My Baby Love 
Jackie this year "2024" will be 9yrs that you have been gone I miss you still so much baby it never goes away , I'll be turning 50yrs on Sunday February 4 thI really thought you would still be here to celebrating my 50th , Jackie there isn't anything or anyone that can take my pain away from missing you are my life my everything ❤️ it's been hard my love here without you, ughhh you were right again about how hard I was going to take your death , I can still feel it right now in my chest it's still unbearable making it so hard to breathe I love you so much baby but i miss you so much more your the love of my life , my one true love , I could never love another man the way i love you, you will always have my heart no matter what or who nobody will ever take your place in my heart I wasn't ready for you to leave me , rest easy my love of my life until we are reunited together again
I love you, but I miss you so much more ,
Love and miss you so much
Your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello my love Jack
I love you but I miss you so much more , Im sorry for not writing you on your birthday but I know you did hear me and got the ballons that I sent you on the your birthday , my love I can't believe that its already a year that you left me here by myself , the hurting pain is still so real just as it did a year ago today , I find it so hard to breath cuz I miss you so much , Jackie I wish that this was a bad dream but I know it aint , til we are reunited again 
Loving &  missing you your wife
Michelle Perez 
R.I.P MY ONE TRUE LOVE 
JACK GONSALVES
4/12/15

