I miss you so much it’s has never been the same without you I hope you’re doing okay up there the family don’t really get to together no more. I love you so much!

Hey mom, I know it’s been a little bit since I’ve wrote to you!! Life has its ups and downs . But no matter where I am , I’ll always hold you so dearly to my heart . Some days I miss you so much that getting out of bed feels impossible , but you’re the reason I keep pushing and won’t stop until I’m exactly where I need to be in life . Happy Mother’s Day mama . I miss you more than life itself . Till we meet again ❤️‍🩹🕊️

hey it’s Kami I miss you so much sometimes I think about u and I hope you’re doing ok but am not I miss you it’s hard without you sometimes I think about how you would always smile and you were always so happy and sweet and you were so funny I love you it has been 6 years with out you.☹️

Andrew is with daddy still but so smart so handsome and misses you terribly but don’t worry Trishy he will find his way . We Love you bears . You made such beautiful children.

Your big sister hosted Thanksgiving this year and it was bittersweet as every year because that chair at the table empty. Your sisters love you so much

Your sisters and daughter and niece all so beautiful and still missing the strongest person in the family, our rock , they miss your giggles and smiles and advice and your beautiful heart. We Love you Trishy. Happy Holidays in Heaven baby girl.?

Alexis so beautiful, so strong and so kind like you . We Love you and miss you so much

Your babies are growing up so fast but all still so loving and so smart , we miss you every day and especially Holidays where that chair is empty as our hearts are but we know you want us to live our best lives, as your mama I could barely sleep the last couple nights just reliving our last 4 days together Trishy bears. Mama loves you so much and misses you every second of every day. Sometimes I think I’m loosing my mind like it just isn’t real . I miss your giggles and smile and your voice and how you love the Holidays. Just thought you should know your children are okay Tricia , your sisters are okay , me & your daddy not so much because you are part of our souls and when you left half of us left . Mama Loves you & misses you very very much. Happy Holidays Bears . I’ll be seeing you my beautiful daughter.

It’s been 4 years since I’ve seen your beautiful face and listened to you continuously silly giggle, your phone calls taking me and grandma on vacations or just daily trips. I miss you and grandma so very much. I still cry every single morning and night and I know I’m supposed to be happy you and grandma are in a better place but I’m not, when I lost you it took half my heart and soul and then grandma I have maybe 1/4 left of each now . I don’t even have the words to explain how hollow I am. I try to go to work each day and just live but it’s so hard to even get out of bed  Trishy. I wish God would have answered my prayers and took me I felt so hopeless because as a mommy you want to help your child or as a daughter you want to help your mother and I wasn’t able to help either of you i am emotionally exhausted and I talk to you every day but I never get to hear my phone ring with you on the other end . I Love you so very much and I know you have grandma but I guess I’m selfish because I want you here . It’s not getting easier at all , I hide my tears & pain from everyone . I have faith I will see you both again and I won’t hurt in my heart and soul anymore when we see each other again. I Love you my beautiful daughter and my beautiful mother. I still live in denial and I know that’s not okay but I can’t help it. Love mama

Took the boys their Christmas presents Trishy their getting so big and their so sweet . We Love you and always thinking about you especially during Christmas time. I Love you baby girl, Love ❤️ mana

It's so hard to believe that you are gone. You had such a big heart and love for everyone. I love you sweetheart. 
Aunt Tammy 

Love you, Tricia. 

We all miss you soo much. Your babies love you. They’re the best. ❣️

Trishy I know your watching from heaven and I can’t believe your aabum is a teenager today, 13 years old. I wish you were here bears but I will tell you he is still so kind and giving and sweet as ever . We miss you baby girl . Love ❤️ mama. Happy birthday to Aidan James 

Hi Trishy bears, grandma Zella came home with you and uncle David and I asked her to tell you I love you so much and miss you now my mama is gone . I am beyond crushed that I have lost all 3 ❤️Of you. I love you ❤️ so much and miss you and grandma beyond belief. My world is forever changed.

