August Benson Brown

I remember the day I found out I was pregnant for you, I fell to the floor crying and thanking God for you. It wasn’t long before you were conceived that we lost your sister Aspen Rose Brown, who you now get to be with in heaven. I know you two will hold each other close until we can hold each other as a family again. I had so many plans for you both.

I will forever be grateful that I was able to hold you both and spend time with you. My Gus boy, Benny Bear I am thankful to have seen and kissed your beautiful face. You were perfect in absolutely every sense! You look just like your daddy.

The day I found out your heart was no longer beating a part of my heart died too. The once happy tears I cried turned to sadness for you.

I will forever miss every cry, smile, laugh, and everything in between. There will not be a day I don’t miss you and long to hold you in my arms. My heart yearns to be with you fully. The pain of losing you will never be gone. The only comfort I have is that God and all our family in heaven are holding you for me, until I make my way to you.

In the moments I feel you, hear you, and smell you I feel such peace. Please never stop coming home to me, as I will never stop calling out for you!

As I send you off officially on my end, know that my love knows no bounds and has no end. I love you forever and always to infinity and beyond my sweet boy! I will be there before you know it, don’t blink.

Love always,

Your mommy <3 xoxo

An Angel Never Dies

Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,

That something stopped my heart

I felt each tender squeeze you gave,

I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body you can’t hold

It doesn’t mean I’m gone

This world was worthy, not of me

God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,

What you are forced to face

You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,

Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was meant to be,

God doesn’t make mistakes

But that won't soften your worst blow,

Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you do,

Another child you’ll bear

Believe me when I say to you,

That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you,

When you will hold my hand,

Stroke my face and kiss my lips

And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air,

Or gazed into your eyes

That doesn’t mean I never was,

For an Angel never dies.