Hello Jack my love,
I love you baby and I miss you so much still til this day , I want to apologize for not writing you , I haven't had any internet my phone is off rite now but I'll get back on , my birthday wasn't the same this year it hurts baby , I miss you baby so bad my life isn't the same without you my love , and please forgive me I know I have made some bad choices and did things that were stupid and im sorry baby , but no matter what my love nothing or no one will take your place
my love for you will never die cuz it you and it will always be you that i love forever , til we are reunited again my love ,
Loving you always your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love ,
Today makes it 8 month's that you have been gone and everyday and every night the pain hurts more and more as hell from missing you so freaking bad baby !!!!! No one knows what I go through only you ,me & God knows but you know how much I love you and miss you so much , til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving & missing you
Your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love,
I love you baby so much , but baby I can't help this unbearable hurting pain from missing you sooooo much more ! It's the last month of this year baby ! This Christmas I won't be buying any gifts for anyone except for Reyes , we will be
laying you to rest at St. Mary's cemetery I know it was your doing to bring the family all together once again and your way of saying your still here with us ! I miss you Jack I can't believe I will be toasting in the New year's day by myself without you having our glass of champagne together , it doesn't get easier because I miss you still so much my love ! Til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love ,
Happy Thanksgiving baby this is our first thanksgiving day without you oh I love and miss you so much baby I know shining down on us baby ! Rest in peace my sweetheart ! I'll be home soon , I dont know when or how long but I will be coming home to you my love ! 
Until we are reunited again or in my dreams , 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love,
Today 11/12/15 marks 7 month's that you have been gone and still hurts like hell , because I miss you soo much baby ! But I can feel you every time either by the goosebumps I get every time you touch me along with butterflies in my stomach, a feeling that I only get from you my love , Jack my heart & soul already belongs to you , the day that you went to heaven , I will always love you for the rest of my life , rest in peace my love til we are reunited again ,
Loving you always your wife,
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
I miss you so much baby in just a few days it will mark 7 month's since you have been gone its still so hard to believe that you are gone I love you so much baby , you hold my heart and soul with you the day you went away ! I got some good news the other day , about how you will finally be buried on Christmas day , I can't wait !
will my love til we reunited again or in my dreams 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love,
Will today is another start of a new month without you my love , as it was Halloween yesterday it was another 1'st holiday without you , I miss seeing you sitting in the driveway waiting for the lil kids to pass out candy to them and hearing your excitement in your voice I miss you so much Jack , I think thanksgiving & Christmas are going to my breaking point , you cooked our turkey every year ! How I will be entering 2016 without you my love and it hurts Jack cuz we were a team me and you did everything together ! I will never stop loving you , your memories I will keep alive ! Til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love,
I love you so much , but baby I miss you so so so much more , Jack it hurts so bad idk what to do , im so lonely ,and scared , baby I never knew so much pain  like this before , you are my best friend who I could come running to when I need someone , so who do I go to now ? I have no one baby because I only want you my love , til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love,
I love you so much Jack , but baby I miss you so so much more Jack , with every beat of my heart and with every breath that I take for the rest of my life my love ! I wrote you on the 12th like I do every 12th of the month but Idk what happen to it , but you do know I did baby ! Damn baby it still hurts after 6month's it hurts more today cuz I miss you so much , I'm so lonely without
you , I just miss everything there is about you Jack ! Til we are reunited again or in my dreams, loving you always your wife,
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my sweet Angel,
I want to start off by saying that I love you so much ! But daddy my heart hurts everyday & every night so much more because I miss you so much baby ! You took everything that I once was or use to be , a heart that once use to be full , is now a big hole , my love I don't know when or how long it will be until my life here on earth is over , just know my love it's you , it's always gonna be you who I will be reunited with , I know you told me you wanted me to find someone who will make me happy and who will treat me like I should be treated , there will never ever be a guy who could ever take your place , but I know when I feel like im ready I will find someone who I will give my love and respect to , but they will never have my heart & soul because that is the part that also went along with you , I will try to keep living not just for me but for you my love , but its not as easy as its said , because its you and only you that I want more then my own life ! I love and miss you so much til we are reunited again or in my dreams ,
Loving you for the rest of my life your wife,
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love,
I love you but I miss you so much more everyday and night , Today is our baby girls JustIne's 19th birthday
October 1'st , how times flys by so fast I remember her just starting kindergarten, and also she's going to be a
Mommy soon ! Will my love til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love ,
Baby I miss you so much, my life has no meaning anymore without you , I just wish I could just be with you , I'm so lonely I have no one here for me the way you were here for me , I just don't know anymore , please my love help me to get through this cuz I need you , I love & miss you for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams , 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
I love you so much baby ,but I miss you so much more my heart knows cuz it suffers the most cuz of the pain from missing you so much, it hurts so much to be without you here with me , my life I will keep going for you, you will live on through me my love ! I love and miss you for the rest of my life , til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love,
Baby I can't take the pain from missing you so much, it hurts to much! I just wish I could have you back here with me , it's getting harder to keep living knowing your not here as time passes, i'm so alone it was me and you for 18yrs tell me how am i suppose to keep living without you, baby since the day you passed away apart of me died along with you , my whole self being has changed , how do i live without you with this unbearable pain from missing you so much! I love you so much ,but i miss you so much more with every passing day for the rest of my life, til we are reunited again or in my dreams...
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
I love you but I miss you so much more , I don't know about much anymore since you been gone , but i do know what missng someone you love so much feels like cuz my heart suffers the most pain everyday, Jack it hurts so much but worse now ! Baby please I love you help me I think im losing myself in such a big way ! I dont know what to do anymore ! I love you and I miss you for the rest of my life ,til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
Today marks 5 months since you left to be with God 
sweetheart , its hurts as if it was yesterday that I had to let you go , but what hurts the most is missing you everyday since it only gets worse as the days go by ! I will always love you but I will miss you for the rest of my life ! Til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
I love you but I miss you so much more tomorrow will mark 5 month's that you have been gone and everyday ,every week and every month that passes by its still feels like the day I had to let you go ! I need you my love so much but God needed you so much more ! But not one day goes by that im not thinking about you ! I miss you so much my love til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love , 
I just wish that I was in a coma and im going to wake up and your still going to be there like you always were ! Baby I miss you so much that this pain I have only gets worse ! Jack baby I need you so much I feel so lost in this world and so alone baby I love you so much but baby I miss you so so much more everyday for the rest of my life , til we are reunited again or in my dreams 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
Today was like no other day
I llove you ,but again I still miss you so much more everyday & evey night , for the rest of my life sweetheart my life is empty without you ! Til we meet again or in my dreams 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
I miss you so much baby everyday , and it only hurts so much more, Today marks another year that my uncle Rigo passed away , I know he's there with you in heaven , could you please tell him that I love and miss him so much ok , my love Jack you are the love of my life for the rest of my life , I love you so much , but I miss you so much more , til we are reunited again or in my dreams ! 
Loving you always your wife,
Michelle Perez

God saw you getting tired.
And a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you. 
And whispered " come to me "
With tearful eyes we watched you go.
Although we loved you dearly. We could not make you stay. 
A golden heart stopped breathing. 
Hard working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us.
That he only takes the best.