Dear mom, I can’t even begin to describe the pain I feel when even hearing your name . It hurts so bad because you were all I had you never know how much you have till it’s gone . And man oh man I wish I could just hug you one more time . My life is falling apart without you . I wish I could turn back time I wish it was me and not you . I wish I could take your place because with you gone everyone is falling apart , our family is breaking down slowly one by one . I wish you were here to hold me and tell me everything will be okay because when other people say it I don’t believe . I regret everything bad I ever did or said to you I never knew time would be cut short . If someone asked me what to think when someone passes that’s such a significant part of your life is that you need to keep your head up keep pushing for them because they wouldn’t be happy with you just laying in your pain waiting for it to fade when all it does is gets worse I will forever live by that I will always push forward for you mommy even though everyday I feel like giving up you keep me on my feet . One day I’ll see you again and that day I’m going to hold you and never let go . I miss you mom . Till we meet again 💔

Hello my beautiful daughter I think of you every day and night I talk to you often and I miss you more than words could ever convey.  Trishy grandma Zellas pretty sick but I'm sure you know that already,  she's coming home with you soon and I will hurt forever from the loss of my brother my daughter and now my mother but I know you will be there waiting for your grandma.  When she comes hold her tight baby girl and know I will join you both when my time on earth is finished.  I Love you bears with my whole heart.  Mama

Patricia
     I can’t believe it’s been two years, I just watched the video from your memorial service and endless tears are pouring! You are missed so much, that ray of sunshine that you brought every time you walked into a room is dim now. Thank you for being in my life what a precious gift you were. Your mother, your children and your sisters  hearts ache everyday🥲 I will always be able to see that beautiful smile and that cute little giggle of yours in my memories. So blessed to be. Your aunt. I will continue missing you until I see you in heaven because I know that’s where you’re at!

           Love you forever Aunt Sue
  

It's mommy Trishy Bears I can't tell you how much we miss you baby girl I'm sure you see our tears I'm sure you see mama so broken I don't even want to get out of bed some days. I would give anything to have you here with us , I still have a hard Time when people say to me she's in a better place I always say she was happy here an angel here a beautiful mommy a perfect daughter loved life I still don't understand.  Your children are beautiful Patricia Ann, Life isn't the same at all because you we're the glue for your children,  your sister's and your mom & dad. I Love you with my whole heart and I will never stop talking about you I will never let your memory go I will keep it alive and tell anyone who'll listen what a kind and giving angel you we're to everyone luckey enough to be touched by your kindness.  I miss you Bears so very much.  Love mama.

My Trishy bears  mama misses you so much every day that goes by brings no questions answered no healing only heartbreak and sorrow,  why my baby girl why my Trishy,  Trishy I hope you knew I love you with my entire being my soul is shattered my world is forever changed and not 1 day goes by that I don't have tears rolling down my face, I'm still not accepting this it just cannot be.  Daddy can't talk about you without crying so he won't talk about you to anyone,  your sisters are lost without you your children miss you every day but don't say it out loud.  I Love you Patricia Ann & I will see you again when God decides.  My beautiful beautiful daughter.  Love mama

I think of you every day my beautiful daughter I would give everything I own in this world including my life for you to still be here. I'm still very upset with God and question what happened to you every day,  time passes but the pain is still the same. I miss your beautiful smile,  your little giggle,  your phone calls & texts.  Your children are growing up so fast and I know they miss their mommy because your the best mom ever Trishy,  you never really knew your worth I wish I would have told you more how much you mean to me & how proud I am what a wonderful person you were.  I will see you again. Uncle Johnny's sick but I'm sure you know that.  I Love you bears & miss you my precious little angel. Love mama

Hi beautiful daughter of mine just a little note letting you know how much I miss you & Love you,  my day's so empty without your calls, texts & visits.  I am still in shock and denial  that your not here that God has taken my baby girl home to Heaven & every day every second I cry for the loss I will mourn you forever Trishy bears.  How I wish Heaven had a phone.  Love mama 

My beautiful daughter Patricia  I missed that photo call this morning the one I get every year say Happy mother's day mama & then you would always come over.  You turned out to be the best mother ever  better than even me . I Love you baby Happy mother's day Bears.  We will celebrate together again.  Still can't process this , I miss you more than words could ever say. Rest easy beautiful girl & know that not one single second of one single day goes by without me talking to you and missing you.  Love mama.

