No matter how many years go by I look like you, I sound like you. I love the same things you do and I can’t share any of it anymore with you. I just live in your memory and what I should’ve done for you. I’m sorry I didn’t convince you hard enough to leave the pain you were in I’m sorry I abandoned you and left you alone. I feel like this is all my fault and I cannot face myself knowing if I was better maybe you would still be here I’m so sorry I left you alone when you needed me. You were everything I ever had and now look at me with nothing but pictures of you. I text you everyday in hopes I might get a response but there’s nothing and that’s what I have to sit with forever because I didn’t try hard enough. I’m so sorry I love you and I love you. I love you more than I ever said than I ever showed I want you back and I can’t get you back I need you 😇💕

One thing you taught me was to smile, and to do it beautifully and especially do it beautifully to those who walked all over you to those who didn’t deserve who you were and do it with pride. You were so prideful in the best way possible I look up to that strength and the strength you provided when I got to know you truly for who my dad was not what my mom had to say and my god I adore you. I talk to you and look up to you everyday for guidance and right now I feel like you’re missing and without you my heart is forever missing the most important part. You were the best parent figure I could’ve had and everything you did was out of love for the kids and even those who weren’t yours that you had to sit in torment and watch you dad are my everything no matter who told you you weren’t. You are my best friend my father and god I wish I could see you smile again- Chloe , your daughter 💕❤️

Dear Dad each picture is going to carry a message; a message of how much I miss your beautiful soul and how much I remember how much love you had to give in your life. Addiction is hard and that’s all my childhood was built around ( I don’t blame you you weren’t given a chance to understand ) but you still did everything in your power to make sure I was good to make sure I was loved. I remember sitting up late at night watching movies because Lexi and I never could sleep as kids lol, I remember you sitting up with me when I felt like I wasn’t good enough and told me how much you loved me and you were sorry. You always were with me. No matter if you understood it or not. You always wanted life to be filled with love and happiness never resentment. It’s a great thing you taught me and I’ll always remember the fist bumps of getting me to look down at your fingers to say “ HA GOTCHA” and laughing so wholeheartedly I miss your beautiful laugh. I miss hearing your voice and wisdom whenever  needed I cannot stand this life without you. A great soul taken too early I lost you at 17 and forever I think I’ll never be the same - love Chloe your daughter who truly loves you more than I ever got to say and I’m sorry for that 💗💗💗

Brian didn't know me, but after everything I've heard about him, I feel like I've known him all of my life. I had the privilege of meeting someone very close to him and learning about him through them, and even though I never had the pleasure of meeting him, I feel his loss greatly, because if he was even half as special as I've heard, then it's true the world lost an incredible person whose loss left a void that could never truly be filled. 

For the longest time I never really understood leaving messages or making posts for the people who went before us. In my mind, I always figured it should be a more personal thing that someone keeps in their heart, but recently it's occurred to me just why it's a good thing and why it should be done, and that's because it can help others. It can show family and friends the difference their loved one made in a way they may not have realized before. It can unite complete strangers who have a common bond over their shared respect for someone, and for what it's worth, I have all the respect in the world for Brian Hilton.

I've been told countless stories about the type of man he was. I've heard about how he treated others and how he looked after his family and loved ones. I'm not saying anything that you reading this don't already know, but it's obvious to me that Brian is a soul who will always be remembered, and if you ask me, that's how a man stays alive. Just because someone passes from this earth, doesn't mean they're gone. Nobody ever truly dies.  I believe Brian's final breath here was his first breath in eternity, and at this moment he is sitting by the throne, firmly and safely in the hand of Jesus Christ where no one or nothing can ever hurt him again.  

Brian didn't pass, no, he just went home. That's all it is.

Revelation 21:4: "And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away."