We love and miss you so much jack
Our life's ain't the same without you brother.  Everyday and every night I pray that you come and tell us it's ok.. Rest easy jack

Hello Jack my love,
Today I thought about you but that isn't new I do that all day everyday , I love you daddy so much , but again I still miss you so much more every passing day it gets harder to deal with cuz the hurting pain that's in my heart from missing you so much , I will always cherish our special moments that we shared together for the last 18yrs ,I will always love and miss you for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

I saw a shooting star I couldn't sleep and I realized it was 4 months you were gone  and I know it was a sign that you were my angel I love and miss you . Your in a better place and I can't wIt yo see you one day again love you pops

Hello Jack my love
I just wanna say how much I love you so much with every beat of my heart , these past few weeks have been a lil more harder then usual , I still find it so hard to believe that your gone it hurts so bad cuz I miss you so much more my heart never knew so much pain , oh my love I still can't understand what the hell went wrong how could of this of happened you are one of the strongest men I ever knew , I just wish I knew what went so wrong , I really thought you were going to be ok and come back home with me I never ever imagine that you would be gone not this soon or like this baby ! Baby please idk what to do , I feel so lost without you ! I just want to scream from the top of my lungs asking God why did he take you away from us so soon ! I was going through some of the box's that we were able to to get out I found so many of your stuff but what got me was your old sweaty hats cuz they still smell like your sweat ! I'll always love you but I'll always miss you so much more for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my love Jack
I know I haven't written you in sometime it's not that I've forgotten about you, its getting so hard for me because I miss you so damn much , idk what to do anymore , I'm really am trying to move forward but its not easy cuz I miss you and plus of the boys they aren't having it what so ever I get it I really do every time that I try I back out it seems so wrong like if im cheating on you , I just can't do it I just want you back baby please I miss you so much that its killing me inside slowly but surely ! I need you baby so much I hate that your no longer here with me were you belong I feel so out of place without you daddy ! My life will never be the same without you its always been you and me , I want us back like before , baby why ? Why did you have to leave like this ? Why couldn't you take me with you ? My life is so lost , I never imagined that this would of happened to us not like this , or so soon daddy please help me Jack im so scared and alone , im so afraid what lays ahead of me without you my love ,but I will do the best that I can for you , I love you with every beat of my heart, but I miss you so much more with every breath that I take for the rest of my life ,til we are reunited again loving you always your wife,
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love 
I'm sorry I didn't write to you on the 12th but it hurt still so bad baby I love you so much with every beat of my heart and I miss so much more with every breath that I take for the rest of my life until we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
Will baby I'm almost got everything out from our storage I still have to get my big dresser , all your of your stuff my hope chests , and few other things but not to much more , I seen your favorite coat today the one I hated the kings jacket and it made me cry , because I miss you so much still , I had pups father in law Carlos help me today Ernesto had something to do today so couldn't help but he leant me his truck and Reyes he wasn't up for it today like I told him it wasn't his responsibility so Carlos said he'd help and he did he is a good guy ! I just wish you where here with me Jack I love you so much that it hurts to know your gone ! Oh yea I seen Barbra she came to help move some of the box's her and Melissa , baby Decko isn't doing so well please watch over him we all love him so much it would really break our hearts if anything bad should happen ! I love you but I miss you so much more til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Baby ,
I still miss you more and more everyday with every breath that I take , Jack it's really hard out here by myself , I don't have anyone to turn to for anything , you where the only one I really had ! So now I'm left with no one to go to , I have so much things that needs to get done and such Lil time left to do it all ! Idk baby I am really trying but it's so Damn hard , also someone stole your full tank of gas from your car, I'm wondering how much more do I have to take before I can't take it anymore !!!!! Damn Jack I need you so much still !!!! Baby please help me !!!! I hate being so all alone I'm so scared baby
Please why ccan't I feel or hear you please daddy give me something to give me something to know that I'm not alone and that your still here with me I need it more then anything rite now please baby please !!!!! I love you so much with every beat of my heart for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

I made a wish on my birthday. .bro even though I didn't blow out candles I still made a wish and that was to hear your voice.  We miss jack really wish we could have you back but I know your up there watching down on us. Hold a spot up there for us till we meet again. 
 Always your sister in law