Hey mommy, today’s Easter I can’t really sleep right now your stuck in my head I just know how special you would make Easter feel even though we are trapped in quarantine, not one day goes by where I don’t think about not even one second I miss you so much I don’t know what to do about it I feel like it’s never going to get better. I’m going to try to do it for you mommy oh and I’m also getting my wisdom teeth out on Monday I’m kind of scared but I’ll be ok because you’ll be right next to me. Anyway happy Easter mommy🐣🐇 !!! I love you so much I bet you’d love our new puppy too miss you tons, rest easy🥺 ❤️❤️

Hey mom, Valentine’s Day wasn’t the same without you this year at all, I miss your beautiful smile and your goofy laugh. I just want to be able to be in your arms again but I want you to know we are doing alright down here mom knowing your watching over us, although everyday is filled with unbearable pain I know your happier up there and it helps me. It feels like I just saw you yesterday yet it hurts so bad, I love you mommy 

Our Last vacation together for our birthdays and of course Aidan or Austin who really wanted to see Alcatraz.  I miss you Trishy  thank you for loving me and being the best person I know you've done me proud . Love you forever 

We miss you Trishy bears.  Love mom & Monica Rose 

Trishy bears you are missed so much you we're my ANGEL  and now your Gods Angel and your children's Guardian Angel always beautiful always kind always a mom. Love you bears mama

My dear sweet beautiful niece, as I sit here heartbroken memories flood through my mind. If I could use one word to describe you it would be pure. You have always been a ray of sunshine every time you walked into the room your beautiful smile this big beautiful brown eyes and the best laugh ever! I still can’t believe you’re gone But I will see you again someday until then I will feel your light shining down on me.
     Love you to infinity Aunt Sue

Hey there sissy,
So I’ve known for a while I have needed to write this, but I asked mom...how do you shove 35 years of memories into a few sentences? You can’t... I have tried! So I talk to Monica about our childhood as often as I can,  and the memories that Vans and my kids have. I try to help mama these days like you would, try to think of daddy and how he needs his insurance and medication, I try to ask James about games and tournaments, text Lex and Andrew and I get overwhelmed, and think how did you do it? How did you be the best sister, the best daughter, the greatest mom, always on time and smiling? How did you do it? How can anyone ever fill them shoes? I can't seem to come to terms that my little sister is gone. I watched you come in this world I watched you go out. I want you to know that I will always be there for James and all my nephews and my niece. I will be there God willing for their every graduation, wedding and child. Your sisters will be there to pick Lexi’s dress and front row when she’s married. We will make sure Andrew graduates, and Aidan and Austin excel as you would want. I want you to know that I love you sister, and a piece of me went with you when you left. Please look after my son, although I’m sure you’ve already scooped him up! I’ll see you when I’m looking at you! Love you trishy bears! Love, Tiffy

We're trying Trishy bears but Christmas just isn't the same. We got together as always and hopefully will continue to do family things every holiday as we always have but not one second went by today that you weren't on my mind and my heart hurts, still in shock. My life will never ever be the same but Merry Christmas Trishy bears mama loves you and misses you sooo very much until we see each other again my beautiful baby girl. Love mom.

It's Christmas eve Bears but I don't feel like it is and the only thing I want is to see you touch you tell you mama loves you sooo very much my life is forever changed and I'm still taking baby steps one day at a time and I will celebrate Christmas with all my grandchildren and the family but 1 chair will remain empty for you. I miss you Trishy bears I can't believe this is even real. Love mommy 

My Big Sister,

I’ve been avoiding all of this for weeks now because to me it still isn’t real. How could it be? I think about you every second of every day and I can’t help but think it will be like this for the rest of my life. I cannot put in words how much you mean to me. The sister sibling bond is incredibly real and while I’m thankful for the 31 years of memories I have with you, I know we were supposed to have so many more.

You always wanted me to become a strong independent person that made good choices and worked hard for what I have and I’m so thankful I had you as my guide in life and you were always an incredible influence. I have always looked up to you and always will. How can I choose a memory when I have so many to think about. All I can think about is how much I miss you and wish so dearly that someone could wake me up from this horrendous nightmare. Thinking about saying goodbye kills me so much and that’s why I never can.