Brian: My dear brother, my dear friend, my protector; you may be gone, but your role as each of those remains. I want you to know that all that exists around me is full of you. Today and everyday. Your unconditional love, your willingness to help, your unwavering motivation, your words of encouragement towards others even while you were battling the unimaginable, your ability to laugh and make light of even the darkest situations. Those are all characteristics of a man I am so proud to have known. So proud to call my brother. You were unstoppable, a force to be reckoned with, an indestructible master of war. But you were also gentle and compassionate, with a spirit that couldn’t help but love. I come to you in the quiet and still of the hour, when I am reacquainted with my loneness, and I see you. I see you in my memories as if they happened yesterday. Playing like film reels on a projector. Unveiling every detail as I remember them, yet the details are obscured by years that have been placed between you and I. How I wish those years were spent with you. But your smile, your laugh, and your voice are etched into me for eternity, echoing even in my dreams. My dear, I know you are in a place where there are no days or years, but you’re resting now, from the pain and tears. You live on in the jokes I tell, the stories I reminisce on, the songs I hear. I may still be breathing but the air is not the same without you. You were such a unique and inspiring person. You had this inborn ability to bring everyone joy and laughter even if the last thing they wanted to do was laugh. You are so loved and it is not fair that you don’t get to finish all your quests here in life. Or give all the love you had. But I want you to know that I feel it. We all do. Your heart is with us, always. Thank you, Brian Keith Hilton, for spending this lifetime with me. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being the best brother I could have asked for. I love you forever. Love, your little sis

Your unexpected death has shocked our family to the core. You're going to be missed by so many.  Your siblings Bryanna, Kourtney, Kristen,  Skylee,  never got to say their goodbyes. We wish things could have been different. We wish we could have had a memorial service to say goodbye. We wish we could have a place to pay our respect.  Mostly we wish you were still  here for your pranks, your jokes, and your love of life.
Your family will never be the same

Love you so much Brian. 
I know that your right here with us. I feel your energy all the time.  I'm always listening to music with you all the time. I really hope you can give me the strength that I can not ever seem to find so I can do something good with myself to show for and make you proud of me. Love you So much Brian.

I love you so much Brian. You are the most thoughtful, caring, big hearted person that I've ever known and You always show me strength that I don't know I even have. I really love you so much. I really do not know how to accept that your not here anymore.. I honestly will not ever be able to. I know that your with us and I know that your around and I love listening to all our favorite music growing up. So many good memories. We share that love for music so it's there where you can always be found. Love you man so much. I really can't it  say enough

Brian and his grandma. Boy he loved her and loved messing with her more :)

Brian and his brother and best friend Kortney 

Brian was amazing soul. He was not only my brother, but my best friend. Some of the best memories and most fun memories in my life and my children's are with him.
He was a wonderful uncle to my children. He treated them like his own. Brian had a protective nature when it came to his family and was always right there if there were any need.
Life was hard for Brian , but he didn't let it define him.  It didnt stop him from being a  loving, fun,and very wise man at that. He always knew what to say to make everything feel okay. Rest in peace my brother and best friend. It hurts we didn't get to say goodbye, but I know that you are watching over us all and waiting for us on the "brighter side of Grey".  You will be forever missed. Myself,  Kortney,  Kristian and Skylee think of you everyday. You were the best brother any of us could ever have asked for. Not many siblings are lucky enough to also be so close and considered best friends. We were pretty lucky!
God broke the mold when he made you. There's no one like you, there never will be.
We will never have the laugh you brought to us with your unique sense of humor,(You were the most fun person to be around.)but we will hold it close in our hearts and our many memories. Fly high Brian. I love you. Your missed deeply by your siblings, nieces and nephew.  Love you forever and we promise you that we will keep your memory alive. 
Brian had a very deep Love for music and at times he used the lyrics of music to express many emotions, or to communicate something without words. I remember many times he would reach out and say " okay Bryanna  you have to listen to this song ". He was always on point with that. 
His hobbie that he had a great passion for, (and was quite good at) beginning at an early age was playing guitar,  but especially together with our brother Kortney, whom he was extremely close to. The bond they shared was very special. 
We all use that passion of music you had to keep you close to us. Rest in peace we ❤️U

God I miss him alot he was a friend I knew I could talk to about just anything he loved being around his kids and nothing more then that 

OBITUARIO

Brian Keith Hilton Jr.

12 julio, 1986 – 24 marzo, 2022

Advantage Funeral & Cremation Services – Portland

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