Hello Jack my love 
I'm sorry that I haven't written you it's just it's so hard because I miss you so much and it hurts so much but baby you know that a day does not go by that I'm not thinking about you . I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath that I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams my heart and soul never knew so much pain til
The day you passed away 4/12/15 loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
Today was a good day I had to go to an important appointment it went good , Kerina & Javie took Reyes to get his I'D today that's was nice of them both , oh lol I forgot to tell you someone got there first speeding ticket , I bet you already know !!!! I went to the storage today me & my sister Lori did we went to get the pool out so the kids could have something to do for the rest of the summer I know you would of agreed to it cuz that's  just who you
We're and sometimes it would make me so irritated with you but that's what makes me so crazy in love with you so much, you already know but I'm a tell you anyways I went to the fair last Friday with Pup and
His girl & the boys it was fun , I'm going again tomorrow with my parents ,Lori and the kids it should be fun but your son Reyes doesn't want to go he's just like you I swear !!!! Ernesto & Helica are in New York I'm so proud of them both , I'm proud of all of them all 10 , today is baby creeper's 4th birthday ! Jack I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath that I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
It's an up and down day for me today , I miss you so much ,I miss our times we spent together , oh baby why ? I just want some understanding to how could of this happen to us like this !!!! I just want you to know that I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath that I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love 
Dang I'm still trying to believe that this is real, it's really hard for me still but I'm trying to stay strong for you my love but nothing seems to be going rite and you know me I just want to say the Hell with it all but then I start to think about you & how I promised you that I'll try my best & hardest to do things rite but it's so hard cuz you where the one to handle all of this !!!! Smh I just want to scream from the top of my lungs !!!! Jack I miss you so much with every breath that I take and I love you with every beat of my heart for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my sweet Angel 
I'm doing ok , I'm learning how to keep from crying in front of people but when I'm alone it's different that's when I can't cuz then the loneliness starts setting in then I start remembering things we did and how you use to hold me and hearing you saying I love you mom or I love you baby girl & then the pain sets in from missing you so much !!!! This pain that I carry with me every were I go it won't ever go away until we are reunited again !!!! I love & miss you with every beat of my heart and with every breath that I take for the rest of my til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love 
I love and miss you with every beat of my heart and with every breath that I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
I started to write a few times but I had to stop cuz I
FFound myself starting to cry and I don't want Reyes to see me crying cuz it hurts him & then he starts to worry and I don't want that and plus I promised you
That I was going to do rite by you so you rest peacefully and happy because you deserve it more then anything my love , I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath that I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

 I know your in a better place I know that. I just wish I could explain it to my heart we miss you so much jack..

Hello Jack my love 
Oh my love today makes it 3 months now that you have been gone & it still hurts but I'm really trying to be strong for Reyes & mainly for you so you can rest at peace cuz you deserve it so much I love & miss you with
Every beat of my heart and with every breath I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love 
I love you with every beat of my heart, my heart still hurts for you everyday of my life I miss you with every breath that I take , I just don't understand any of this
I just wish you were still here I hate the loneliness of you not being here with me I love and miss you for the rest of my life , til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love 
I love you with every beat of my heart ,I miss you with every breath that I take for the rest of my life , it's really hard for me because I miss you so dang much I hated that you can't be here with me were you belong !!!! Oh baby I miss you so much !!!!Can't you hear my cries or hear me calling out your name I don't understand any of this but I do know that you loved me and I love you Smh til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love 
Today I went to Kaiser for the first time since you passed away almost 3 months ago , my whole body just started shaking then a big flash of memories from our time being in there together I thought for a min that I woke up from a nightmare I wanted to run to your room and you'll still be there but then I realized it wasn't a dream then the tears I couldn't hold back from falling and that hospital smell I can't get rid of oh baby I miss you so much why baby why Jack did this happen to us ???? I will always love and miss you with every beat of my heart and with every breath that I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my love Jack
I had a very hard day on the 4th of July about everything but mainly because I missed you ,when I looked over to were you would of been sitting was an empty chair it's not the same without you I miss you so much Jack it hurts so Damn much I can't take it anymore so I'm gonna start sum counseling because I thought that I could do it on my own but I can't it's to unbearable to deal with on my own so that's what I'm doing for now I hope I didn't disappointed you for not being strong enough but I really did try but it's killing me inside just know my love I will never stop loving or missing you ! You are my life I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath that I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams.
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my love 
Happy 4th of July daddy !!!! I love you so much Jack , this is going to be another hard sad day for me cuz you have always the one to be setting them up and lighting them up every year for the past 18yrs !!!! Oh baby why why did you have to go ???? I still need you !!!! I don't want to wait to long for me to be with you again I miss you so much my love please baby please I need your help to get me through this unbearable pain that remains in my heart since the day you left me !!!! I love and miss you with every beat of my heart and every breath that I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams!!!! I hope you enjoy seeing all the fireworks from up above
If you can send me somsomething or show me something that you here with me and that you love me !!!! 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love of my life,
For the past several weeks have been really hard for me baby, it's so hard to live my life without you !!!! WHY DIDTHIS HAPPEN ???? I don't understand any of it !!!! Jack please why did you leave ? Why didn't you take me with you ? You know that you left me out here alone by myself , I don't have anybody , you were all I had !!!! And now I have nobody not even you !!!!! My life isn't the same or will it ever be again !!!!! But my love for you I will always have, my heart ,body & soul will always belong to and only you !!!! I miss you so much & I find it very hard to keep wanting to live life without you !!!! All I know and want is to be together again, I don't know or want anything but you !!!! I love and miss you with every beat of my heart and every breath that I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
Today I had another hard day being without you, I think of you everyday and then my heart starts beating so fast with this unbearable pain that makes it so hard to breathe that it pulls the wall of my chest like if it was caving in !!!! The things that helped me get through this isn't helping anymore, I really don't no what to do because I miss you with every breath I take and I love you with every beat of my heart for the rest of my life til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Oh Jack I miss you so much that the pain is so unbearable I can't do this baby I've tried everything and nothing helps baby I don't know what to do any more I wanna be with you, I get so lonely here by myself you know I don't have anybody to go to, i have to go through this by myself and I've been trying so hard to be strong but baby I can't no more , as I sit day after day & nite after nite alone in our dark silent room all by myself mind is feels like I'm going crazy even the walls seems like there closing in on me making no room for me to breath when I turn to look for you on your side of the bed I'd be hoping that you'll be there but emptiness is all that is there  !!!! I don't have you  to hold me at night ,I won't get to hear your voice anymore or get to see that big handsome smile that I fell in
Love the first time I saw you I miss everything about you 
Baby I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath that I take for the rest of my life
Til we are reunited again or in my dreams.
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Oh Jack my love I never knew such pain like this before I miss you so freaking much !!!!!! Baby please I need and want you I can't take it having to live my life without you , I love you so much with every beat of my heart and I miss you more with every breath that I take for the rest of my life !!!!! Til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

