you are  my miracle baby and you always will be. I will celebrate you each and every day that I still breathe. 

I miss checking up on you calling you texting you and harassing you. I miss your scent I miss your smile I miss your stupid ass jokes. I miss you, ALL of you. 

I am so sorry that I let you down. I am so sorry that I did not know about your addiction and how far you were gone in it. I am sorry that I cut you off to protect myself, Jewel and Meer.

They miss you!!!! I miss you!!!

I am sorry that the ones that you trusted lead you down the wrong path. While I was trying to shower you with education and interviews the one you looked up to  was introducing you to plugs and packages!

Trust me when I tell you this son. They are so tormented in their minds that they can barely cope each day. I pray and I pray and I pray that justice is served.



DT,
It’s pops son. I’m writing this to let you know how much I’m missing you but you probably already know that huh? Lol. It’s been a ruff ruff year without you boy the waiting for my phone to ring or the little pop ups you used to do without calling that would make me so mad lol. Man I even miss our arguments for real. Life is numb now and I don’t know how to regain my feelings since you been gone. Yeah I know ima push threw but it’s hard David you always told me you knew how much I loved you and juju but I hope you really understood. I wish I really knew where you are if there is really a life after death because man that’s what’s killing me not knowing where my baby is. I’m in pain son that’s all I feel nowadays I ain’t laughing joking none of that is just like I’m going threw the motions you know? But like I said I’ll get past it for you. Our baby girl is the big 17 lmao I know you hate that I can hear you saying what you always did” man pops I wish she just stay little” lol  make sure you blow the wind threw her hair so she knows you there ok? Keep and good watch on her and little Michael for real if you up there with god beg him to let you come down and watch her sleep for a night. I know you been around I still go to your house every month on the 24th since you been gone and that wind blows every single time and I know thats your butt letting me know you around…. I love you son and will keep your afterlife going down here until I get there!!!!! Pops

Once again, tonight I’m missing you extra. I was looking through some of our memories and how happy we were when we were little. I wish we could’ve stayed that happy forever. Tonight was the night I realized you aren’t coming back, and I guess I had never really thought about it much before until now, but that thought broke me. This year was the first year you’ve ever missed one of my birthdays, and that really sucked. I was always so excited to graduate and walk across the stage, but after losing you, none of it mattered to me anymore. I know you’re always watching over me, but I just wanted you to physically see me do good in life. I just wanted to show you that through everything life threw at us, we could find the happiness we had when we were little. Losing you was a heart break I had never experienced before, and even though we didn’t speak before you passed, I always knew I could reach you if I truly needed to, and now that I don’t have that ability, I don’t know what to do. It’s my senior year, and I don’t feel like trying, but I’m gonna walk across that stage for you. I love you. Here’s a picture of us being happy :) 

David was the most kind person who took care of everyone , very loving and talented and was very music involved loves to tag art he was a very good artist and a amazing father and stepped up when the job wasn't his to fill he would fill it he never saw his class have empty always full. And he would do anything to make someone happy if he loved you 💞
Evey day I think of you I didn't realize you weren't just family you were my best friend I told you everything and still tell you everything just wish I could here ur words again but there forever in my heart 


Tonight is just one of those nights where I miss you more than anything. I wish you could be here to hug me and tell me everything’s going to be okay. I would do anything to hug you just one last time. I love you so much. 

DT it's your day son so pops wanted to wish you a happy 23rd. Birthday David, I'm trying hard with this one son. But I know you would want me to celebrate it like you would have lol so thats what I'm gonna try to do. I miss you so so bad son. I can remember your birthdays when you were just a little kid my fondest birthday memory 

I miss you so much it hurts. I cry almost every night looking at your pictures, and hugging the hoodie I have of our picture on it. I miss your smile, and I miss you always calling me buster. Our relationship wasn’t always perfect and I can never make up that missing time, but we both knew where we stood with each other, and our sibling love was always unconditional. When we were little, you protected me and cared for me the way an older brother should. You always made strawberry picking fun when mom would drag us to Sauvie’s Island, and I’ll never forget our adventures to the mall when mom would be at work. I can say so much more, but all I want to say is how much I love you and miss your presence here. Your importance will never be forgotten in our family, I love you. 

I miss you so much cuzzo 😭 from babies, to kids, to angsty teenagers trying to figure out life, you were always there. I wish we could have figured out adulthood together, celebrated our successes, and been there for the failures. I wish we could’ve been at each other’s weddings, births of our kids, and building our own families. I wish our future kids could’ve grown up together and had the best cousin friendships like we did. I wish we could’ve had just one more summer BBQ at uncle Mike’s and yelled at each other during badminton, and of course sneaking drinks when our parents weren’t looking. I wish we could’ve had more late nights talking about everything we couldn’t talk to anyone else about. We had so much life left to live as cousins and it breaks my heart that I have to do it without you. But I know you’re still here and watching and protecting and I hope you’re proud of me. I love you so much David. 

Love, Cuzzo

I miss you David. I miss your smile I miss your smell I miss seeing you I miss holding you I miss you!! You’re so loved by many. Monica stopped by to see you and spend her bday with you ♥️ I love you son. 

Bub, I know you’ve transitioned to the spirit world. Your body may have left this earth, but your spirit has went on ♥️ Me, juju and Meer miss your smile, I also miss our scare tactics we use to do 😊 Your uncle David is with you. 



 

Bubba you will never how much i love and miss you son. I remember when I first stepped in your life you were a funny 2 year old with not a care in the word just trying to figure out life. I didnt know I could fall in love with a child that was not my blood but thats exactly what happen, you let me know it was alright with that look in your eye you gave me. I'm heartbroken walking this earth without you son but one thing I know is you'd tell me "come on pops push through " and im trying baby with everything I have left. You will always and forever be my blood son, the bond we shared  was crazy until I can hold you again I love you so much son I will keep your afterlife going down here until I get there..... pops!

David, everyday I think about you. You were a good friend and most off all you were someone I truly cared for since I met you. I love you man.
Always and forever brotha. Rest easy and be in peace now😔

Your freind-Russia.

OBITUARY

David Serano Smith Tovar

May 6, 1998 – December 24, 2020

Lincoln Memorial Park & Funeral Home

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