God gave me, our parents and sisters the best gift in the world and that was you. Saying you are amazing is an understatement because you are beyond that Trishy! I can only try my hardest to stay strong for our family and continue to try to become the woman you wanted me to be. 

I love you so much sister, so so much! I’m sorry we didn’t get more time together and I want you to know that I will always always think about you. I hope and pray that one day I can hug you again and have you tell me that everything is going to be okay, just like when we were kids. The world is never going to be the same without you in it but I promise I will never let anyone forget about you! The love we shared for each other will never fade my beautiful sister ❤️ You will always be in my heart and in my mind! 

Dearest Trishy 
My heart hurts, you were way to young with so much more to do. I will always remember you and Sarah playing barbies and dancing around the house. Your laughter and smile was contagious. Rest in peace beautiful angel, you will forever be in my heart,  Aunt Tammy 


My niece was one of the kindest people I've ever known. She always thought of other people's feelings. My story that I want to share is about a little beagle named Max.  Andrew was given Max, a puppy beagle, by his Grandma Veronica. Trishy asked me "Aunt Leesa could you watch Max while I'm at work?"  Of course I agreed, I had just lost my lab, Bubba (12 yrs.). I was heart broken. Trishy drops Max off before she goes to work and sometimes she includes Max's sister Ladybug. Well you know those puppies started to mend my broken heart.  A few weeks go by and Trishy calls me and says  "Aunt Leesa, I've been thinking and would you like to keep Max?". Now of course I broke down and cried because I already loved Max. My niece is so loving and caring and knew I needed that little beagle in my life. I know it was difficult for her to give him up. You know I cherished Max till the day he passed away in my arms 14 years later. My niece was one of a kind and now I'm heartbroken knowing I have to live the rest of my life with her not in it. My brother Will and his wife, Debbie made the most beautiful baby girl and I am filled with grief at this loss. I will keep you in my heart. Trishy,my sweet girl.  Love Aunt Leesa 

My beautiful cousin. It’s still not real as I’m writing this. As many others have said it’s Impossible to put into words the amount of hurt we feel. You were the reasonable one in the family. You were there for everyone and anyone whenever you were needed, no matter how busy you were or the time. I feel so blessed to have grown up with you from straightening our hair with irons, to Monica getting us to dance, to Tiff doing wild things. You were always the voice of reason. You were the  “mom “ when our parents weren’t around. It’s what you were meant to do was be a mother and boy did you do that well! You are everything I would like to be. You are caring loving sweet patient kind and so much more. I can only hope to become more like you Trisha. When I had no one I trusted to watch my littles as I went into labor YOU were the one I could count on and trust. You were never too busy to help me and for that I thank you. YOU were the one I could trust and not have to worry about my babies. Oh how I wish there was more time with you and my heart breaks for your babies. Heaven took you so soon. They needed you more up there. Like your mom says “see you when I’m looking at you” 
Love little tiff 

My fondest childhood memories are with Trishy. She had the most infectious giggle when she was little and her favorite thing to play was "teacher". She always wanted to make everyone happy! These things also followed her into adulthood and became a part of who she grew to be. I am forever grateful to have shared a part of it with her. Love you always Trishy and I will see you later.

What an honor to know you, Tricia, the last 6 years. There are many sweet memories of our kiddos together! We laughed together at performances, school events, and birthdays! You gave your all in everything you were a part of.  I love how you made sure your kiddos got to try everything. You always put others before yourself. You were concerned with others feelings, and wanted to help make things ok.  I pray that I can be half as kind, caring, thoughtful, generous, loving, FUN, patient, and willing as you, Tricia. This list of attributes is never ending! I will carry those in my heart forever friend! I can see these in your children also.  Well done mama! What a blessing to MANY you will always be!