We thought of you with love today. 
But that is nothing new. We thought about you yesterday and days before that too. We think of you in silence we often speak your name. Now all we have is memories and your picture in a frame. Your memory is our keepsake.with Which we will never part. GOD has you in his keeping. We have you in our heart.

We love you jack and will forever miss you till we meet again my brother inlaw rest in peace

Oh Jack baby I don't know how much more my heart can take , this pain from loving & missing you is so unbearable it hurts sometimes it hurts so bad that it feels like I can't breath ! I don't want to be here without you ! I need you more then anything !!!! My heart never knew so much pain ! Please Jack help me to understand to what , why and how this  could of happen !!!! I will always love you with every beat of my heart and miss you with every breath that I take til my last beating of my heart all the way down to the last breath I take til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my sweet Angel
Hey baby I miss you so much I could hardly breath at times , I hate not having you here with me , my life isn't the same without you , I don't know anymore my love , all I know is I love and miss you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath I take, for the rest of my life, til we are reunited again or in my dreams 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Your missed  so very much jack. You meant a whole lot to the family we love you brother.  Your forever missed and in our hearts

Father's Day was hard without you I love you daddy :) missing you is hard for me. I know your in heaven watching us. My guardian Angel.

Happy Father's Day dad i miss you so much I know your having a great time up there like you deserve wish I could've dropped your sees candy off today nd see your big oh smile. Life is a lil difficult wish I could hear your advice on what I should do you were always the mastermind our rock today's a memory of all the good Father's Day and even so to be grateful that we had you to father us that alone is cherished well I know today at midnight I won't get that except call every year from mom and you to say happy birthday today but I'm sure mom is lol but anyways happy fathers dad again pops I miss you enjoy your day up there love Mandy

Happy Fathers Day Jack.
Like Kerina said your the only one I know who would take in 6 kids and make a 7th... your a wonderful FATHER to your 10kids and the best grandfather to your grandkids... 
Nono went to do our fathers day shopping for my dad and Roman and he asked what about my grandpa angel?  Then when we we're  by checkout and I know you laughed when you saw him sneak the candy and when we we're in mens department he ate it and threw the wrapper and said my grandpa angel said eat it and put it on the floor he's gonna find it... he sure did do just that.... Lol he misses you as well as everyone else please be his guardian angel and guide him through this cold world with me Miguel and the rest of our family... we love you!  Rest in peace

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
JACKIE MY LOVE.
I miss you so much with every breath I take ! It's going to affect the kids all over again as it did on the day you left us cuz this is there first father's day without you ! These kids all love and miss you so much ! And I know you love them just as much because you told me so in your last conversation you had with me earlier that same night that you would need the life support cuz breathing you couldn't do on your own anymore !!!! I love you with every beat of my heart for the rest of my life , til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife,
Michelle Perez

Hello my love 
I missing you so much today but then again nothing's New I miss you more and more everyday, Fathers day is coming up in a few days and it's going to be a very hard day for me , it's father's day and you aren't here , this is going to be another sad day for our kids my heart hurts for them cuz this will be there first father's day without you ! Oh baby I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath I take for the rest of my life, til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my love 
I missing you so much today but then again nothing's New I miss more and more everyday, Fathers day is coming up in a few days and it's going to be a very hard day for me , it's father's day and you aren't here , this is going to be another sad day for our kids my heart hurts for them cuz this will be there first father's day without you ! Oh baby I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath I take for the rest of my life, til we are reunited again or in my dreams,
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my Love Jack
I miss you with every breath I take and I love you with every beat of my heart for the rest of my life , my heart never felt so much pain it's so unbearable to explain it ! I lost a big part of me when you passed away my whole life being has changed in so
Many ways and I don't t
Know we're or how this road will take me cuz I don't have you to help me lead the way
Im so scared of being alone I need you Jack ! I love and miss you so much,till we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello sweetheart
Oh how my heartache from missing you so much, why did you have to go away and leaving me here by myself Jack I need you to help me to get through this I don't understand why did you go my love ! This pain from missing you brings a rush of fear ,loneliness and sadness . I miss you Jack with every breath I take and I miss you with every beat of my heart. Til we meet again or in my dreams.
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my love Jack
I miss you so much I hate being alone it scares the hell at of me !!!!! I'm really trying to be strong but it's so hard because I miss you more then anything my love please baby help me !!!! I'm so scared to be so alone and as time passes and your not here the more the fear sets in and the pain intensify the fear because the pain is from missing you so much that I want to scream from the top of my lungs to the sky why did you leave me ????? Why why ????? I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath I take til we are reunited again or in my dreams.
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my love
I miss you with every breath I take and I love you with every beat of my heart , it's still so hard to believe that your gone how I wish you were here with me ,I hate that you left me all alone ,I wish you could come back to me my love why did you leave me baby why ?????? I need you daddy !!!!! Til we are reunited again or in my dreams.
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my love 
I wished Maxine a happy birthday today I knew it would make her happy and because I wanted to she is family no matter what and family always stay together always ! I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath I take . Til we are reunited again or in my dreams 
Loving you always your wife,
Michelle Perez

Today is your first baby's birthday and that would be me Maxine :). Missing you more then ever I know heavens got a angel and forever I will be thankful. I love you as wide as the sky and time is passing by but I know one day you and I will reunite and will be fine and until that time give me strength to get by daddy I miss you and I don't like to cry but it's natural and your forever missed. Your truly your birthday daughter 


Maxine Ruby Gonsalves 
6/13 38 years old today :)

Hello love of my life 
I really really miss you so much,I hate that your not here with me ! I'm sorry baby but I can't do this by myself I'm falling apart , I am stuck ,lost and mostly scared more then anything !I drink to cover tthe hurt & pain from missing you so much ! Please Jack give me something anything so that I know your still here with me and that you love me ! I love you with every beat of my heart and I miss you with every breath I take for the rest of my life til we are reunited again
Loving you always your wife,
Michelle Perez

Hello sweetheart
Today marks 2months my love that you were called to heaven but for me it seems like it was yesterday but my heart knows cuz it suffers the most pain of missing you as my life moves on without you , sleep for me don't come so easy any more these days , I don't know this road of life and it scares the hell out of me cuz I'm forced to do it alone and I don't think that I could do it by myself I've had you to lead me the way ! I don't want to be alone , I feel like I'm going out of my mind sitting all alone with no one to talk to ,cry ,laugh or to watch tv with and all I want is you & only you ! Til we are reunited again or in my dreams! 
Loving you always your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello dad i miss you so much your always in my heart thanks for all the time we shared life is a lil difficult but I just remember your words of wisdom and get through it❤ Ps your tumble weed

Hello my love 
I'm so sorry I haven't written you , here's a funny one for you I went to Miguel's on Sunday for his birthday and I had lost my phone so now I got a new one lol . But I miss you so much I'm not me without you , everyday is a struggle I know what I need to do but I can't with no car and no car if no job no car cuz of no money . Lol but daddy I want to tell you I love with every beat of my heart & I miss you with ever breath I take til we are reunited again or in my dreams 
Your wife always 
Michelle Perez