This is the hardest thing by far I've ever had to write. I will start by telling you Trishy bears how my life will forever be changed. I'm still numb or maybe in shock every minute with you since you were rushed to the hospital, never leaving you, never giving up hope, a constant prayer that God would have mercy by waking my soo beautiful baby girl up. I told God to take me or daddy and daddy said the same, an empty chair on every Holiday and your birthday.  I still wait for my phone to ring with your beautiful smile from the picture I have on my phone that says Trishy is calling,  my texts saying  " I Love you mom " you never knew your beauty or your worth your strength oh Trishy my quiet little teddy bear God put you in mine & daddy's arms and allowed us to feel unconditional love and a sense of pride all parents should feel. Our bright, strong,  beautiful,  giving,  loving,  caring & awesome mommy our daughter turned out to be, an amazing person . I will miss you all the days of my life not one day, one minute, one second will go by without thinking of you my angel, my Trishy bears.  I don't know why God has taken you home so young we had so many years left to make more memories, our trip to Hawaii next year I was so excited, our next Disneyland trip, no nothing will be the same and it hurts me to know you were so sick and mama didn't notice. I am so sorry bears I Love you infinity, when God takes me I hope you're there waiting for me. Mama loves you Trishy bears. 

Hey Trishy 
It’s been about 3 weeks now and my head and my heart are still not on the same page. My head tells me I’ll see and talk to you soon but my heart is sad because it knows that's not true. I’ve been thinking on it for days about what I want to say to you. 
I’ll start with saying I’m sorry. I’m sorry for allowing life to get between us. I know we were both busy and we just kept rescheduling and making excuses why we couldn’t get together. We always thought we’d have tomorrow, next week or next month and now we’re all out of tomorrows, next weeks and next months and I can’t help but feel regret. 
I’ll always cherish our memories and keep them close to my heart. All the late nights we had where we were up till 3am watching our favorite movies and shows or just talking for hours. Our many late night Winco runs to buy a million snacks to accommodate our late nights. The laughs and the smiles we shared are endless and I won’t forget a single one. 
We were so inseparable for years. We bonded over our boys being the same age and what turned into a play date blossomed into a lifetime friendship. I was so very lucky to have the time with you that I did. You let me into your life and your family. I promise you I will do everything I can to be there for your family especially your babies. 
Life won’t be the same without you, but you were surrounded by incredible people so rest easy my love knowing we all have you covered. I love you. 


Tricia,
I miss you so much. The pain is still so incredibly raw and has not eased at all ,will it ever?
I think of you throughout the day, every single day. I think of your kids and James. I've told them that Julian and I will be there, day or night, for whatever they need. I promise that to you.
I was getting ready for work this morning and had a memory of you come to mind. We were out of town at a soccer tournament a few years ago, and as we were all sitting around the pool eating pizza that night, you showed up with a bag of kettle corn and asked Julian and I if we wanted any. I haaaate kettle corn, but he loves it, so the two of you immediately bonded over your love of it lol. We then found out that you love popcorn in general - you told us of the Boy Scout popcorn sales and that you'd have a garage filled with it, and how you'd buy it all if you could! lol. 
You did everything for everyone. You were tired, but you ignored it, because you wanted to be involved for your kids. I even encouraged you to take a break for a soccer season, but you told me you LOVED doing it - and you know what? NO ONE is a better Team Mom than you! I loved our year of being Co-Team Moms. It was easy to do it with someone as organized and genuinely excited as you were. We had fun and must've texted a thousand times a day! I took a break from volunteering this past season. But I vow to return next year as a way to do what you would've done.
Your absence has created a void in all of us. I still don't understand it. It's so unfair. And quite honestly, I'm angry. You had so much life left, so much more love to give, so much more time to see your kids grow up. WHY?
I wish I had just one more visit with you. I would love to tell you how fabulous you were, how much of an impact you've made on my life, and how perfect you really were. 
I will be forever grateful that you were in my life, even if it was for much shorter of a time than it should've been. I'm so sorry, Tricia. Love you.

Tricia, there aren’t words in the dictionary to describe how sad we all are. We miss you so much. When a shining light as bright as you is gone, the world we are left with seems so cold and dark. I miss you Tricia. Our hearts are broken. Thank you for being you.  We love you dearest friend. 