Hello baby 
Today makes it 7weeks now that your gone, i can't do this ,i see everyone who matter to us living and having a good time , like if your not gone & it makes me feel hurt,sad & mad , and i know that life has to go on and who im i to know how they are feeling i know they all love you and miss you maybe for them its easier cuzz they didn't spend all the time with you like i did , cuzz baby i can't i miss you with every breath i take and i love you with every beat of my heart ! I still can't believe that your gone smh asking why ? I love and miss you til we are reunited again or in my dreams my love,
Yours always your wife ,
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love ,
Jack I love you so much with every beat of my heart, & i miss you with every breath i take , i still can't believe you are gone my heart aches so much for you my love ! I wish i could make sense of this , til we are reunited again or in my dreams.
Loving & missing you always your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my Love ,
I miss you baby im really trying to keep it together but im falling apart more and more everyday as my days still given to me without you here with me . I love you with every beat of my heart. & i miss you with every breath i take , til we are reunited again or in my dreams ,
Loving and missing you always your wife ,
Michelle Perez

Hello my Sweetheart 
I love & miss you with all my heart words alone can't explain the unbearable hurting pain that gets worse as time passes! You are and will forever be the love of my life , as i was your love of your life and the afterlife . It's so hard to believe that your gone Jack , i can't do this any more please daddy help me to get through this cuzz all i want is to be with you i want you and only you ! My life will never be the same til we are reunited or in my dreams ! 
Loving & missing you ,your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello Baby Love,
I love you with every beat of my heart ,& i miss you with every breath i take ! My heart has never felt so much pain like this before i dont understand why or how this could of happen i miss you Jack my life will never be the same til we are reunited again or in my dreams ! Loving & missing you ,your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love ,
Please forgive me for not writing to you in the past few days its really been so hard to deal with you being gone i miss you so much jack im so lonely my love how did this happen why why did you have to go ? I love you with every beat of my heart , i miss you with every breath i take ,
Til we are reunited again or in my dreams loving & missing you your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
I love you with every beat of my heart & i miss you with every breath i take ! Baby it's so hard without you , why is all im left to ask. I need you daddy still ! Til we are reunited again or in my dreams 
Loving & missing you ,your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love
I love you with every beat of my heart,& i miss you with every breath i take ! I wish you were here with me ,i need you so much baby ! My life is not the same without you my love ! 
Loving & missing you so much ,your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello Jackie my love 
I've been really trying to be strong i'm  good for a little bit but then i break because of the pain that i have from missing you so much ! I can't do this. I miss you to much Jack how could of this happen ? I know your not suffering any more baby because i seen it first hand everything you went through but it still doesn't Make or take away this unbearable pain that only gets worse as time,days,weeks & months goes by without you ! Oh daddy i love you with every beat of my heart & i miss you with every breath i take , you loved me for the last 18yrs of your life here on earth , &  i am going to keep loving you for the rest of my life , til we are reunited again or in my dreams ! 
Loving & missing you ,your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello Jack my love,
I love you with every beat of my heart & I miss you with every breath that i take ! I'm sorry i havent written you for a few days , its been so hard for me still ! I still can't believe that you are gone my love ! I freaking miss you so much Jack!  Til we are reunited again or in my dreams !
Loving & missing you 
Your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my Sweetheart, 
I love you with every beat of my heart ,and i miss you with every breath i take ! My life without you is not the same i need you sweetheart im so lonely my love ! How could this of happen to us Jack,  i still find it so hard to make sense of all of this ! I will love you for the rest of my life ! Til we are reunited or in my dreams !
Loving & missing you ,your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello my sweet Angel,
I love you with every beat o f my heart, & i miss you with every breath
I take ! My best friend Rebecca and her lil sister Rosa came to visit me today i was suprised & very happy to see them both i really missed her ! It
Was nice and short but very happy that she did ! Also i got the best suprise ever today and you know what it is already!  Lol I really miss you so much sweetheart , Jackie my love i want to really know if your ok , & if your happy ? Please Jackie my love show or tell me something anything to let me know its you ! I will always love & miss you for the rest of my life ! Til we are reunited or in my dreams ,
Your wife ,
Michelle Perez

Hello my love
Today marks 1month since you left me , i miss you so much baby it hurts more now then the first day you left its so unbearable to deal with it hurts , i love you with every beat of my heart , and i miss you with every breath i take ! Til we are reunited again or in my dreams
Loving & missing you ,
Your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello Baby
I love & miss you so much ! Today for mother's day was so hard for me Jack it will be a month on Tuesday that you have been gone my love and it hurts more today then the first day when you left . I miss you Jack so bad baby !!!! Why why has this happen ? I love you with every beat of my heart and i miss you with every breath i take ! Til we are reunited again or in my dreams ! 
Loving and Missing You ,
Your Wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my love 
Today is my first Mother's Day without you and baby it hurts so bad every time i try to breathe it would cause pain to my chest making harder to even to breath normally this aching pain is unbearable i miss your Jack so much baby i need you my love give me something please i cant take this aching pain and it only gets worst as time goes by i love you with every beat of my heart and i miss you with every breath i take ! 
Til we are reunited or in my dreams 
Loving and missing you 
Your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello my sweetheart 
I love & miss you so much Jack!  Why has this happen ? I cant take this pain damn it baby why why ? I need you so bad ! I will always love you with every beat of my heart & i will miss you with every breath i take 
Til we are reunited again or see you in my dreams ! 
Loving & missing you always your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello my love ,
I love & miss you so much that it hurts ! How did this happen?  I dont understands why ? I miss you so much jack i hate that your not here with me ! Smh i just cant make sense of this ! I love you with every beat of my heart and i miss you with every breath i take . Til we meet again or in my dreams .
Loving & missing you ,
Your wife 
Michelle Perez

My love 
I love & miss you so much , im sorry but its still so hard for me , i cant believe that your gone sweetheart, i feel so lonely especially when everyone gets together how they come couples , or not but knowing when they get home they'll be someone rite there in bed waiting for them to come home . And i dont any
more , i have no one to talk to at nite ,talk about my problems ,tell my secrets to or just to hold me as we are laying in bed together and that gets so lonely for me now ! Oh Jack smh how did this happen and why ? I never thought this would of happen like this so soon not yet atleast not for another few years later down the road more ! I love you with every beat of my heart & i miss you with every breath i take ! Til we meet again or in my sleep .
Loving & missing you 
Your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello my love ,
All i have to say is that I LOVE & I MISS YOU ! I love you with every beat of my heart & I miss you with every breath i take !!!!!
Loving & missing you 
Your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello baby 
I love and miss you so much Jack,  i wish you were here today was Ernesto's 20th b/d we had a few drinks we had a good time , i got a big beautiful oil painting of you today i thank Joaquin for it . It was really heart warming for me ! Hes a good kid and i love him for being himself!  Well my love til we meet again or in my dreams 
Loving & missing you 
Your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello my love 
I miss you so much i dont know what to do without you my life isnt the same , i cant do this by myself ! I still needed you ! How did this happen? I just dont know any more ! Til we meet again Or in my dreams Jackie my love ! 
Loving & missing you ,your wife Michelle Perez

You will always live in our hearts and prayers.

Hello my sweetheart 
I love & miss you so much Jack!  I just was remembering when i first seen you and that big handsome smile i sure do miss that smile of yours . I was looking back to our life together and we had a lot of good memories and a few bad ones but thats ok cuzz we still loved each other so much , i thank you for a wonderful 18yrs my love and for the memories that will last a life time ! I love amd miss you more then anything in this world . Til we meet again or in my dreams.
Loving & missing you , your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hey baby 
I love & miss you that it hurts so bad my love . I have something good to tell you but i know you already know about the job that pup's girl hooked me up with cleaning an out patient surgery clinic for Sutter in Laguna! I like it but you already knew i would ! its so hard my love having to be without you it scares the hell out of me so much to know my life is never going to be the same without you ! Til we meet again or in my dreams my handsome husband Jack .
Loving & missing you ,your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello my love
Its so hard to believe that your gone ! I havent been myself since you left me , i cant go any were without having to cry because its always been me and you all the time and i miss riding in the car with you i miss everything about you i miss us ! Who do I go and talk to about everything and anything!  I miss your voice,your laughter and your beautiful big smile ! I love and miss you for the rest of my life Jack !!!!
Forever your wife
Michelle Perez

Hello my love 
Its been 3weeks since you left me i still cant believe you left me by myself. This pain i have only gets worse sometime i get so mad at you for leaving me but then i remember that you were trying so then i turn and get mad at god but then i realized that i prayed asking him to please do rite by you cuzz it hurted me to see you go through so much so i get mad at myself and im so sorry that you had to leave us even though you weren't ready to go even when you said you were so tired but you would keep fighting for me because you said you loved me and its ok baby you gave it all that you had so im not mad at you if anything i love you so much . But it hurts because i miss us me and you together as a team but now i may look alone but i know i have my true Angel still by my side i love &  miss you more then anything beside our kids lol i really miss you so much til we meet again my love 
Loving & missing you ,your wife 
Michelle Perez

Hello my love 
Today marks it 3weeks that youve been gone and the pain isn't getting any easier it just gets harder to deal with cuzz its so unbearable hurting pain in my heart,mind,body and soul . I love and miss you Daddy.  Til we meet in my dreams ,
Loving and missing you , your wife 
Michelle Perez

OBITUARY

Joaquin Lopes Gonsalves

March 18, 1956 – April 12, 2015

Harry A. Nauman & Son

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