Dear mommy,
I’m still in denial of what happened. It was just so sudden and I don’t even know how to feel or act about it, your my mommy, my rock, my counselor, my best friend. All you did was care about other people instead of yourself. God took a real angel but at the same time we needed that angel here. Everyone needed you and when I say everyone I mean everyone, you were such a kind and loving person and it wasn’t your time. Everyone needs their mommy and I lost mine I just don’t understand why it had to be you and why now at such a young age too. I never thought it would happen and it hurts me that I was so disrespectful to you I truly apologize for that mamma I really do, I’m sorry that I always had to speak my mind about literally everything whether it was the way someone was chewing or what they were wearing you and dad always used to say to me while wearing the same shirt from the day before, “ I wore it again and I knew you were the only person who was going to notice”. This really sucks and all I can say is it’s stupid really freaking stupid. I know they are really going to use your help up there mommy just like we did you can be their rock like you were ours, your going to be in my heart all the time, whether it’s when I have my baby and get married to small things like going to Disneyland:(. I love you more than anything and I know your going to have an amazing second life while taking naps and watching Harry Potter while eating brownies with vanilla ice cream on top. I’d also like to say thank you to all those helping our family we really appreciate it, I’m praying for you mommy as is everyone else and you will be dearly missed. 

Dear Patricia, 
Your passing took me by surprise, We’ve known each other for 20 plus years, growing up across the street together, you guys were like a second family. We started going to school together, and we also were belly buddies carrying our first babies. You were always a great mother. You are a beautiful person inside and out and I was very blessed to have you in my first sons delivery room. Thanks for taking all the pictures that you did, And for all the support that you gave. I will always miss you Trisha, you were such a positive person and a great sister.  Sending all my love, support and prayers to your family. You will be forever missed. Love always LaTosha Rodriguez Anderson 

Dear friend,
I still can't believe you are gone.  It's been weeks and I keep going to text you or think of something to tell you.   I even want to talk to you about this- about you being gone... I want to tell you "can you believe it?  my friend died and it's so unbelievably painful" and then I realize it's you I've lost.  I don't know when things stop being so hard but I don't imagine it is any time soon.  I feel your absence at every single thing for the boys and the grief overwhelms me.
One of the many things that makes me sad is that you aren't here to see this outpouring of love, support and appreciation that people had FOR YOU, for just being YOU!  You wouldn't believe how much love everyone had for you, the admiration, how loving, kind and energetic everyone thought you were.  You were so hard on yourself and didn't realize your awesomeness, so it would surprise you to see how admired and how awesome everyone thought you were.
I promise you, with everything I have, with everything I am, I will be there.  I will make sure that James has the support I can offer in raising the boys.  I will do my best to fill in the gaps of you being gone, the little things, the big ones, the things us moms know that dads don't... I'll be there.  I know you would've been the first to do so for me if the situations were reversed.
I miss you.  Every day.  I can't believe that the only place I'll ever see your face is in the memories we have together. And I'm so grateful for the time I had on earth to get to know you.  I promise to honor your memory by being generous with my time and energy and pour into others, as you always did. 

Tricia was such a wonderful person. Years ago we lived in the same complex as Deb and Savanah for about 7 years and have so many memories of her while there and doing activities with their family. Swimming, dinners, 4th of July, movies “Cinderella”, skating rink, birthdays, and many more that aren’t coming to mind. Every time I spoke with her I was reminded of how sweet and kind she was. The best smile ever! This world will definitely be missing what heaven gained, that’s for sure! I bet she is the most beautiful angel.

Tricia volunteered her heart out in the scouting community. She ran popcorn sales and we touched bases that way several times. 
My favorite memory is when Aiden needed his appendix out. I came to the hospital to entertain with pocket games, cards, and books. Tricia, Aiden, and family then turned around to make hospital kits for kids so they wouldn’t be bored in the hospital. Tricia was ALWAYS thinking of others. She will be severely missed. We love you Tricia and family! 

Our deepest condolences to James and the children. Our hearts are devastated and our spirits crushed at the tragic and sudden  passing away of Trish. Trish was a jewel, always cheerful, helpful and thoughtful. We could not have wished for better next door neighbors. James and Trish never ceased to rake our front lawn at every chance they got.  Philip would always tease me about how hardworking some women are in reference to Trish and how tirelessly she worked. I shared this  story with both James and Trish about 2 weeks ago and we all got a good hearty laugh. It is our earnest prayer that God's supernatural comfort will abide with James and the children in their loss as we continue to pray for them. 

AVIS DE DÉCÈS

Patricia Ann Estey

1 juin 1984 – 2 décembre 2019

Mount Vernon Memorial Park & Mortuary

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